5 things

2018

all you need to do for this is write five things. these can be peoples names, places, emotions, a film title, song title, band, anything that sums up your day. do it each day on your listography for a year.

⇢ march

• 2303 | happy but dont really know why??, rewatched jigoku shoujo, proud of an art work!! (a girl and plants and a positive message), positive day!, sister's friend and pizza night.
• 2403 | dante's bath, stele, paprika!, psychodelical kinks, 00s funk songs. ♡
• 2503 | movies all day, satoshi kon, crying babies, laughing teenagers, 00s brazilian songs.
• 2603 | monstax the connect, im back in the game, 1604 words written, stephen king, productive day.
• 2703 | broken headphone, 2137 words written (neko boys!!), liking my body, if only, cotton candy chae.
• 2803 | floriculture, rabb.it, mayra, listening homoph*bic speechs, 757 words written (bad day bc i hate myself).
• 2903 | random youtube videos, canjica, pet sematary (21%), sad best friends, julia.
• 3003 | loneliness, emotional rollercoaster, movies w family, 707 words written (also plot revision), procrastination.
• 3103 | tired of meaningless small talks, studying ひらがな, "bia, arruma um sugar daddy pra gente", book (45%) and bunnies, missing lilac butterfly.

⇢ april

• 0104 | crying, burning eyes, refusing chocolate (im really sick???), shaking chills, buying beauty products.
• 0204 | nap in the car, grandma's smile, drawing!, dante's red collar, scary fucking book (60%).
• 0304 | really proud of an art work that took abt 10min to be drawn lmao, esfihas, new clothes, maybe a whole new life??, natalie.
• 0404 | literally changed ALL of my thoughts, it feels like i have different ppl inside my head, watercolor techniques vids, brown lipstick, kurapika.
• 0504 | sunflowers, seulgi, omg my life is changing, IM SCARED, hunterxhunter.
• 0604 | painting, last free friday night, nct, lobo no telegram, im really scared of stepping out of my comfort zone :((
• 0704 | anyone please adopt me, grandma's, vampires, i dont know if i can handle the weight of choices, love simon.
• 0804 | i hate the mall, headeache, new notebook!! yay, larissa. gore anime.
• 0904 | bad day, crying, i got a hair cut, but i regret it, i regret everything.
• 1004 | hell girl, i'm not ready to face the world (maybe ill never be), mental breakdown, i wish i wasn't here, 1100 words written (sad story, fam)
• 1104 | hating myself, can't even watch anime, im so fucking stupid, asmr videos, broken wings.
• 1204 | teenager forever, chocolates, julia roberts, luwoo, watercoloured cat painting.
• 1304 | dante smells so nice, documentaries, iana, spooky movie but not that spooky (we actually laughed a lot), nct lives. ♡
• 1404 | i hate people, 17h42 sunset, tons of nct, the edge of seventeen, missing lilac butterfly.
• 1504 | dark chocolate, dante the fly hunter, lau, he's not your toy, spaghetti and brocolli.
• 1604 | morning naps, violin, i suck at painting, kimi no na wa ost, 悠太.
• 1704 | monsta x's 2nd win ♡, parking lot and chill, relaxing, violet evergarden, bad sleep.
• 1804 | nausea, feeling sick, napping all day long, friends, reading stele and amanda's letters.
• 1904 | mom's bday, im feeling... okay?, napping again, ending anime, wish i was a better daughter.
• 2004 | BUZZFEED UNSOLVED, parking lot and chill, 2157 words (re-writing project!!!), twix, insomnia.
• 2104 | looking kinda cute, watching barbie, feeling like im stuck between a rock and a hard place (all the ~options~ are bad tbh!), i don't belong in my family, bad night sleep.
• 2204 | feeling like a burden, missing her, my eyes are burning and my head wont stop hurting, horror! anime!, fighting my sister (i cant stand her Voice anymore).
• 2304 | ive got some bangs, natalie portman, feeling more confident, on the other hand im feeling empty, friend issues.
• 2404 | nonna's smile, red velvet discography, rachel, ghost hunt, mayra loves johnny.
• 2504 | youtube vids, sunlighted bangs, trashy horror movie, fma manga, i should read more books.
• 2604 | quiche, godmother, im a bad friend and im alone, planning, midnight breakdown.
• 2704 | im feeling so lost honestly, min yoongi is my hero, buzzfeed unsolved, MONSTA X IS COMING TO BRAZIL???, omg i might actually attend a concert of my babies.
• 2804 | my head's still hurting, rachel's bday, cuddling and hair petting, grandma calling me bonequinha, talharim.
• 2904 | watching ghost with family, korean variety shows, azeitona (50%), reading social media au, my head wont stop hurting.
• 3004 | hani day!!, watch the new avengers movie mission: failed, edge of sixteen, feeling down, i wanna d*e.

