it is time to lock in with my new position, and its overdue anyway. so, here are the changes i want to make within the next year:

• lose 30lbs, gain muscle
• get my next promotion at northgate
• file for bankruptcy after my car situation is figured out
• hold on to and nourish a friendship
• be more consistent with udo's grooming
• be less volatile

• 2/21/11 irked : to annoy
• 4/10/11 lox : liquid oxygen
• 4/12/11 recalcitrant : hard to work with
• 5/6/11 aperitif : small amount of alcoholic beverage used to stimulate appetite before a meal
• 5/17/11 vapidity : lifeless, boring
• 9/1/11 dichotomy: two contradicting parts
• 3/20/12 flaccid: lacking force
• 5/21/12 dubious : doubtful
• 6/4/2012 entrenched: establish firmly or solidly in a position of strength & to dig trenches for defensive purposes around oneself
• 11/3/2013 lacquer: to gloss over negative things with cleverly chosen words

• introverted sensing
• "I'll keep you posted"
• money shot

• stay consistent with a workout schedule
• stay consistent with diet
• *26g added sugars/day, 2300mg of sugar/day
• *eat more protein, take creatine and fiber (metamucil)
• allow for two days to have cheat meals/week to match up with two rest days/week
• keep a calendar
• workout each area twice a week, abs 4
• *separate like so: triceps/chest/abs, biceps/legs/back, cardio/abs

• i fucking deserve it

• i'm buzzed
• i wanted to see if i still had your nudes saved in my phone
• i read something i wrote in my notes on my iphone years ago, back in 2013
• it's exactly how i feel right now
• i shouldn't want you, but fuck i do
• i remember that night
• you fell asleep in my arms, shirt off
• your hairy chest, soaked in moonlight and sweat
• your nipples, my favorite color
• i want to kiss them again
• i don't miss you at all
• i just want you under me

• i had so many things to feel through
• discovered awkwardness runs in the family, i embraced it
• fat now
• constantly questioning my stance on polyamory and monogamy
• still hella emotional but i got a good hold on my cerebellum now ;)
• a rekindled love for movies inspired me to come back here
• a lot has changed but a snapshot is okay for now

• NEVER talk bad about other coworkers, past or present
• *listening to others vent about coworkers or mgmt is okay, but never agree nor chime in, simply listen and ask questions
• AVOID blaming your employees for doing anything wrong
• *try to relate to the situation at hand, and give them the chance to take accountability if they want to
• routinely check in with mgmt for tips on improving or to get on the same page on current topics
• ALWAYS remain neutral. DO NOT take sides between any coworkers problems.
• read books on self improvement regarding becoming a better leader
• ALWAYS be empathetic, with peers and employees alike. This will help me stand out from the rest of the managers, who have lost sight of empathy and contributed to t...

• i don’t know
• not really feeling so bad
• the bed feels right
• its a wednesday
• i’m pretty drunk
• i’m depressed tbh
• it’s all good
• i’m tingly everywhere
• my body is getting asmr that i can’t hear
• i don’t miss anything
• is dealing with your feelings actually a good idea?

• it’s my dads birthday
• how do you say happy birthday to someone whos brother died two weeks ago?
• i suddenly feel too vulnerable to share here but its a start

• cocteau twins
• blood orange
• crystal castles
• tops
• tycho
• tame impala
• why?
• azealia banks
• johnny goth
• and the album leaf’s one day i’ll be on time