[These are only the ones I can recall at the moment.. there are tons more. This should also be an ongoing list.]

• silence in the backseat of a suburban with my thenboyfriend and his entire family (17)
• having my thenboyfriend’s mother call me at midnight screaming at me in spanish that I was the whore that put her son in the hospital emergency room (16)
• having my acting teacher ask me to be in one of his films [soft-core lesbian pornos] (15)
• seeing my acting teacher’s play after he quit teaching two years later and married one of my classmates (18)
• having my thengirlfriend’s father harass me in semi-public for bringing his daughter flowers after her senior night softball game
• having a conversation with my english teacher about what cranberry juice does to the pH balance in the vagina
• having to explain to the brother at my catholic school what ‘camel toe’ is..
• going out to lunch as a t.a. with my supervisor as she cried and told me about her ex-husband
• being in an elevator with my math teacher and saying hello to have him not acknowledge me at all
• being the only one under 18 or 21 in a number of places
• being the only sober one at parties
• being the only drunk one in a classroom
• being one of three having to be transported two hours to sing with some choir and not knowing anything
• being the only new kid in 6th grade and not knowing anyone
• the first day of high school and not knowing anyone
• my entire high school career
• all of g.r.e.a.t. escape
• every Christmas eve at grandmothers
• reading Anne Rice erotica books in class and having my english teacher recognize them, sit down, and start a conversation with me about them..
• every family reunion on my father’s side with my hot cousin
• having a random man in Barnes&Noble ask if he can sign my backpack
• when the women at the Barnes&Noble starbucks remember my order
• that moment where every authority at csun double checks my i.d.
• where I am the only one feeling awkward in the room
• when I say something that makes everyone feel awkward [all the time.. ]
• having to hang out with people from middle school that pretend like they were friends with me
• my existence