⇢ may

• 0105 | maybe i'll get to see them and i have a date?, cat birthday party, dante 8th month, pretty woman, things got really hot tonight ngl.
• 0205 | having dirty thoughts and really enjoying_her,_ blue, went to the movies with rachel and malu, boring film but my girls are fun!!, my back hurts i'm getting old.
• 0305 | car traffic, same old song playlist, brigadeiro, thinking about her, im enjoying this game (a lot).
• 0405 | waking up early, grandma's bedroom, nana, caressing and feeding street cats, laughing for minutes straight (bf u).
• 0505 | headache, rafa and rachel, im not in a mood for socialize tho, reading au again, dante is my model.
• 0605 | black panter, selfies w the girls, sowon's pigtails, late night movies, kinda tired.
• 0705 | watching anime, listening to pothead songs, drawing, pink freckles, sad night.
• 0805 | trying to feel comfy, dante won't stop biting me, trashy horror movie, coco, i slept before midnight.
• 0905 | turning seventeen, people are so kind wishing me happy bday, visiting grandma, actually 71 years old, feeling tired but still late night gifts.
• 1005 | waking up eating cake, rewatching my mad fat diary, im older than my fav characters, bad jokes (im getting old yall, she's too good to me.
• 1105 | monsta x videos all day long, mmfd, going out for dinner, cutting my bangs, iana, watching the boys!
• 1205 | packing, they're partying and im home with the elders, bored bored, bad night sleep, homesick.
• 1305 | monsta x anniversary, mother's day, listening to her voice, movie night with bebela, feeling empty tho.
• 1405 | watching my babies falling on stage, cursing the kpop industry, bathing dante, im a bad friend, poor iara.
• 1505 | watching horror gameplay, plant photoshoot, missing drawing, brooklyn 99 w iaia, why do people think im okay only because im smiling?
• 1605 | b99, reading au, dante's smell, changing of plans, i look hot in jeans shirt.
• 1705 | doodling, i dont remember?
• 1805 | tear, bts and puppies, dante's warm breath, stele and i listening to my neighbour sing, qual a relevância de uma tanga em personagem sem pinto. ♡
• 1905 | subway selfies, kpop party!!!, my boot's heel broke, the eve, nos ajude lázaro.
• 2005 | we be screaming go, dante is mad at me, bad night, i want to ***, feeling empty.
• 2105 | changing my meds, psychiatrist, headache, not feeling in the mood to watch anything but still wanting to distract myself, omg im being sedated.
• 2205 | bad dreams, feeling knocked out cold all day long, literally feeling nothing at all, well until i literally fainted, netflix and chill.
• 2305 | i wanna quit everything, i wish i wasn't here, what the hell is going on, i don't remember?, chenle and nct life.
• 2405 | uncomfortable, disgusted with my own existence, new terapist, i love her!!!, airplane pt 2.
• 2505 | new psychiatrist, new meds, my terapist is a pain in the ass, love letter, feeling peaceful but empty.
• 2605 | I DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL, writing for friends, welp i hate my drawings, rabb.it with mayra, just chilling and talking to my girls.
• 2705 | dreaming about the show, her, chae and i, watching anime!!, chobits, howls moving castle.
• 2805 | shinee is back, esfiha and nana, i fucking love my terapist, changing my routine, you'll control your mind, sunshine"
• 2905 | drawing under the sunlight, relife, moving back to my bedroom, bolinho de chuva, gartic with my old school friends.
• 3005 | dante hanging out in the car, nct vlives, exercising for 30min, cemitério maldito, call with davi.
• 3105 | 30min cycling, spent the day with mayra, hellsing, photoshoot, kill marry and Kiss.

