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- I feared I'd be scared but I made it through. And I got inspired.
- The sky is bright and clear. I am not. (But I am okay.)
- I am fine as long as I don't allow myself to think. The fatigue helps with that.
- All my best experiences have become my most painful memories. I closed a door once and I believed I'd never want to open it again but I'm changing my mind. But I found the door is locked now.
- I feel repulsed by how society likes to keep its girls quiet, insecure and easily manipulated by comments on our appearance. We're never good enough. And if we stray from that, and learn to love ourselves regardless, society gets angry and tries to shame us back into that box.
- I've had a very emotionless day. Not in a numb way, just calm. I've laughed outloud and I've cursed outloud but I haven't really been happy or sad or anxious.
- I can't remember the last time I was this disappointed in myself. And it's mostly not even really my fault, I tell myself, but I don't believe it.
- I found a safe place and disappeared into another world. I don't care for coming back.
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- The inexplicable beauty of this music is amazing. It can make you believe in magic, because magical is the only word to describe it, how it affects you, goes right through you and somewhere deeper inside than you ever knew was possible.
- This is the first of my favorite days of every year. I feel alive - like I've been brought back to life after being dead for months. And this isn't even the best of those days.
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- I wasted another beautiful day and I didn't even regret it. I do fear that I'm disappointing a certain person by making plans and never following through. I used to feel I was the only one of us wanting to make plans - now I'm the only one always canceling them.
- I started out well, fixing yesterday's mistakes. Then the fatigue caught up with me. Didn't ruin the day though, so I guess it's fine.
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- Something changed. Something small, but significant - and I feel a little more at ease.
mar 17 2013 ∞
apr 1 2013 +
