I...

• never cook dinner
• "breathe heavily" in my sleep
• am very lazy when it comes to school work
• am either very quiet or too loud
• edit my thoughts before I speak
• am terrible at story telling
• freeze up when I know somebody is doing something they shouldn't be doing
• have potential to do great things, but my laziness gets in the way
• will probably become diabetic because of my high sugar intake
• have silent yet very passionate tantrums
• am very private
• don't like other people touching my stuff
• don't like being asked questions
• don't like the limelight, at all
• get offended easily
• frequently have emotional breakdowns
  • in private, of course
• sometimes seriously wonder if I have a personality disorder
  • there is a ceaseless dialogue running through my head every moment I am awake and not daydreaming
  • I have frequent meltdowns, sometimes for no reason
  • I have never been able to sustain a friendship
  • I have failed to land a job three times
  • I have this knack of clinging onto people and friends that neglect me the most and cause most of my suffering
    • like I want to be treated as a doormat
    • like I want to be abused
    • but it's weird because I don't
• sometimes seriously deliberate on whether or not I should go get myself checked
  • then again, I'm not really qualified for a mental illness if I'm actually acknowledging this, right?
  • I don't know. I still wonder.