⇢ june

• 0106 | visiting grandma, lari and rafa, rewatching harry potter, chatting and laughing at laura's, sometimes i feel like a teenager. ♡
• 0206 | bad night sleep, exercising for 35 minutes and almost dying, red lipstick, my godfather isn't of any help about the concert, yep i dreamt twice abt seeing monsta x.
• 0306 | brigadeiro frappuccino, new boot (regain power), im VERY bisexual, laura and luara, trashy teen movies and scary stories. ♡
• 0406 | shitty day, depressive and anxiety crisis, i'm hurting ppl, im hurting myself, i wanna be gone.
• 0506 | feeling depressed, dont wanna get out of bed, new story!!!, ghosts and neko boys, 792 words.
• 0606 | boy in luv, spending the day with nct, wish i could sleep for five days straight, im hurt, gosh i wish i had no feelings.
• 0706 | being in love sucks, i cant eat for days, vlive, i cant proper watch anything, martina.
• 0806 | gab is my tinder, skype with ana, missing fullmetal, making new friends, o que o sol faz com as flores.
• 0906 | visiting grandma, going tho the mall, leather jacked and camouflage pants, i regret everything i say, scarlet heart ryeo.
• 1006 | crying and laying in bed.
• 1106 | crying and laying in bed.
• 1206 | watching videos w my mom, notebook is fixed, my hearts needs a home, good terms with her but we still struggle, monbebe selca day.
• 1306 | i might get the tickets fr, im feeling so excited and axnious omg, netflix and chill with laura, riverdale.
• 1406 | bad day.
• 1506 | got my eyebrows done, giovana made me a make up, photoshoot, im losing weight :<, anxiety crisis.
• 1606 | waking up early to get tickets for monsta x's concert aka the hardest thing ive tried to get in my life, i still dont know if my payment is approved, im nervous and sad bc i really need to see them, my dad cried in front of me, cappuccino.
• 1706 | brazil's match, i cried a lot, and slept, rabbit with martina, love actually.
• 1806 | my therapist birthday, she's the sweetest person ever, mary kay's facial spa, posted lots of photos, tina and gfriend.
• 1906 | scarlet heart ryeo, elfen lied and napping, TICKETS FOR MONSTAX'S CONCERT, finally going to see my babies, is she coming back?. ♡
• 2006 | not sleeping at all, riverdale, netflix movies, cappuccino as energy drink, i'm not a toy.
• 2106 | video call with fer, matching stars coat, cookie jar!, cute seulgi's hairstyle, natália.
• 2206 | waking up bc of a football match, trashy horror movies, nath and rafa, delineado gatinho, na jaemin ulted.
• 23-2406 | bad days.
• 2506 | waking up at 3pm, tinder, riverdale ep 10, buzzlightyear saying im NOT a toy, am i really attracted to ****?
• 2606 | went shopping, clueless yellow flannel, and almost crying in the mall, beret, detroit gameplay.
• 2706 | trashy tv show marathon, treating myself, wearing make up after brazil's victory, missing the outside world, but i dont wanna leave my comfort zone.
• 2806 | staying up all night, letters for chae, trying outfits, tv show and anime marathon, cappuccino, lala, ana and malu <3
• 2906 | staying wake with tina, spending the day with grandma, travelling at night, godfather's house, homesick.
• 3006 | watching tv shows, my godfather calling me daughter, quadrilha, pizza night, we're not who we used to be.

