• lie down in the snow and watch the flakes fall and land on my face
• sit in a tide pool while it's heavily raining
• star gaze in the back country with a friend and witness five shooting stars; name all apparently visible constellations and their alpha stars
• plunge head first into a glacial lake
• dive off a cliff
• go cruising with giant tortoises
• climb up high into a tree
• watch the sun rise from the top of a mountain
• watch the sun set from a boat in the middle of the Pacific
• float and drift in the middle of the Pacific on a clear and sunny day
• walk through a forest and divert from the beaten pathway
• stand at the edge of a sea vessel at 1 o'...

July

• decided to not work all the way up until cali trip and instead take two weeks off for camp and have some free time to spend with myself...and family and friends (thus sacrificing approx. $750 that could have gone toward school tuition BUT I DON'T CARE BECAUSE I AM DONE WORKING AND GIVING MY LIFE AWAY TO STARBUCKS I JUST WANNA LIIIIIIIVE)
• 06: greek fries with abe and josh, driving up to cypress, timmies on the way, abe coming up with the crazy idea of driving all the way up to the mountain peak, then after passing the lookout he says "cabin in the woods", after which we all start to shout at each other and freak out, josh in a deadly serious tone repeatedly yells "ABE I'M GOING TO KILL YOU I'M GOING TO KILL YOU", and if you know josh he's not much to yell or even speak audibly, so ...

date of memory = bolded

• 1.25.12, grade 6, 04/05. luis chan's mute mother entering the classroom at lunch time in search for her son. because she could not verbally inform us of her purpose for being there she picked up a chalk stick and simply wrote luis on the board. in response, half of us, in intentionally clear tones, told her that luis was somewhere (i do remember knowing where luis was, i just don't remember where exactly)
  • mrs. chan had kind, humble smile
• 2.8.12, summer 2010. biking around trout lake with jonah and mark. Helping out old lady who forgot where she parked her car. bikes are so useful

• jamie and claire
• hermione and ron
• cathy and heathcliff
• cathy and hareton
• aeriel and irrylath
• amy and elder
• lady constantine and swithin st. cleeve
• arwen and aragorn
• grace and sam
• mrs graham and gilbert markham
• elizabeth and mr darcy
• beren and lúthien
• the dragon prince and seven
• baby and xavier
• anne and gilbert
• ella and char
• cam rohan and amelia hathaway
• minerva dobbs and calvin morrisey
• miss parkinson and christian reade
• annabel and owen
• ellen marlowe and michael tyler

Petrichor

• n. the scent of rain on dry earth

Athazagoraphobia

• n. the fear of forgetting or being forgotten

Nepenthe

• n. a drug mentioned in Homer's Odyssey as a remedy for grief

Segue

• n. to move smoothly and unhesitatingly from one state, condition, situation, or element to another

Nivious

• n. resembling snow; snowy

Bildungsroman

• n. a novel whose principal subject is the moral, psychological, and intellectual d...

people that i have heard play their interpretations of chopin, recorded on either vinyl, cassette tape, cd, or youtube

• van cliburn
• arthur rubenstein
• this guy
• ida cernicka
• bianca sitzius
• aldona dvarionaite
• sviatoslav richter
• tamás vásáry

• 8/2/11: an opportunity of the specific sort (opportunity given 8/4/11)
• 8/4/11: if it's not His will, then shut the door asap; i'd much rather face a shallow disappointment now, than to suffer heartache down the road (8/7/11)
• 2009/2010: wikus to get her heart back where it needs to be (camp 2011)
• 9/4/11: possible call to the mission field
• 9/25/11: need a cheaper place to live; the one on kingsway might be the one (the day we were supposed to receive a call for confirmation of application acceptance, we didn't get the call, so lola and i could only assume we weren't accepted. rows and spilling of tears ensued. when i came home from school the day after, my grandma told me she got a call and it turns out we've been accepted :D)
• 10/2/11: faithway or west coast? (answere...

