listography: archive of my shitty behavior

new account in bookmarks
i hate who i was a year ago

listography	GIVE A GIFT OF MEMORIES
infernal	. ( interests , fandoms , hobbies , ect )
	. ( discomforts ( do not talk abt these to me )
	. ( abt me )
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i havent logged into this account in over a year omg
i switched accounts because i actually heavily changed my views on stuff i used to heavily hate like “blkwashing”, xenogenders, and some other stuff i cant think of rn
its actually fucking painful to remember how racist and transphobic i was and how people actually just let that slide like nothing was ever wrong with it
the old me behind this account wouldve hated current me to the core
i aspire to unheal all of my internalized racism, transphobia, ableism , and my tendency to participate in cringe culture (currently doing well on it btw but im still not done yet)

sep 5 2023 ∞
sep 5 2023 +

over a year ago, i found a tiktok account called @eliasdebates who i heavily admired
elias is a sick racist who defends white people who say the n word, wear blk protective hairstyles, and commit other racist actions.
because im a white, streetsmartless, insecure, american, i had little to no concept of racism besides the basics and common knowledge. so i believed him.
looking up to elias lead me to going down an anti xenogender/nounself pronoun, white supremacist rabbit hole which i was stuck with for months.
i used to spend hours arguing online defending “mine” and elias’s beliefs, desperate to prove a point.
prior to early 2022/very late 2021, i actually supported the concept of xenogenders/nounself prns and blk edits. that comes...

sep 5 2023 ∞
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