✩ january

• moved back to ohio, into our new apartment
• started at the new university, but then the faculty went on strike for three weeks
• spent way too much money, on new stuff for the apartment, and eating out
• trying to spend time together, but not spending as much as we should have

✩ february

• had to go back to tennessee for the weekend for eli to ship
• eli's swearing in, we are officially soldier and army wife
• we should have spent more time together, it seemed like we had more time, and now we won't see each other for months
• had to go back to school, it's weird. i like my professors and what i'm doing in my classes, but i don't feel like i belong at this school. everyone is so involved and knows what they're doing with their lives
• i've been writing a letter a day to eli, but haven't been able to send them yet
• i'm worried that i wasn't able to get signed up for benefits and insurance. i don't know how we'll be able to pay the rent if i don't get basic housing allowance

✩ march

• god, i miss my husband. i want to get the next several months over with and be able to live together again
• on spring break, already tuesday and i hope the rest of the week slows down before i have to go back. it's also so freaking cold
• eli broke his leg. i am worried because i have no clue what is going on. he has worked so hard to get to this point, he fought so fucking hard to get in, i just want this to go well for him.
• so, eli will be staying in and joining a rehab batallion where his leg can heal. i'm happy for him, this is the best choice, but i'm sad that this will make it so much longer before we can see each other. eli cried on the phone yesterday and it was so heartbreaking. i don't want him to feel like a failure.
• he's coming home. i am so anxious for him to just be here already, but it will apparently take months. i just want him to be here so i can hold him and have him hold me and so we can just....get on with our lives.

✩ april

• eli will be home in a month or so. i am so anxious for this month to be over and to see him again.
• eli is coming home tomorrow! i am so fucking happy to have my husband back with me!

✩ may

• spring semester ended, have a 4.0
• summer semester started and is moving fast!
• house of japan for early birthday
• victrola turntable and two vinyls for my birthday from eli!

✩ june

• hello, i am having a baby!
• being pregnant is weird, when you're only in the early stages. you feel like crap, but no one can even tell you're pregnant. you can't even really tell you're pregnant. you look at your stomach, and it's still small, no baby bump yet.

✩ july

• i am 12 weeks pregnant, still no bump, so it still seems unreal to me
• but we had an ultrasound and then later we heard the heartbeat! there is very much a real, live thing in my tummy. i just can't feel it yet.