that i've befriended in the junior libraries on 350 West Georgia and 2985 Kingsway

• Rusalka
• Maruša
• the Rough-Face Girl
• Seven
• The White Bear's Bride
• Vanishia
• Volkova

• Thomas Hardy's cottage in Higher Brockhampten, Dorset
• Thomas Hardy's grave at Westminster Abbey
• Thomas Hardy's heart in Stinsford parish church
• Jane Austen's grave at Winchester Cathedral
• William Blake's monument near unmarked grave at Bunhill Fields
• Lord Byron's grave at the Church of St. Mary Magdalene
• T.S. Eliot's wall plaque at St Michael's Church in East Coker
• Thomas Gray's tomb in Stoke Poges Churchyard
• John Keats' grave in the Protestant Cemetery, Rome
• Alexander Pope's grave at the Church of St Mary the Virgin in Twickenham
• William Shakespeare's grave at Holy Trini...

• The Road Goes Ever On - J.R.R. Tolkien
• Elegy Written in a Country Churchyard - Thomas Gray
• Eloisa to Abelard - Alexander Pope
• A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning - John Donne
• The Clod and the Pebble - William Blake
  • A Poison Tree
• Desert Places - Robert Frost
• Love - George Herbert
• Apostrophe to the Ocean - Lord Byron
• How Do I Love Thee? - Elizabeth Barrett Browning
• Music, When Soft Voices Die - Percy Bysshe Shelley
• She Dwelt Among the Untrodden Ways - William Wordsworth
• Light Shining Out of Darkness - William Cowper
• Love Not Me - Anonymous? John Wilbye?
• Maud Muller - John Greenleaf Whittier
• To a Mouse - Robert Burns
• He Wishes for the Cloths of Heaven - William Butler Yeats
• Remember - Christina Rossetti
• We Real Cool - Gwendolyn Brooks

• Ivan
• Oliver
• Darroch (deh-rik)
• Linton (linda+tony - my grandparents)
• Luke, Luc
• Jeremy
• Ioan (ian)
• Anthony
• Aledh
• Gilbert

• If I was a month , I'd be October
• If I was a day of the week , I'd be Sunday
• If I was a time of day , I'd be dusk
• If I was an animal of the sea , I'd be an orca
• If I was a direction , I'd be north-west
• If I was a planet , I'd be Neptune
• If I was a piece of furniture , I'd be an old wooden travel chest
• If I was a sin , I'd be envy
• If I was an historical figure , I'd be Sir Arthur Currie or Lord Byng, heroes of the battle of Vimy Ridge
• If I was a liquid , I'd be fresh British Columbia mountain spring water
• If I was a gemstone , I'd be a pearl
• If I was a tree , I'd be a weeping willow
• If I was a bird , I'd be a robin
• If I was a tool , I'd be a thimble
• If I was a flower , I'd be a forget-me-not
• If I was a material , I'd be soft printed cotton
• If I was a kind of weather , I'd be an afternoon thunderstorm in the middle of a hot, muggy August day
• If I was a musical instrument , I'd be a cello

The Holy Bible: King James Version

• In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

Great Expectations by Charles Dickens

• My father’s family name being Pirrip, and my christian name Philip, my infant tongue could make of both names nothing longer or more explicit than Pip. So, I called myself Pip, and came to be called Pip.

Interview with the Vampire by Anne rice

• "I see . . ." said the vampire thoughtfully, and slowly he walked across the room towards the window.