⇢ july

• 0107 | mx ray 3, festa junina, seeing my girls, getting things out of the chest with amanda and laura, girlband pose.
• 0207 | cheering for brazil, 10 things i hate about you, horror movies with rachel, new cal, i love martina.
• 0307 | my therapist is an angel, you're everything u admire the most in your idols, be positive!, the incredibles 2 is incredible, one week anniversary.
• 0407 | pea soup, mark is my family member, ending elfen lied, medieval anime, produce 48.
• 0507 | bad day.
• 0607 | bipolar, tons of capuccino, riverdale, 9 days, killuas bday.
• 0707 | letters for malis, drawing for tina, akatsuki no yona, chamomile tea, no good thoughts.
• 0807 | feeling uneasy, dante took a shower with mamandi, cant pay attention to anything, pizza legal, instagram thetics.
• 0907 | not sleeping, shopping mall, therapist and bucket list, 540 words (desiree!), she's my angel.
• 1007 | one month till travel, vaquinha but didnt work out, i need money, akatsuki no yona, im crazy about her.
• 1107 | SLEEPING A LOT, hunter x hunter, buying travel tickets, everything is set up for sao paulo, new phone?
• 1207 | soup, grandmas home, COLD WEATHER, two weeks anniversary <3, pastel.
• 1307 | getting my hair done, black nails, love simon, trash horror hentai animes, feeling anxious.
• 1407 | days are taking too long, beach, park swing, feeling like a child, rabbit with mayra.
• 1507 | bad day.
• 1607 | ani, pretty in pink, mental breakdown at the mall, i dont believe my therapist, new painting tools.
• 1707 | malis and ana, rabbit, having fun, not feeling so well tho,
• 1807 | pastel, psychiatrist appointment, new roads, tio frank, carrd.
• 1907 | hunterxhunter, new home, fairy godmother, rachel.
• 2007 | mayra, date, amusement park, churros, photoshoot.
• 2107 | visiting houses, c*ming*, bad night, feeling nauseous abt myself, SLEEPING A LOT.
• 2207 | every day, seeing my girls and cinema, pedrinha e tartaruguinha from juki, looking for gifts to my friends, acho podre de chique.
• 2307 | therapy, talking about flowers, via parque, maybe moving out for real, busy day.
• 2407 | getting my hair done with gleice, seeing flats, maybe we're definitely moving out, im scared, jane the virgin.
• 2507 | finishing contract, new home, new life?, tickets for monsta getting on my nerves, anxiety and capuccinos.
• 2607 | not sleeping at all, vlive, chae hyungwon and his tummy, sleeping all day long, malis and aninha.
• 2707 | waking up 2pm, skipping violin class, cartório, pastel de queijo, talking to my friends.
• 2807 | one month anniversary, pumpkin soup at 2am, waking up 4pm, random youtube videos, yeah im pretty disappointing who cares.
• 2907 | new apto problems, get out of the 500 days of summer plot and start living a ari and dante life since its reciprocal, i just wanna cry tbh, buzzfeed ulsolved with iana, headache.
• 3007 | skipping teraphist, buying things for the new bedroom, high bed, looking for decoration, want a lot of plants!!
• 3107 | time is passing slowly af, produce 48, tina, lol with davi, i miss her.

