being in a standstill has made me realize a lot of things

• i think keeping and focusing on my own interests are better than trying to keep relationships with other people tight like they once were
• i've been alienated from society. not talking is awesome
• i was able to discover a lot more interests. i'm more informed now than ever
• some people can get on with their lives without checking up on you
• there are still some people who would keep on supporting you, and dream with you
• i wanna take care of relationships with people who matter
• i learned how not to spend even for things i want
• i learned how to stay at ease at home
• i enjoy moments with my sibs and would like to keep taking care of my relationships with them