• abbie bottom
• emily hardcastle
• holly shackelford
• krissy schellinger
• tiffany engeldinger

• california
• arizona
• manhattan
• alabama or tennessee

• bartending class
• belly dancing lessons
• hip hop dancing class
• cooking class
• jazzercise
• sewing class
• book club
• choir

• got a functional iPod
• got hand me downs from my hipster cousin
• heard about Lennon making out with an old lady
• made a ton of money
• watched eclipse on blu ray with my mom (on our new blu ray player)
• went to Denny's with Cameron, Lennon, and Macally ar midnight and had a fried cheese melt
• worked a lot of overtime

• be in my senior yearbook as much as possible
  • nicole was in charge so i got to take my own yearbook photos. perfect.
• excel at my job and gain more responsibility
  • in a nutshell, i run this shit.
• get a solo in choir (preferably spring concert)
  • there was only one opportunity and i did audition, and felt good about it, so i at least somewhat accomplished this goal.
• graduate. obviously. (not that i'm concerned that i might not)
• grow into myself (appearance-wise)
  • hair (no longer jet-black)
  • glasses/contacts dilemma

• look up a band i probably won't like
• change something in my room
• wear a daring outfit
• reread a book i used to love
• talk to someone i lost contact with
• take pictures
• eat somewhere i've never been
• buy myself something
• smile
• do something nice for someone
• watch a new tv show
• read fanfiction
• write a poem
• listen to songs i haven't heard in years
• be totally self-sufficient
• look through old pictures or videos
• plan a "me" day
• update my journal
• mail someone a letter
• listen to tiffany's mystery mix
• update my scrapbook

• "i'm gonna learn how to play guitar"
• black hair. two years strong.
• breakfast foods for every meal!
• cheese quesadillas 48975345x per day
• drinking mango juice at all times
• eating velveeta shells & cheese almost every day
• i love evanescence, therefore i'm a "goth" badass
• i'm a "punk rocker" like avril lavigne
• neon pink and orange
• saying "oh snap"
• sceeeene kid!
• shopping at abercrombie
• sleeping naked
• watching glitter every day before bed
• watching mean girls every day before bed
• wearing nothing at all but tee shirts and jeans
• trying to make my hair curly in a non-functional way

• always acknowledging when i'm in over my head and getting out of the situation before i make a big mistake
  • i'm not quite sure i still do that. i guess when you drop the moral code you've lived by forever, you don't really feel "in over your head" the way you used to.
• deciding what i want to do with the rest of my life early on so i have less to stress about than the average high school senior
  • well that lasted all of two months. now what?
• finally saving up a lot of money
• finding things that i'm really passionate about like music and design
  • fuck design. and i'm no good at music.
• getting into chamber singers and feeling ...

• attended a high school dance (i'm a senior)
  • senior ball. although really, i left once the dinner was over to go to target.
• been in a real relationship
• been on tv (that i'm aware of... haha)
• been outside of north america
• done drugs
  • but really, does weed even count as a drug? i've still never done real drugs.
  • well kirsten did feed me a bunch of tylenol with codeine once. lame.
• driven on the freeway
  • thanks, brandon.
• eaten sushi (this will probably never happen, i've been a vegetarian for three years and don't plan on quitting. and i'm not one of those vegetarians who thinks fis...

• ariana grande
• "brooke davis"
• christina grimmie
• emma stone
• hayden panetierre
• katy perry
• ke$ha
• mandy moore
• "peyton sawyer"
• taylor swift
• tina fey
• zooey deschanel

• tiffany
  • how we met: technically, i've known her since seventh grade. i started actually hanging out with her through our mutual friend nicole.
  • first impression: i thought she was a freak. this wasn't our first time meeting, but my first real memory was at lunch on the first day of freshman year when the five of us started sitting together. she was playing with her spork making weird noises.
  • favorite trait: i feel 100% comfortable around her. we always make time to hang out, even if it's for like 2 hours after work and all we do is sit around and eat food. we just, i don't know... click?
  • least favorite trait: she makes a huge deal out of how much my mother and dog annoy her. haha i really couldn't think of an...