⇢ august

• 0108 | buying plants!!, all of them with an f name, b99, dreaming about guitars.
• 0208 | ill get the tickets in my name, im so anxious, produce 48, jane, crying.
• 0308 | crying all day, shopping, new concert's outfit, akutsuki no yona again, im feeling bad after eating a pastel.
• 0408 | moving out, apartment life, mayra and mariana, shiki oriori, crying my eyes out at midnight.
• 0508 | sleeping all day long, bringing dante to new home, rachel, talharim at midnight.
• 0608 | buying things for the new house and books, shining c, angry bc of teraphist, fala sério mãe, wanting to die.
• 0708 | still wanting to die, karigurashi no arrietty, embarassed at the mall, planning with martina, it.
• 0808 | dante sleeping on my chest, the neglected garden, seeing my pediatrist, call with the girls, asmr.
• 0908 | tio ricardo, riding bikes, ana, anxious bc of the flight, the show is coming.
• 1008 | airplane, finally meeting martina!!!, ukulele, vegan aesthetic café, sao paulo.
• 1108 | going to liberdade with tina and beu, buying kpop and anime related stuff, meeting aninha and malu irl, me dá uma lepra, pizza night. ♡
• 1208 | D-DAY!!! going to the line of the show 5am, spending the day with ana singing kpop songs, SEEING MONSTA X!!!!!!, hyungwon holding brazilian flag and sending kisses, i love my boys sm. ♡
• 1308 | late flight, spending the day talking about the show, already missing monsta x, saving listography, fanfics with them.
• 1408 | crying bc of mx, i miss the concert so much, imagine: double dates, _minhyuk wife, laughing my ass out w the girls.
• 1508 | feeling sad, what am i going to do with my life? spending the day at the mall, excited about kitchen tools, turismo macabro.
• 1608 | feeling empty but in peace?, finally having the courage to watch concert clips, how long, youtube videos, carrd.
• 1708 | movie day with rachel, trashy horror, iu, showing mom some mx's clips, thor is home.
• 1808 | To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before, telling iara im feeling weird, padrinho, pizza di roma, planning a healthy life style (thanks to a random youtuber).
• 1908 | feeling depressed, beach, 10min bike, rewatching movie, perdida.
• 2008 | kissed by the sun (for 10min), 20min bike, therapy, thinking about my qualities, chobits.
• 2108 | waking up watching anime, visiting sister's new house, crying all day long, funny comments and popcorn, thirthy but seventeen, sleeping with my parents.
• 2208 | addicted to a kdrama, 15min bike while watching nct lives, drawing changkyun, ikon's continue and return.
• 2308 | bad day, bad life?, 20min bike, still seventeen, reading yoonkook, 3 years without lilac butterfly.
• 2408 | dad and hugs, você é minha vida, sabia?, 2 casquinhas e 2 pães, bingewatching over the garden wall.
• 2508 | florist!jungkook, doing grocery shopping, going to two parties, having fun at none of them, guess im not a fun-to-be-with human being, davi.
• 2608 | crying a lot, bingewatching banana fish!!! finally an anime got me stuck, cappuccino and nescau cornflakes, saiki kusuo no psi-nan at night.
• 2708 | will i ever stop crying?, i wish i wasnt here, crepioca e bolo de caneca, everything, everything. zootopia.
• 2808 | psychiatrist, things are never going to be the same as they were, grandma's, pea soup, peter pan syndrome.
• 2908 | kpop music videos, akatsuki, wstching anime, angel beats, thirty but seventeen ep 9.
• 3008 | we go up!! i love dreamies so much, 10 episodes in a row, drive thru w animations and ice cream, ending yona and shorter's death. :《
• 3108 | waking up 2pm, eyebrows, worrying a lot about unecessary things, wanting purple hair, missing school.

⇢ september

• 0109 | shitty day. dante's one year anniversary. orange. having dinner in a nice restaurant. i want to be gone.
• 0209 | 2 desserts, watching a few anime episodes, feeling empty and weak, i cried the entire month of august, i miss monsta x so much.
• 0309 | cinema, bad movie, esfihas, i wish i had a motivation, watching saiki with my family.
• 0409 | sister's therapist, i cant stand the mall, pitch perfect 3, rocambole.
• 05-0709 | ice cream, saiki kusuo, crying loads, sierra burgess is a loser, habibs.
• 0809 | bed, hxh, dont remember any relevant things. im a loser.
• 0909 | mesversário, madrinha, ice cream at night, drive thru, lemon pie.
• 1009 | therapy, mall with family, pastel, one punch man, her.
• 1109 | malis birthday, anime, sleep, food, crying.
• 1209 | korean hot dog, amanda's present, cortina, casquinha, feeling down.
• 1309 | making long term plans, trips and flights sp-rj, tina and fer and aninha, angel beats until 3am, ritalina is miraculous.
• 1409 | feeling GOOD when waking up, cinema with grandma, but actually watching anime, brownie, charlotte.
• 1509 | padrinho, death parade with stele, boat ride, pub in an island, having fun with the girls. ♡
• 1609 | lunch talk, ciclying with bff, feeling uneasy, mcdonalds, gartic and stop.
• 1709 | therapist, making plans with davi, no concentration and nothing to do, lemon cake, rabbit at night.
• 1809 | davi, hugs, bad horror movie, baking lemon pie, yuri.
• 1909 | looking for things to do, histórico escolar, nathália, pancakes, crying, feeling lost.
• 2009 | my friends visiting me, swimming pool, vegan hot dog, everything changes, feeling broken.
• 2109 | road trip, godfathers house, the worst vs the best pastel, the purge, debbie.
• 2209 | beach, kissed by the sun, coming back home, stele, love simon!!!
• 2309 | bts mvs, kpop games, riding bike and a bangtan party, malec plans until sunset!!, nappily ever after. ♡
• 2409 | tinder, bonvoyage 3, mayra, searching (i cant really stand the cinema anymore), seesaw.
• 2509 | swimming pool (never coming back), chess and uno, ice cream and pastel, debbie is my sunshine, crying.
• 2609 | nothing to do, tumblr, church, crepioca and popcorn.
• 2709 | dante's bath, going to the mall, buying clothes, talking to a cute girl, smelling the rain. ( enjoy the small things -iana) ♡
• 2809 | amanda's call, everything i plan goes wrong, pizza, may and bianca, the truth untold.
• 2909 | catuaba, floresta maldita, night walk with the girls, drunk bianca stealing papel, milkshake. ♡
• 3009 | bon voyage at midnight, swimming pool with the girls, uno, rafa is so funny, life is strange 2. ♡

