• oracular (adj) resembling an oracle (as in solemnity of delivery).
• abnegation (n) the act of renouncing or rejecting something.
• aureole (n) a circle of light or brightness surrounding something, esp. as depicted in art around the head or body of a person represented as holy.
• salubrious (adj) health-giving; healthy: salubrious weather.
• irascible (adj) of a person: easily made angry.
• adventitious (adj) happening or carried on according to chance rather than design or inherent nature.
• punctilious (adj) showing great attention to detail or correct behavior.
• demoniac (adj) of, or characteristic of a demon or demons.
• vinous (adj) of, resembling or associated with wine: a vinous smell.
• jonquil (n) a widely cultivated narcissus with clusters of small fragrant yellow flowers ...

• the decemberists — january hymn: what were the words i meant to say before you left? / when i could see your breath lead where you were going to / maybe i should just let it be / maybe it will all come back to me / sing oh, january, oh
• the decemberists — summersong: and summer arrives / with a length of lights / and summer blows away / and quietly, it gets swallowed by a wave
• purity ring — begin again: you be the moon, i’ll be the earth / and when we burst / start over, oh, darling / begin again, begin again, begin again
• purity ring — sea castle: the moon is dead but she still pulls on me
• circa survive — in fear and faith: can we last through the winter? / the water’s starting to freeze / the only one who remembers / taking the wrong step, falling in front of me / this body’s already aging / these nights are already long / and if i last through the winter / i swear to you now, i won’t call

general

• reading good books
• being loved by our pets

january

• j.’s cooking & baking
• fruity sparkling water
• dreary, gray weather

february

• listening to heavy music in the car w/ j.
• valentine’s day
• opera

♪ = great // ☼ = good // ø = ok // 𖦹 = bad // ↯ = horrible

january

• 09 // ø
• 10 // ☼
• 11 // ø
• 12 // ø
• 13 // ø
• 14 // ø
• 15 // ø
• 16 // 𖦹
• 17 // ø
• 18 // ☼
• 19 // ø

february

• 11 // ☼
• 12 // ♪
• 13 // 𖦹
• 14 // ♪
• 15 // ø

distress tolerance

• TIPP: tip the temperature, intense exercise, paired muscle relaxation, paced breathing — shorter inhale, longer exhale
• distraction: “wise mind ACCEPTS”
• grounding
• self-soothing
• STOP skill
• pros/cons
• radical acceptance
• willing hands, half-smiling

defusion

• visualizing thoughts as leaves on a stream
• defusion statements — ”i notice that i am thinking/feeling [x]; that’s the voice of my trauma speaking”

mindfulness

• mindfulness of current emotions/body

• air fryer
• pillow(s)
• plates & bowls ✓
• basket for laundry
• spring start planner ✓

in

• more reading & writing , new music, more anime & manga, good coping mechanisms, knitting & crocheting, better eating habits, gratitude, caring for my physical health, playing guitar & piano again, working towards long-term goals, self discipline, mindfulness, grounding, behaving more thoughtfully

out

• letting fear control me, self loathing, hopelessness, frivolous spending, engaging with things/people that upset or annoy me online, wasting time on youtube & other pointless platforms, being passive

storygraph ; 3 out of 18 read

!! = favorite

january

• 09 // the great gatsby ★★★★
• 10 ⇢ 11 // the unworthy ★★★★★ !!
• 11 ⇢ ? // the scottish boy

february

• 01 ⇢ ? // the scottish boy
• 15 ⇢ 25 // rainer maria rilke: 50 poems ★★★★

anilist

january

• black butler // s.1 ep.4

february

• star detective precure // s.1 ep.1 ⇢
• digimon beatbreak // s.1 ep. 1 ⇢

spotify playlist

planned

• kate rusby — the girl who couldn’t fly (2005)
• loreena mckennitt — the visit (1991)
• silverstein — a shipwreck in the sand (2009)
• alesana — on frail wings of vanity and wax (2007)
• placebo — without you i’m nothing (1998)
• massive attack — mezzanine (1998)
• knocked loose — you won’t go before you’re supposed to (2024)
• the devil wears prada — with roots above and branches below (2009)

january

• 09 // kate bush — the hounds of love (1985) ★★★
• 09 // loreena mckennitt — the book of sec...

2026: six of wands

• victory, clarity, glory, culmination of a dream
• outside acknowledgment of your success
• relationship goals coming to fruition
• managing to cut through confusion & minimize distractions

january: seven of swords

• superficiality, scheming, resourcefulness, cunning
• neglecting an issue & just hoping it’ll resolve itself, only for it to get worse
• will escaping solve the problem you are facing?
• willingness to go solo; exploring & discovering some things on your own

february: the sun

• good luck, freedom, contentment, fun