january

• good new years: pizza, cheese sticks, bread sticks and tv with the husband
• cold, but also too warm for january
• started school; too many classes, very stressful
• too many fights, it's been a bad winter

february

• settling into classes
• car needs work
• good valentine's day: yamato's japanese steakhouse, lasagna and tv
• got nice matching rings

march

• double date with people eli works with
• bridal shower for someone in eli's family
• painting, nautical clock, and candle for mom's birthday
• moving stress
• batman v superman! wonder woman!
• house of japan for eli's dads birthday

april

• i think i might need pills again, i'm moody and snapping a lot
• it's the 9th and i haven't seen eli for more than a few hours at a time in what seems like a week
• getting ready to move; i'm stressed about cars and money

may

• moved back in ith eli's dads family; it's strange, but feels generally better than when we lived here before
• semester is almost over!!
• captain america: civil war was disappointing =(
• FINISHED WITH MY FIRST SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!!!!!! probably could've done better in some classes; will need to get my act together more for the others.
• eli got a loan so we could get my car fixed, which is good, but is an extra bill to pay.
• tomorrow's my 24th birthday; eli surprised me at work with flowers and a 3DS! i have the best husband.
• got a promotion (sort of)!!! i am now a circulation desk clerk, which is one step closer to being a librarian!!!
• busy weekend: dinner with my family, dinner with an old friend from high school, movies with eli's friends, dinner with eli's dads family
• started my new job. was nervewracking, but i think i did a pretty good job.

june

• things got really bad for a while there.
• things are slowly getting better i think
• a lot of hanging out.
• went to yellow springs with leslie, then went for a nice, long walk at john bryan state park.
• went to yellow springs again with eli and some friends, for a very fat cat's birthday party.
• went to my first pride rally with a friend.
• milo might be a free-range bunny now, in my room at least; she's very affectionate without a cage.
• i really, really like being a circulation clerk.

july

• sometimes things still feel weird between us. like after his depression, we didn't reconnect right or something. other times, everything still feels perfect and magical.
• i have become addicted to shopping at thrift stores and goodwill. my clothes collection is slowly growing and is cute.

august

• summer semester is over; i feel like i failed myself
• we're going to start looking for an apartment; i don't want to move to tennessee
• i think i want a spaniel puppy one day; i've started seeing them everywhere, it feels like fate

september

• autumn semester has started; going well so far
• the apartment search still goes
• i'm breaking out so bad; i want to shell out for good products and have a good skincare routine
• i don't think eli wants to get an apartment, he wants to move to tennessee, i don't know what to do

october

• it is too hot for autumn
• i think i'm getting a new laptop pretty soon
• got a new surface pro!!! i love it!!
• halloween party was fun. i was a dark unicorn
• i was a light unicorn for work

november

• we are officially moving to tennessee after christmas. i'm so fucking terrified. i love my job. i'm afraid to leave my family and the few friends i have. this is so scary
• hung out with april and leslie at leslie's place. we've established we are the most awkward human beings on the planet, but i love them.
• new harry potter movie is out, but i don't know when i'll get to see it.

december

• i am now married. everything is good.
• we are moving very, very soon and i am so scared, there is still so much to do.