⇢ october

• 0110 | crying at therapist, doodling, listening iu, gameplay, random youtube videos.
• 0210 | my id is gangnam beauty with mom, nct 127 liev, random youtube videos, feeling lonely, mental breakdown.
• 0310 | horror gameplay, doing nothing, eunwoo is the most beautiful man alive, kdrama, inuyasha.
• 0410 | waking up 2pm, ice cream, driving nathalia home, kdrama ep 8, 15min bike while watching inuyasha.
• 0510 | rabbit with tina, sun and may (i met tina through dante and kpop try not to laugh challenge), pristin, kdrama with parents, 20min bike!, full day so full mind. ♡
• 0610 | midnight call with deborah, eyebrow done!(de linha), rodizio de pizza, drunk mayra and bts, random play dance. ♡
• 0710 | scared bc of the election, visiting grandma, fearing him, temos que permanecer fortes e unidos, ninguém pode nos silenciar.
• 0810 | date at the cinema, re-watched buscando, i kissed a girl and i liked it, finishing kdrama :(, horror gameplay and asmr.
• 0910 | therapy, talking about my fear of changing and how i lead to having mental breakdown, weekly idol nct dream, watched 3 kdramas, drinking solo.
• 1010 | midnight (dirty) talking with deb, sleeping really late and waking up 2pm, driving all day long, 30min bike!, ikon's weekly idol. (also stomachache)
• 1110 | walking up early, inuyasha all day long (10 episodes in a row), balde de pipoca, banana fish, random yt videos (diva depressão).
• 1210 | inuyasha, counsins, walking in the mall, life is strange with stele, sleeping watching one punch man.
• 1310 | esfihas at breakfast, going to grandma's, hwiyoung, kpop games, ana e vitoria. ♡
• 1410 | feeling happy but dont really know why, something in the rain with my parents, cappuccino, writing on my journal (after 6 months nothing much changed, im still needy and lost). ♡
• 1510 | call with deborah and taking quizzes at late night, she sang me to sleep, exchanging hot pics, talking about being dependent with my therapist, watching kdrama with my family, riverdale. ♡ (also cut my nails)
• 1610 | dreamt of hair dye, mental breakdown and disgusted at myself, rewatching mx's concert stuff, nct 127 album, asmr.
• 1710 | random youtube videos, 30min bike, 3 eps of something in the rain, i wanna d*e, late night popcorn and tears.
• 1810 | not wanting to get out of bed, driving the whole afternoon, dorama, listening to iu and tumblr, sleeping late.
• 1910 | waking up 2pm, buying dad's birthday cake, bored, milk shake, crying loads.
• 2010 | dad's birthday, buzzfeed unsolved supernatural, karaoke with live guitar, cycling with luara and laura as in stranger things, drunk nathalia telling me you're stronger than your depression.
• 2110 | trying to put a heart on this day, break ups on the kdrama, sad meaningless poetry, mingau de aveia, riverdale and inuyasha.
• 2210 | family therapy, bad day, wanting to die, full stressed out, im sorry monsta x's comeback :(.
• 2310 | waking early and dante on my chest, not believing in my therapist, im just gonna lay in bed forever, tons of inuyasha!, bad day that ended in ice cream.
• 2410 | ikon, feeling empty, inuyasha marathon, strong anxiety crisis, monsta lifted up my mood. (also realizing everybody in no mato tem, no mato mora lullaby is long gone.)
• 2510 | replying ppl in social media, stomachache, nathalia, bad moms 2, not in the mood to do anything.
• 2610 | wanting to die, lots of tears (mine and dad's), sabrina, bad day.
• 2710 | caos tv show, going to the mall by uber, red velvet cake and mocha, pizza night!!!, making plans to go to pernambuco. ♡
• 2810 | ending something in the rain, starting meteor garden, listening kr&b scrolling tumblr dash, up and downs through the day, crying and suicidal thoughts.
• 2910 | new psychiatrist, hopefully the new medicine will be good to be, therapy session, c-drama with family, talking to debbie (she calls me girlfriend and i die.)
• 3010 | delivering grocery to grandma, watching anime in the car, imitating chinese accent, october is flying by, mingau de aveia.
• 3110 | eyebrows done, im going to dye my hair!!, meteor garden, mental breakdown and anxiety crisis.

