Why do I miss him so much still, when it seems like he is already completely over me? But how in the hell am I to get over the only guy I've ever loved???

• Stop thinking about him before bed, because maybe I wouldn't dream about him every goddamn night...and I'll actually SLEEP instead of wake up crying.
• Steal my heart back. I swear, the motherfucker still has every little crushed fragment of it.
• Take the gauges out of my ears?? (probably soo not happening though)
• Dye my hair!!
• Start tanning again, so that I feel simply gawgeous.
• Monroe piercing, anyone? (another way to try to feel smexy)
• Listen to Here Comes the Sun by the Beatles on my iPod on loop until I stop my damn crying and start smiling!
• Stop texting him because all I get in response to "I still love you..." is "That's so cool tell someone who actually cares." </3
• Don't even LOOK at him in the hallways. Not even a fucking glimpse of him! IT WILL JUST MAKE THE LOSS WORSE!
• Stop walking the trails we used to as there are memories of his sweetness in certain spots.
• Stop walking past the hill we did romantically sweet things on with blankets and such right down the street from my house... just stop!
• Leave NW Indiana as soon as high school ends in less then a month.
• Try extra hard to feel prettyyyy...
• Smoke like there's no tomorrow.
• Try to avoid thinking about the gaping hole that was left in my chest.
• Give the guys who like me a shot?