tbh i dont even know what to write but i just have so many feels right now i feel like i need to write them down to sort them out. one part of me just don't want to do anything amore like, i'm just so exhausted and i just need a moment (days) to take in their beauty. like i can't express how i actually feel about the concert because it was just a blur of fangirlling and singing and screaming. Like for years they were always an imagine on my computer screen or on posters or people moving through a video but now they were right in front of me, with my bare eyes. moving and dancing and singing and it just seemed so unreal to me. i'm actually legit crying because i don't know what to do like i'll probably never see them every again (until the next concert) and now they've just gone back to being the people that i see through a screen. i just wanted to be able to feel them (not in a creepy way) but just to let my mind know that they are real people and that they're human. i feel like i'm just overwhelmed with everything like i can't process anything through my mind like i noticed the smallest things like Harry was chewing yellow gum, their coughs due to straining their voices, the amount of times they said stuff like Perth is the best, Perth is the loudest etc... I'm filled with regret right now because I really want to change my letter to them. Just on thursday i didn't have naything to say to them but now i want to tell them the world. I want to be able to look into Harry's green eyes just like a few hours ago. It was magically idk hoow else to describle it. Like i knew it was real but it was still so surreal to me like i didn't even think that they were fully real until Harry poured the water on me and it soaked my shirt like, he somehow indirectly touched me. I just feel really bad for not caring about them because they're truely amazing and inspirational. Throughout the whole night i couldn't help but look at the audience like face away from the stage and take it al in because imagine how they feel almost every night, performing to all of those lights and hearing everyone scream when you say a sentence. It must give the best adreneline rush and i can't imagine why anyone would be angry whilst performing on stage. the amount of love that they recieve is inane and i could never imagine me being on stage, filling that many seats with people waving their phones and singing along and screaming out of excitement.