⇢ november

• 0111 | #shootout3rdwin, red velvet cake, bored, dener and temer on dorama.
• 0211 | #shootout4thwin, dying hair!, i have purple hair now, bingewatching meteor garden with family, occupied mind and feeling good with myself, call with debbie (i love her 'uhum') ♡
• 0311 | dad making mingau at midnight, may coming to my home, ending sabrina, sending random audios to her friend, im fat and ugly.
• 0411 | cappuccino, am i a toxic friend, iaia?, feeling unworthy and useless, iz*one, tumblr while listening to ikon.
• 0511 | talking about how my parents wont let me free in therapy, maybe ill take piano lessons, 12min bike, debbie's thread, mental breakdown.
• 0611 | bad day. visiting counsins. bad day. stomachache.
• 0711 | martina, eu cansei. feeling numb but its good, jardim de meteoros, i wanna be ginger!, iz*one chu with martina.
• 0811 | hospital, amigão, red velvet e pão suíço, dying hair black again, rabbit with tina.
• 0911 | touro ferdinando, i hate guests at home, buying social clothes, ice cream and pao de queijo, laughing bc of dener.
• 1011 | bored, re-watching fav movies (to all the boys and pretty woman), resenha, feeling like shit, i didnt want to go out.
• 1111 | had nightmares, feeling uneasy all day long, lemon pie.
• 1211 | therapy, dante is gone :(, i miss my son so much, adopting a new cat, but going to grandmas to spend a few days since i cant stand home without him.
• 1311 | waking up bc of nightmares, watching random tv shows with dad, monsta x's weekly idol, being dirty with debbie.
• 1411 | returning the new cat to her mom, therapist saying is better for me to be in mourning for dante, mom saying a gente não pode se desagradar pra agradar os outros, riverdale.
• 1511 | picking up the girls, amanda and may, talking about exes, messing aroung in tinder, watching random play dance.
• 1611 | may and i playijg kpop games, godfather gave me a popcorn device, i miss dante, resenha again.
• 1711 | iara's present, going to grandma's, tumblr, spending 3g on youtube, deborah.
• 1811 | coming back home, adopting van gogh!, buying high heels, little mix, call with debbie.
• 1911 | really fast therapy, going out with lari, ju and giovanni, fantastic beasts, i dont belong with them anymore, eu sou a mainha da relação.
• 2011 | nathalia, scrolling thru tumblr, van gogh sleeping in my arms, missing my gf while listening to her playlist, inuyasha.
• 2111 | waking up early, she-ra, metropolitano, bohemian rhapsody, i love going out with my girls. ♡
• 2211 | eyebrows spa, ice cream and fries, piano sex, piano class (complete fail).
• 2311 | spending the day in the salão, getting hair and nails done, mental breakdown at night, i need you to stay with me.
• 2411 | buzzfeed unsolved, getting ready with amanda and mayra, giovana made a pretty make up on me, juki,s 15th anniversary!!, feeling down bc of fear.
• 2511 | anxiety crisis, going shopping dinner table, pub with sis and rafa, refreshing my mind, pão de alho!!.
• 2611 | julia's birthday!, raining, viggore, buying dinner table, ill gain an iphone.
• 2711 | family therapy was disaster, sis and mom fighting, going to grandma's, but returning home as soon as i realized my mom needed me, maybe ill see aninha in the airport!!
• 2811 | uptown, shopping christmas stuff and make up, the smile has left your eyes, crying, really bad night.
• 2911 | waking up 10am, visiting sister, talking about relationships, crush at the market, pico de felicidade. ♡
• 3011 | feeling anxious, putting makeup on, meeting aninha at the airport, she gave me a little dog, had such a good time with her. ♡