• 40 steps - the academy is
• alibi - 30 seconds to mars (bridge)
• any song by barlowgirl
• bulldozer - cold war kids
• bulletproof - la roux
• circle the drain - katy perry (and lots of other katy songs)
• fixed at zero - versaemerge (chorus)
• happy - nevershoutnever
• i'm not a girl, not yet a woman - britney spears
• i've got a dark alley... - fall out boy
• long live - taylor swift (actually most of her songs)
• moon, roll me away - you, me, and everyone we know
• orchids - the lives of famous men
• part of your world - the little mermaid
• poker face (acoustic) - lady gaga
• somebody to love - queen
• tell me that you love me - victorious (ye...

• i can cry.
• i can spend days being lazy.
• i have friends and see them on a regular basis.
• i'm allowed to make mistakes.
• i'm not considered disgusting at concerts.
• it's socially acceptable for me to wear cute clothes.
• nothing really ties me down.
• teenager books are way better than adult books
• nothing beats driving around with the windows down singing super loud.
• those moments that make me feel fourteen again.

• cheese.
• driving by myself at night.
• electricity and plumbing.
• holly.
• my grandma.
• my itunes library.
• my job at costco.
• my mom.
• sleeping.
• songs that literally bleed emotion.
• the physical ability to sing.
• watching the sunrise.

• attracting members of the opposite sex.
• being friendly/outgoing.
• being there for people.
• composing music and writing lyrics.
• cooking.
• cutting/writing in a straight line.
• dancing.
• doing simple household chores like laundry.
• drawing and painting.
• exercising and eating healthy consistently.
• falling asleep in a timely fashion.
• keeping my room clean at all times.
• letting go of unnecessary stress.
• opening up to people.
• planning/hosting parties.
• playing the piano.
• putting on makeup.
• singing powerfully.
• speaking eloquently.

• andy and lennon's way of bouncing off of each other's jokes.
• annie's laugh when she get's excited.
• brandon's high pitched voice when he sees a cute puppy.
• brittany's geeked out face (usually regarding jason mraz).
• holly's "we're young, fuck it!" attitude.
• kalli's dance moves.
• lennon's awkward way of telling stories about his encounters with his crush.
• macally's laugh: abrupt, explosive, and awkward.
• mark ropella and jake liban's facebook conversations.
• mary catherine's wild youth stories.
• miss stenzel's little "hello favorites :)" voice.
• mrs. drew's hearty laugh.
• mrs. lorier's embarassed face.

• ap chemistry.
  • class sing alongs to don't stop believing.
  • exploding magnesium and setting tables on fire almost every day without being caught.
  • making fun of ms. lesko.
  • passing notes with the entire class.
  • teasing mrs. lorier about her crush on john stamos.
• art club.
• being in the front row at the cartel concert.
• bonding with strangers at sleepovers.
  • jade's house with brianna and a few others
  • markelle's birthday party
• cake fight and water balloon fight with tiffany on memorial day 2009.

• a waiter i had in new york who looked like kostos from sisterhood of the traveling pants.
• alex day.
• alex deleon.
• alex evans.
• alex gaskarth.
• avan jogia.
• brandon frey.
• brandon heinrich.
• breathe carolina.
• brendon urie.
• caleb and kyle from forever the sickest kids.
• cameron from 10 things i hate about you (the abc family show, not the original movie).
• chad michael murray in one tree hill (preferably season one before he shaved his head).
• chase from zoey 101.

• be involved in a protest for something i really care about (i'm not counting that pathetic little walk out we did at school)
• do something completely ridiculous on the spur of the moment.
  • driving to tennessee on two days notice to get brandon back?
• do the polar plunge.
• fall in love.
• get completely wasted.
• go clubbing.
• go scuba diving.
• go somewhere in europe.
• go to australia.
• see a concert on halloween.
• sing karaoke at a bar.
• skydive.
• spend new year's eve in times square.
• take a road trip.