Frankenstein by Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley

• going to the river down by my house in the philippines
• hiking up to the sixth fall at mambukal resort with my family and guides in philippines
  • bathing and sitting in the river
• canoeing/swimming at graham lake
• lynn canyon park alone
• kayaking at deep cove with my dad
• going to the beach in winter
• community gardens at strathcona park on a rainy day (2009)
• walking around Gastown on a grey day and discovering McLeod's for the first time (2009)
• camping in osoyoos (2009)
  • borrowing my dad's friend's kid's bike and riding into town while the rest of the party went horseback riding

• sadness of eating the last piece of cake and realising there'll be no more left
• sadness of wanting love but knowing you're not fit for it
• sadness of watching your grandmother cry
• sadness of listening to your best friend despair over the phone
• sadness of not realising you don't have enough money to buy your favourite donut until after you've ordered
• sadness of wanting to go to school but not being able to
• sadness of receiving empty condolences
• sadness of forgetting your dream the moment you wake up
• sadness of trying to replay your dream but feeling it slip through your cognitive fingers
• sadness of not being able to see or talk to your best friend when she leaves for a trip to a foreign country
• sadness of knowing you have a brilliant m...

• Girl in a Field, 1857 - Ludwig Knaus
• Soleil Couchant - Théodore Rousseau
• Lane Near A Small Town - Alfred Sisley
• Rural Guardsman in the Fontainebleau For... - Alfred Sisley

• to sail the stars every night
• a pair of strong, warm arms to wrap around me and hold me tight
• to face only the sun as i float upon the pacific
• for a child of my own to smile up into my face and love me without reserve
• to express and record how i feel in music
• to have strong but shapely legs; like a dancer's
• for the boy i like to like me back
• to climb a tree and lay on a branch like a jaguar
• a knowledgeable friend to talk literature with

italicized titles indicate they have been read & bolded titles indicate incompletion or uncracked

DECEMBER 2000

• Anne of Green Gables - L.M. MONTGOMERY

MAY 2009

• 19: Wuthering Heights - EMILY BRONTE
• 22: Sense & Sensibility - JANE AUSTEN
• 22: The Time Traveler's Wife - AUDREY NIFFENEGGER

JUNE 2009

• 14: Persuasion - JANE AUSTEN

JULY 2009

• 19: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - J.K. ROWLING

AUGUST 2009

• The Saxophone Winter - ROBERT HARLOW (bought in Osoyoos)
• Eden Close - ANITA SHREVE (bought in Osoyoos)
• Far from the Madding Crowd - THOMAS HARDY (cheap quality bought in ...

Past

• coldplay @ gm place january 2007
• hey ocean @ canada day 7/1/2010
• arcade fire @ pacific coliseum 9/28/2010
• vancouver symphony orchestra @ summer live 7/10/2011
• dan mangan @ summer live 7/10/2011
• explosions in the sky @ vogue theatre 9/9/2011
• bon iver @ orpheum 9/25/2011
• vancouver symphony orchestra @ orpheum 1/9/2012

Missed

• sigur ros @ chan centre 10/7/2008
• the album leaf @ rickshaw theatre 2/7/2010
• sufjan stevens @ orpheum 10/28/2010
• hey rosetta! @ rio theatre 3/5/2011
• fleet foxes @ vogue theatre 4/29/2011
• youth lagoon @ vanue 7/21/2012

And being fully persuaded that, what he had promised, he was able also to perform. - Romans 4:21

• Psalm 37:25
• Psalm 40:1-4
• Proverbs 3:5-6
• Isaiah 41:10
• Lamentations 3:21-23, 25
• Matthew 6:19-21
• Matthew 7:7
• Philippians 4:13
• I Thessalonians 5:24
• I John 1:9

KJV

• Evlan or Evelyn
• Aurora or Oraura
• Irelin or Irelyn
• Cera (kee-rah)
• Ealasaid (it's some Scottish name that I still have yet to discover the accurate pronunciation. I like it because the spelling is really pretty..)
• Aledh (a-leth)
• Quensey (ken-zee)
• Falehn (fay-len)
• Amber
• Mirial
• Aurel (o-rill)
• Carin

combinations

• Cera Falehn
• Cera Evelyn
• Amber Falehn
• Falehn Aurel

Forbearance, Perseverance, Endurance

• James 1:2-4
• Galatians 5:22-23
• Galatians 6:9
• James 5:7, 8
• James 5:10-11
• Luke 21:19
• Isaiah 40:31
• Psalm 37:7-9
• Romans 5:3-5
• Psalms 40:1
• Lamentations 3:26
• Ecclesiastes 7:8
• Romans 12:12
• 2 Corinthians 12:12
• Ephesians 4:1-2
• 2 Thessalonians 1:4
• Hebrews 10:36
• Hebrews 12:1
• 1 Peter 2:19-20
• Revelation 14:12