⇢ december

• 0112 | waking up at grandma's, listening to christmas songs (its finally december), tumblr, sunset on the beach, melon awards.
• 0212 | shopping, laughing at bad horror movie (morgue asmr), cycling with stele, stella a trois, lost but finishing one punch man. ♡
• 0312 | day with stele, furries must die, re-watching whisper of the heart, naming neighbourhood's cat 'seiji', try not to laugh. ♡
• 0412 | waking up late, subway, waking in centro da cidade, museu do amanhã, conversation with ami and stele on the pier. ♡
• 0512 | psychiatrist, reducing my medicines, iphone, stressed out, debbie.
• 0612 | tina and iara day!!, trying to sleep and forget my problems, lava-jato, chamomile tea, bel rodrigues' channel.
• 0712 | going to godfather's house, big lies, she-ra, more serial killer's stories, pao de queijo caseiro.
• 0812 | waking up early, coming back to rio, may's birthday party, dancing kpop coreographies and listening to old songs, barbecue plans. ♡
• 0912 | cycling with amanda, ami's listography, trying to watch a lot of things (but end up with grinch), milkshake and conversations about the universe, ghosts, ets and serial killers. ♡
• 1012 | going to therapy, buying clothes and a sunflower, going to the dentist (but he wasnt there), setting 2019 goals, call with debbie. ♡
• 1112 | cleaning my bedroom, setting the new dinner table, petit gateau, cycling and having a deep conversation with lincoln, feeling good. ♡
• 1212 | insomnia and anxiety, hunter x hunter, difusor de morango, rabb.it with tina and juki, bike with parents.
• 1312 | sister came to visit, chilling at juliana’s, swimming pool, its not boredom, its actually anxiety, dad hugging me cause im not okay.
• 1412 | hanging out with my sister, feeling good without a reason, horror gameplays, pizza night, real crimes.
• 1512 | too fucking hot, hxh, grandma's, but we came home and it was under water, friends until 3am.
• 1612 | too lazy to grab any food, riverdale, too hot to watch anyhting tho, good morning call, soup.
• 1712 | a year without jjong :<, creating a r&b playlist, ice cream shop, rave with iana, o colecionador.
• 1812 | anxious at grandma’s bc is really hot, swimming pool w mayra, later on stray kids with tina, painting nails, 5sos revival.
• 1912 | buying clothes, stray kids, horror gameplays, driving sister home while singing, bel.
• 2012 | ana, she gave me a lot of books and painting material, marathon of thashy movies, amendoim japonês, reading all my friends are dead.
• 2112 | creating a shinee playlist, family reunited, alone at home, ski with tina, rabb.it with nat. ♡
• 2212 | van gogh's bath, pilar, leo and uncle roberto came to visit, birdbox, feeling good, tina. ♡
• 2312 | rabanada, the last jedi, creating playlist better days are coming, cup noodles, reading to all the boys (33%). ♡
• 2412 | christmas' eve, rain, friends, putting on make up to sit in the living room, family gathering. ♡
• 2512 | christmas!!, to all the boys (58%), feeling at home again watching inuyasha, rabanadas, changlix au.
• 2612 | new plans!!, wolf children with mom and rachel, reading (81%), scared of stepping out in the real world.
• 2712 | feeling bad, finishing book, taking a nap, making up with debbie, reading ps still love you.(13%).
• 2812 | black mirror, van gogh sleeping on my hand, pea soup, finishing charlotte, book (24%).
• 2912 | changlix, matching with juan, friends with debbie, apado gwaenchanha at the same time (musubi at its bestest), she-ra with stele.
• 3012 | road trip, listening kpop in the swimming pool, walking towards the lagoon, mcdonalds, crazy talks with davi and jeronimo. ♡
• 3112 | last day of the year!!, finishing _she-ra,_hugging mom in the swimming pool, call me by your name (the boy is really weird), reveillon at the beach.

thanks god it's finally over!!