• dying my hair fire truck red
  • tried... we'll see again when my roots grow out
• finally getting that outer space tattoo, if not more
  • probably going to wait until the next time I can see Will at Starship in WI
• finding concerts to go to alone on quiet evenings
  • maybe not alone, but I'm planning on attending an opera next week and a musical in a few weeks
• having sleepovers with myself
  • pampering myself with facials and pedicures
    • bought really cool nail polish the other ...

• culver's
• free laundry in my mom's basement
• my mom and dad, not that i see much of dad though
• people i know casually at costco
  • ann vandervoort
  • brittany sands
  • israel martinez
  • jameson lant
  • justin cordier
  • karen kasian
  • kumar patel
  • kyle... who's name isn't actually kyle haha
  • mary catherine roy
  • michelle strobl
  • sue whitehead
  • tina hall
  • tyler rudzinski
• places that i have endless memories of

• become proficient in the pronunciation of French, Italian, and German
• take a road trip lasting more than one day
• eliminate my muffin top
• gain the ability to belt out high notes well (at least c, hopefully through f)
• get a job or at least an internship in my field
• read 50 books that aren't from the teen romance section
• rid my wardrobe of sloppy, childish garbage
• vote for president and be completely educated on each option
• write a piano/vocal song that's good enough to play for people
• extend my mental map to the freeway and become more comfortable using it
• fall in love

• i was leaving my house in a hurry with brandon because my mom was on her way home, and we drove right past her. i didn't know if she saw me.
• my friends and saw a midnight showing of rocky horror on halloween eve, and stayed out till 4am walking through milwaukee.
• we just finished singing bohemian rhapsody at the spring choir concert, and everyone stood up annd clapped/screamed for like three full minutes. my choirmates and i could not stop smiling to the point where our faces hurt.
• tiffany, nicole and i were sitting in nicole's tree house one night, and we watched a meteor fall. it was both beautiful and terrifying (it looked a lot closer than it actually was)
• tiffany and i went swimming in a lake with our clothes on while it was raining. if you know me, you know i hate all of thos...

• a laptop
• contact lenses - oh wait! my squeamish ass can't shove things in my eyes :X
• singing success program
• a queen size memory foam mattress
• a coach purse
• an ipod classic

• 50 cent
• big time rush (the nickelodeon show)
• britney spears
• celine deon
• cher
• christina aguilera
• clay aiken
• fergie
• flo rida
• glee. glee. glee. glee. glee. ohmygoodness glee.
• jesse mccartney
• justin beiber
• ke$ha
• kelly clarkson
• lady gaga
• miley cyrus
• nsync
• ohio is for lovers by hawthorne heights
• part of your world from the little mermaid

• enjoy the fact that jeans are sized by height and width, not just width
• hit on girls and tell them i'm in a band
• sing all the songs i wanna sing now but are too low
• spend hours in front of the mirror making my hair elegantly disheveled
• try doing screamo
• use the phrase "suck my dick" more often than i already do
• walk around shirtless
• walk around the mall and watch all the girls swoon
• wear axe and/or various other delicious man scents
• wear flannel shirts unbuttoned over v neck tee shirts
• not have to wear makeup to look good for once

• the academy is...
  • favorite album: almost here
  • favorite song: coppertone
  • favorite lyric: hold your head high, heavy heart
• acceptance
  • favorite album: phantoms
  • favorite song: different
  • favorite lyric: i'm taking a chance. this could be different. this could be all i'm waiting for.
• anarbor
  • favorite album: hearing colours, seeing sounds ep
  • favorite song: anatomy
  • favorite lyric: it's harder to stand then to fall, but honestly it felt too good, it never felt so good, it never felt so g...

• i freak out when things don't go my way.
• i fuck over sweet guys who try super hard to make things work.
• i have an opinion about everything and express it sometimes too much.
• i never shut up when i'm excited.
• i want to hang out and/or talk with someone 24/7.
• i'm a control freak.
• i'm have glasses, braces, love handles, and bad skin on my body.
• i'm the pickiest eater ever.