• What a Friend We Have in Jesus
• Because He Lives
• O Wondrous Love
• He's Been Faithful to Me
• Come, Thou Fount
• The Point of Grace
• When We See Christ
• Midnight Cry
• So Much To Thank Him For
• Were It Not For Grace
• Light of That City
• The Lord Is My Light
• Amazing Grace
• It Is Well With My Soul
• I'd Rather Have Jesus
• That's What Grace Is For
• Sweet Beulah Land
• Settled at the Cross

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spir... - Colossians 3:16

My House

• Gryffindor

My Pet

• black cat

My Wand

• willow
• 10"
• dragon heartstring
• swishy

My Patronus

• green sea turtle

My Amortentia

• get a job
• get a reliable cell phone plan (expensive but...)
• graduate
• get back down to 110 lbs
• make a tie-dye shirt
• go on a road trip
• witness to my grandmother
• download all my favourite studio ghibli films
• stay up-to-date in my bible reading schedule
• go bungee jumping
• go skydiving
• hike up to the lions
• get my palm read
• hike to the top of shannon falls
• expand my chopin library
• expand my "post rock" library
• expand my jazz library via art tatum
• read 40 books

• introductory astronomy
• library history
• ancient greek philosophy
• Classics run-through
• Christian martyrs
• history of imperialism
• canadian aboriginal history
• american indigenous history
• history of post-Jesus israel
• israel/iran/russian relations
• flower pressing
• history of writing
• Romantic era
• norse mythology
• history of canadian immigration
• who invented what musical instrument
• history of alternative education in north america
• genocides in history
  • rwanda

• is there anything better than love?
• does love really die?
• does love really begin?
• or does it just wait for the right moment to show itself?
• how do you just stop loving someone?
  • like when marriages fall apart and end up in a divorce
  • do you really stop loving them afterward?
  • or does a kernel of love still remain until you die?
• was it really love if you stopped?
• how many people die not knowing love?
• how many people kill because of love?
• should we let love get in the way of our dreams?
  • as principle; no matter what?
• what's worse?

I am an INFP: introversion, intuition, feeling, perception; The Healer. List idea stolen from here.

• I prefer Introversion over Extraversion by a 77.5% margin. Introverts get their energy from focusing inward on their own thoughts, feelings, and personal experiences. They are energized by:
  • Reflecting on thoughts or feelings
  • Being in calm surroundings
  • Exploring a subject in depth
  • Contemplating ideas and experiences
  • Maintaining distance and privacy
  • Quiet and solitude
• I prefer Intuition over Sensing by a 10% margin. Intuitives take in information using a "sixth sense" and focus on meaning, connections, and possibilities. They like to focus on:
  • Observing patterns and connections

• Alfred Lord Tennyson, In Memoriam A.H.H. (Nov 3, 2011 - ongoing)
• Herman Melville , Moby Dick (Nov 20, 2011 - May 14, 2012)
• Aldous Huxley, Brave New World (Dec 5, 2011 - abandoned)
• Diana Wynne Jones , Castle in the Air (Dec 19, 2011 - January 2, 2012 at 3 o'clock in the morning)
• J.R.R. Tolkien , Bilbo's Last Song (January 2)
• Marianna Mayer , The Spirit of the Blue Light (January 4)
• Carl Withers , The Grindstone of God (January 4)
• Diana Wynne Jones , House of Many Ways (January 10-22)
• Saviour Pirotta , Firebird (January 11)
• Tomie dePaola , Strega Nona (January 11)
• K.M. Peyton , Dear Fred (January 16-18)
• W Terry Whalin, Sojourner Truth: American Abolitionist (February 16-March 4)
• Lise Lunge-Larsen, Mary Azarian (Illustrator), The Race of the Berkebeiners (February 20)
• J. Patrick Lewis, Gennady Spirin (Illustrator), The Frog Princess (February 20)
• Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games (March 18)
• Beth Revis , A Million Suns (March 19, 9:00pm - five hours later)
• Kat Falls , Dark Life (March 20)
• Kat Falls, Rip Tide (March 25-26)

