list of people i miss yet cannot talk to because, well, i cut them off for a reason. anyway, gotta cope somehow!

• RG - u...latest wound that can't seem to heal properly. the vibes were....there....but maybe that was just me. ur mannerisms have stuck with me even though it's been months. wild. love u sm still. i wonder if u think about me too...
• MG - never did give me the time of day when i needed u most despite me doing that for u, no matter what i was doing. u actually taught me a lot through that and i now see how everyone in my life currently does that as well. thank u and i still can't seem to want u back anymore. i think i've grown used to living without talking to u.
• JC - like a literal brother to me. granted, i did use u during our final talks, but i don't think it would've mattered knowing either way. u were always obsessed and attached to me to an extent, weren't u? if i had to describe u to someone who didn't know u, "björk's stalker" would be the closest accurate description. would most likely have never met u in person because. terrifying.
• M - quite possibly the first internet person who was able to get me to confide in them about EVERYTHING -- including my biggest secret. didn't cut u off, so ur the only exception on this list, but i miss u more than words can even express. looked up to u and considered u my biggest role model. may we cross paths again someday.