• cheese pizza lean pockets
• silk light chocolate soymilk
• blueberry pomegranite light v8 fusion juice
• red velvet light yoplait yogurt
• fruit cups (mandarin oranges, peaches, pears, pineapple, or mixed with cherry juice)
• cheese pizza from anywhere
• rolls (preferably kings hawaiian)
• churros from the costco food court
• absolute garbage...

• i got to bring in pictures of myself for the birthday board.
• i spilled kool aid on kate sleger's carpet and her mom was mad.
• josh banks sang and danced to oh happy day in front of the whole class.
• kate sleger told me was sex was at a sleepover in fifth grade.
• making a dictionary with jessica.
• making out with posters in truth or dare.
• morgan pope telling me she was more important than me in first grade.
• ms. groenoweg came to my birthday party.
• ms. hoffman loved black people.
• pagel points in third grade.
• prank calling everyone with wendy and maria to sing stacey's mom on their answering machine.
• sarah sufferling's treasure hunt birthday party in third grade.

• a chaise lounge.
• a craft room.
• a nice basement.
• a pool and hot tub.
• a spacious backyard.
• a way of getting on to the roof.
• an east facing deck or patio so i can watch the sunrise.
• bay windows.
• bright colors
• granite countertops.
• high ceilings.
• loft style upstairs.
• lots of windows.
• skylights.
• stainless steel appliances.
• turrets (those little tower things)
• unique faucets.
• walk-in closets.
• wooden floors.

• i ate an entire pizza by myself once (it was thin crust!).
  • totally did that again...
• i drink out of the sink when i'm too lazy to go in the kitchen and look for a cup.
• i used to drive a few extra miles to new berlin's walmart because the one in west allis is ghetto. i greatly enjoy the one in waukesha now that i moved.
• i legitimately enjoy crying.
• i look up to girls in bands a lot.
• i love going places by myself.
• i love watching infomercials.
• i named all my barbie dolls after singers.
• i spend all my 11:11 wishes on being a better singer.
• i used to own my own mini snowmobile.
• i was once a messy desk kid.

• being alone.
• birds or anything else with wings near me.
• blood.
• bugs.
• cancer.
• childbirth.
• creepy techno.
• the country. (not literally this nation. I mean the opposite of the city)
  • i'm getting a lot better. road trips make me appreciate the country in doses.
• darkness.
• driving through fields at night.
• erotic sex.
• fire.
  • getting so much better. i can smoke without someone else lighting it for me! haha
• heights.

• ace of cakes.
• all that.
• american idol.
• as told by ginger.
• dc cupcakes.
• design on a dime.
• divine design.
• drake and josh.
• fairly oddparents.
• full house.
• glee.
• i didn't know i was pregnant.
• icarly.
• jersey shore.
• jon and kate plus eight.
• ned's declassified.
• next.
• one tree hill.
• parental control.
• powerpuff girls.
• rocket power.

• be less awkward.
• broaden my musical horizons.
• buy a pet hedgehog.
• decorate the coolest apartment ever.
• eat healthier.
• find a choir somewhere to join.
• find a special spot to go to alone that nobody knows about.
• get a nicer car.
• get an amazing guy BFF i can marry later in life.
• go clubbing.
• keep in touch with my high school friends.
• learn how to cook.
• make a lot of friends.
• maybe get a few small, tasteful tattoos.
• see more movies.
• start being really good at singing and playing the piano and show off my newly acquired skills.

• "remember when..." conversations.
• bad puns.
• being caught smiling to myself when i'm lost in a good memory.
• being short.
• bohemian rhapsody.
• cheese.
• cupcakes.
• dancing in my room.
• dark hair.
• dressing up.
• driving alone at night.
• girly movies.
• glee.
• going back to my old high school and being showered with love.
• guava juice.
• how to deal.
• ikea.
• lady gaga.
• listening to amazing singers.

