April

• team peeta vs team gale
• exodus from central library come 8:57 PM
• late night bubble tea run with the boys
  • literally took an hour and a drive around vancouver to decide where we wanted to eat
  • hope roi doesn't grow up to be like the guys
• starbucks literally sucked the juice out of my life
  • tbh i cannot wait to be done here and off at school
  • tbh i'd rather be a cleaning lady and get paid less but well
  • talking to people is exhausting
• poem
• so i have thIS really crazy expectation that if i'm going to meet my one and only when i go to bible college in the next school year (if God has even included marriage in his will for my life. and it is IMPERATIVE that that man has to be more intelligent than i am. dunno how i can commit my life to anyone who doesn't think on the same frequency as i do. i just can't. anyway, that means he has to be exceptionally well read.] so if i want to impress this man, if i'm going to impress him, IF I AM EVEN GOING TO CATCH HIS INTEREST, IF HE IS EVEN GOING TO CONDESCEND TO MY LEVEL AND SOMEHOW FALL IN LOVE WITH ME DESPITE MY NON-EXISTENT LOOKS, I'VE GOT A LOT OF READING TO DO IN THE NEXT FOUR MONTHS. so i've decided to stick with the basics. classics. like classics classics. like homer and virgil and dante and ancient greek philosophies. and maybe check out some bunyan on the side. dunno if i'll be able to finish in memoriam or childe harold's pilgrimage by august, but i'm past halfway through moby dick so if i work my brain really hard i think i can fit a little bit of everything and touch on at least every major ancient greek school of thought. and if i don't meet my one and only in the next sixteen months, or if it's not God's will for me to ever marry, then hey i'll have at least SOME IDEA ABOUT HALF OF WHAT MELVILLE IS REFERRING TO IN MOBY DICK the next time i read it.
• on goodreads it says that i am currently reading 6 books. i don't think i can ever go back to reading one book at a time. i've always got to be reading out of a poetry collection or long poem (which you don't really ever finish), a classic (right now that would be moby dick), a quick fiction read, and now i've added a study subject to the list (which is currently occupied by ancient greek philosophy). omeword. how do i even have a life right now. oh wait i don't.
• all you readers out there need to get goodreads so i can connect with real-life friends. the only real friend i have on there is my grade 7 teacher. and she rarely uses it.
• HELLO POTTERMORE. my username is willowdust20810. ADD MEEEEE
• my wand is larch with phoenix feather core, 10 inches, rigid. not too shabby
  • larch: Strong, durable and warm in colour, larch has long been valued as an attractive and powerful wand wood. Its reputation for instilling courage and confidence in the user has ensured that demand has always outstripped supply. This much sought-after wand is, however, hard to please in the matter of ideal owners, and trickier to handle than many imagine. I find that it always creates wands of hidden talents and unexpected effects, which likewise describes the master who deserves it. It is often the case that the witch or wizard who belongs to the larch wand may never realise the full extent of their considerable talents until paired with it, but that they will then make an exceptional match.
  • phoenix feather: This is the rarest core type. Phoenix feathers are capable of the greatest range of magic, though they may take longer than either unicorn or dragon cores to reveal this. They show the most initiative, sometimes acting of their own accord, a quality that many witches and wizards dislike. Phoenix feather wands are always the pickiest when it comes to potential owners, for the creature from which they are taken is one of the most independent and detached in the world. These wands are the hardest to tame and to personalise, and their allegiance is usually hard won.
• i also own a black cat
• like i'm happy for riz but tbh when i looked through her engagement photos, for every picture i was like ".....euuuuuggghh.....okay...." i don't know this chic anymore. like who are these people? how old are you? 15? oh 20 and 36?
• wrath of the titans with pa and his girlfriend, mylene.
• mark gets a goodreads account
• first day of the year i go out wearing just one layer
• one saturday i walk into chapters and like ten seconds in this guy just walks up to me and says "hey i think you're cute" and we proceed to carry on a fifteen minute conversation, mostly him asking me questions about what i like to read and why i don't think it's logical for me to take art in university, ending it off with me giving him a fake phone number and name. i don't even remember what his name is. short story even shorter, he wasn't cute and very creepy. the end.
• i finally follow ppaul on twitter (again) and accept his follow request

May

• lose my burt's bees chapstick (for about the billionth time; millionth time in just 2012) as well as my travel sized vaseline =(
• des's debut
  • the avengers with abe, josh, fern, and deiniol
• NEW MOLESKINE YAAAYYYYY
• hannah returns
• long hard multi-day thinking about how i really feel about rizza getting married and basically abandoning/alienating gvbc and her past, inlcuding me, and why not hannah
• beach and night market with the guys
  • riding in the backseat of abe's car listening to abe and david discussing rizza/jon/matt
  • abraham mentions something i didn't know beforehand that totally changed my view on the whole ordeal
• in abe's words, "jonathan's an ass"
  • he truly is
  • every time i look at him i think, "wow that's sad"
• humans are so weak. and probably the people who you think are the strongest, are the weakest. they just learn how to make themselves look good. and people eat it up.
• brother sam's mother's day message was so emotional
  • bought two books. one about feminism and biblical womanhood and the other one was an old reprint about God's various traits and names
• only have about 20 pages left of moby dick
• MOBY DICK DONE
• CHILDHOOD DONE
• telling my grandmother i'm sleeping over at hannah's
  • sneaking out of hannah's house
  • awol
• may 25, 2012: first glimpse of lyra of the year

June

• graduated from high school FOREVER
• hamid gets arrested for like the 23894209348th time and the kids get taken away from inday
• good long late night discussion about life and family history with my grandma at the dinnertable
• went shopping with dad for a netbook and external harddrive WOOOOOOOOOOT it's beautiful. so small and sleek and simple and quiet. IT'S PURRFCT for me.