- june 11th, 2015: after walking around underground in tunnels/sewers, i went with francisco to his (very sketchy) new therapist (that was underground as well), i think because he had attempted suicide again. the whole building was very dark and after talking to both of us for a little while, they took him into a smaller, box-like room while i waited outside of it. they had him in there for a while before i started to hear the beeping of what i assumed to be a heart monitor and other hospital machines, which confused me nonetheless. i was uneasy over the whole situation, but i wasn't necessarily worried until i heard commotion coming from the tiny room; yelling, large thuds, and eventually, the flat-lining of the heart monitor and then silence. it felt like my heart stopped as well and i didn't even have time to think before i literally sprinted to the little room and tore the (once locked) door open. i found the inside filthy with cynical writing scratched all over the walls, no doctors, no therapist, no hospital equipment. just francisco, slumped over in a small puddle of blood in the far left corner of the room. i began screaming for him and had just made it to his body before i felt hands on my shoulders, the hands of who i assumed to be the doctors that "killed" my friend. they started to drag me away from him, towards the door. i fought and clawed and kicked and screamed but they easily got me out of the room and calmly closed the door. the dream ended and there was nobody telling me that he was not really dead, i just kinda knew that they were simulating for him what it would be like for others if he actually died.
- june 14th, 2015: a mentally challenged man saved me from a car crash, we became friends and in turn i saved him from drowning.
- june 21st, 2015: jennifer flew to clarksville for the weekend and we went to the mall for a boba date.
- july 16th, 2015: henry and i were at war in a creepy cabin with guns // you came over to watch big hero six and i leaned my head on you and you kissed me. it felt so real.
- july 23rd, 2015: i was in a huge wave pool with a few friends and a bunch of people on bleachers outside the pool were throwing french fries at us to eat.
- july 26th, 2015: i tried to give you a ticket to a play that savannah was in after nearly 2 weeks of not speaking but you ignored me and rushed into the theater so i cried and ran to the bathroom // some random girl had her hand in my pants and her finger resting in my buttcrack while we were just casually talking ??
- august 1st, 2015: henry and i were watching a movie in a gross shack? i was laying across his lap and i had an asian baby????
- august 4th, 2015: i was at some sort of school and i found a little tree frog sealed in plastic but i was unsure of whether it was part of him or not until he started trying to get out of it. he was trying to run away from me until i started ripping the plastic off for him. he trusted me i guess and i took him inside to a water fountain so he could drink.
- november 25th, 2015: it was christmas time instead of thanksgiving and i woke up to open presents. the only thing my parents had gotten frankie and i were a really old laptop and a really old bulky desktop computer???
- november 26th, 2015: jillian facetimed me to show me that she had cut her hair shoulder-length and dyed it blue. she was at montana's dorm and a lot of other people were there including hoyoung, who had also dyed his hair blue // someone left their newborn kitten with me and it was quite literally treated like a baby. i was taking care of it and letting it drink water.
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