• roller coasters
  • rode four of them in a row at six flags with brandon
• heights
  • climbed waterfalls and cliffs with brandon in alabama
• fire
  • i can light lighters now!

• learn how to surf
• read the perks of being a wallflower
• see the grand canyon
• paint
• get rid of pointless shit i don't need
• watch the sunrise from someplace epic
• go camping
• learn how to ride a bike
• learn how to cook for myself
• face each and every one of my fears
• see the fucking northern lights
• go to house on the rock
• see niagra falls
• scuba dive

• "let's just drive across the country"
• favorite glee songs ever
• my middle school favorites
  • fall out boy, panic, paramore, flyleaf...
• songs i'd kill to be able to sing
• songs that never end
  • anatomy, alibi
• songs to dance to in my room alone
  • allegory! allegory!
• songs with great piano jams
  • take cover, chandeliers and piano keys

Want:

• bass/treble clef heart symbol on the back of my neck/upper back
• sunshine on the inside of my right ankle (mom)
• peanut on the inside of my left ankle (dad)
• music staff wrapped around the back of my left ankle with the "any way the wind blows" part of bohemian rhapsody on it
• a fermata symbol
• milk and cheerios in a spoon (reference to nobody's fool by avril lavigne
• orchids on my back/hip
• something under my boob
• serendipity in cool handwriting
• words on my feet under my toes, connected so they complete each other
• fireworks
• something in my hip/tummy region
• infinity symbol behind my neck

• we need to have a craft area - storage under the kitchen table?
  • i'd say the craft closet was a huge success
• we should implement various organizational systems
  • our shoe carousel was pretty epic until it collapsed
  • the calendar is pretty sweet too
• organizational wall!
  • it's really more of a calendar with a message board underneath that's had the same inside joke on it forever, but whatevsss
• we can use the cute little mailbox we painted to leave each other notes
  • yeah we don't really do that.. haha

• buy a gerbil
• buy a lottery ticket and win lots of money
• buy something from an infomercial
• freaking move out of my house
• get a bank account and credit and/or debit card
• go clubbing
• go play bingo at a casino
• go to chuck e cheese without a parent
• MAYBE get a tattoo... maybe
• register to vote
• sell something to half price books

• if i was a board game, i'd be scattergories.
• if i was a celebrity, i'd be hayley williams.
• if i was a color, i'd be a deep raspberry.
• if i was a day of the week, i'd be tuesday.
• if i was a food, i'd be fruit salad.
• if i was a month, i'd be may.
• if i was a season, i'd be spring.
• if i was an animal, i'd be a bird.
• if i was an article of clothing, i'd be a structured dress in a bright pattern.

• adam lazzara of taking back sunday
• aj perdomo of the dangerous summer
• alex deleon of the cab
• amy lee of evanescence
• ariana grande
• brendon urie of panic(!) at the disco
• caleb followill of kings of leon
• christina grimmie
• dallas green of city and colour
• daniel hall of the lives of famous men
• florence welch of florence + the machine
• freddie mercury of queen
• hayley williams of paramore
• jared leto of 30 seconds to mars
• kate voegele
• katy perry
• lea michele from glee
• maika maile of there for tomorrow
• matthew morrison from glee
• michael grubbs of wakey!wakey!
• nathan willett of cold war kids

• she always ends up getting obsessed with my favorite tv shows.
• she basically lets me do whatever i want with very few, if any, rules.
• she defends me in front of her entire family all by herself.
• she does so much for me and i rarely thank her.
• she forced me to take piano lessons for six years even when i bitched about it nonstop.
• she gets out of the car to shoo squirrels away rather than just plowing over them.
• she gives me yogurt, soymilk, and iced tea to take home everytime i come over to make sure my fridge is never empty.
• she helps me lie to other people's parents hahahaha.
• she loves bad puns as much as i do.
• she never said a word when i went through...

