- waking up increasingly late as the summer progressed
- driving 280 miles through the southwest with no distraction from the knowledge of my rejection
- the upsettingly beautiful rockies
- the depressing state of nevada
- beginning to actually identify as arab-american
- watching horror film after horror film because
- i fucking love horror films
- i want an excuse for my inability to fall asleep
- hearing the call come in as i stepped out of the shower
- hearing everyone speak in their hushed, desperate arabic in order to avoid understanding
- watching them leave for the uc irvine trauma center
- hearing the news outlets call it a case of domestic violence
- understanding the depth of damage addiction can cause
- realizing the breakup and the stabbing were the same weekend
- meeting people i care about
- being forced to put everything into perspective with story after story of terrorism and occupation
- finally visiting the sears tower and actually exploring the city with people as inexperienced as i was
- sitting in a chair with someone for two hours and talking filterlessly with the knowledge that we probably will never see each other again
- feeling safe and at home with people i've known for two weeks
- watching them leave after their flights had been delayed because of the possibility of a fucking terrorist attack
- realizing there's no real end in sight
- discussing bioethics on the plane
- being a witness to someone else's insomnia
- wORLD'S LARGEST DISNEY STORE
- learning about the wonders of red velvet
- tower of terror
- performing at disney world like wow holy shit
- making flashcard after flashcard
- learning how to increase
- "all roads lead to here"
- spheeyore (spherical eeyore)
- 95 degree heat, 60% humidity
- belonging to the group i've belonged to for a year
- watching the fireworks & being overwhelmed by the excess & waste & love i don't feel and feeling my heart speed up and needing to keep it together until we got back to the hotel
- actually postponing a panic attack??
- legitimately growing as a musician
- cards against humanity with an adult chaperone
- a $50 gift i desperately wanted when i already owe him the world
aug 9 2014 ∞
dec 17 2015 +