• job hunting
• going to the bank
• going to school in the morning when i haven't finished an assignment or project
• babysitting - dealing/talking with the mother (i never fail to heave a sigh of relief once she leaves for work. as for the actual babysitting, i take great joy in it!)
• figuring out where to sit at lunch time
• looking for my buspass
• continual amassing of debt on my library card
• waking up on a full scheduled day; understanding i'll hardly have any time to myself, or that when i do, i'll have no energy left to enjoy it
• sending mail
• dealing with patrons on craigslist
• when hurricane season passes through my room

• Milady de Winter
• Lord Voldemort
• Severus Snape
• Sauron
• Gollum
• Count Dracula
• Rebecca/Mrs. Danvers
• The Pied Piper
• Heathcliff/Cathy
• Jonathan Randall
• The Other Mother
• Vikram Szpirglas
• Dr. Frankenstein/the Monster
• Louis de Pointe du Lac
• Smaug
• Morgoth Bauglir (Melkor)
• Ungoliant
• Túrin Turambar
• Glaurung
• Cécile
• the Witch

sad, lonely, depressed, when friends fail, when heros and heroines fail, when it seems like nobody cares anymore, when everybody is too busy for me, when the only single person I can pour out my heart to is Jesus, when I become weary of doing good to people and not receiving a word or smile of appreciation or even acknowledgement of my presence, when I need the sea

• II Corinthians 4:16-18
• Philippians 4:4-7
• Galatians 6:9-10
• Matthew 11:28-30
• I Corinthians 15:58
• John 16:33
• Psalm 34:17-19
• Psalm 40:1-2

(KJV)

• studio ghibli boxset
• itouch
• t-shirt with studio ghibli's logo
• money to go shopping at sally ann's
• small sewing machine
• trip to the wizarding world of harry potter
• bella swan's yellow jacket that she wore in new moon
• a simple point and shoot digital camera so i can document my everyday findings and share them on the interwebz
• A Retrospective Look at Young Adult Lite...
• the little prince (the nice hardcover one with the blue ribbon bookmark)
• steel nib, black india ink, bristol paper
• tim horton's gift card

The History of Middle-earth

• The Book of Lost Tales 1 (1983)
• The Book of Lost Tales 2 (1984)
• The Lays of Beleriand (1985)
• The Shaping of Middle-earth (1986)
• The Lost Road and Other Writings (1987)
• The Return of the Shadow (The History of The Lord of the Rings v.1) (1988)
• The Treason of Isengard (The History of The Lord of the Rings v.2) (1989)
• The War of the Ring (The History of The Lord of the Rings v.3) (1990)
• Sauron Defeated (includes The History of The Lord of the Rings v.4) (1992)
• Morgoth's Ring (The Later Silmarillion v.1) (1993)
• The War of the Jewels (The Later Silmarillion v.2) (1994)
• The Peoples of Middle-earth (1996)

Other

• joseph haydn → ludwig van beethoven
• camille saint-saëns → gabriel fauré
• charles gounod → georges bizet
• gabriel fauré → maurice ravel
• nikolai rimsky-korsakov → igor stravinsky

• Outlander by Diana Gabaldon
• After Hamelin by Bill Richardson
• Airborn by Kenneth Oppel
• The Giver by Lois Lowry
• The Darkangel by Meredith Ann Pierce
• Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger
• Franny and Zooey - J.D. Salinger
• Out of the Silent Planet - C.S. Lewis