• i'll keep my eyes
• katy perry's body
• mandy moore's face
• miley cyrus's hair (colored dark chocolate brown)
• i changed my mind, i wanna look exactly like sophia bush playing brooke davis. body, hair (season six or sevenishhh), face, clothing, attitude, everything.
• no i changed my mind again.
  • i'll keep my body but i want to eliminate my love handles and tone everything up.
  • i want clearer skin all over, and to keep my paleness with a healthier glow.
  • i want long wavy hair that's super dark and tinted red.
  • i want a heart-shaped face.
  • i wanna be good at makeup, especially smokey eyes.
  • i want perfect teeth and vision.

• june 26, 2001 - nsync - miller park
  • my dad hired a limo to pick us up but it never showed up so he drove us there like 100 miles per hour and we made it just in time!
• november 12, 2004 - avril lavigne - the bradley center
  • i made a "rock on avril" sign and felt super badass holding it up
• october 14, 2006 - evanescence - the rave
  • i sat in the balcony by myself because i couldn't stand the thought of not actually seeing the show
• june 28, 2007 - flyleaf - summerfest
  • this was my first unsupervised concert!
• july 31, 2007 - warped tour

• i appreciate good music for what it is.
• i basically grew up in a home with no real rules.
• i can go to bed with wet hair and wake up looking fine.
• i can have fun a lot of different ways that don't involve alcohol.
• i have a good head on my shoulders.
• i have an odd sense of humor.
• i like my eyes.
• i'm crafty.
• i'm fair skinned but tan easily.
• i'm not a ginger.
• i'm not afraid to sing loud with my windows down.
• i'm not retarded.
• i've never had any health issues.
• i've never had to worry about my weight.
• my grandma makes sure i never have to go without anything.

• actually purchase physical copies of every cd that's ever sparked my interest.
• brett manning voice lessons.
• buy a new car.
• buy and decorate a place of my own without a roommate.
• buy my mom a house and decorate it.
• get a dermatologist to perfect my skin.
• get a macbook pro.
• get a pool and a hot tub.
• have the college experience
• go to new york city.
• have a lot more tattoos than i already do.
• have my hair and makeup done by professionals all the time. i want long dark wavy hair with a red tint, and smokey eyes.
• install an amazing sound system in my house and car.
• live all over the world with brandon.
• move to LA. and NYC.

• anything but ordinary - avril lavigne
• brighter - paramore
• fly until we crash - anarbor
• hello, i'm in delaware - city and colour
• miracle - paramore
• nobody's fool - avril lavigne
• tired and uninspired - my american heart
• tomorrow - avril lavigne
• too much to ask - avril lavigne
• waiting - city and colour
• why - avril lavigne

• bodacious
• gallivanting
• melancholy
• rendezvous
• serendipity
• voluptuous

• boys
  • asher
  • shaant
  • blaise
  • jameson/jamison
• girls
  • audrey
  • brielle
  • eloise
  • hayden
  • karis
  • lacey
  • logan
  • reine
  • violet

• a little dorky.
• adorable smile.
• approximately as smart as i am.
• blue eyes.
• brings out the best in me.
• can cook.
• can sing.
• creatively proposes to me.
• detail-oriented.
• does not call me pet names.
• does not have a beard.
• fair skinned.
• has smooth moves.
• is my best friend.
• knows how to dress himself.
• loves animals.
• loves music.
• loves my flaws.
• not a manwhore.
• not ignorant.
• not much of a drinker.

• aeropostale.
• anthony flieger.
• being talked down to by adults.
• bleach blonde hair.
• books/movies where the protagonist is a poor british boy.
• broad shoulders on girls who swim competitively.
• center parts in people's hair.
• commercials for sex hotlines/resorts.
• dancing with the stars.
• episodes of glee where rachel doesn't sing.
• famous people who have done absolutely nothing to deserve it.
• flare jeans.
• gaucho pants.
• ghetto people who don't know how to dress their bodies.
• girls with short hair.
• howie mendel.