- Obsessing over guys.
- Impulsive shopping for things I don't need.
- Biting my nails.
- Chewing on my lip.
- Wasting time (on the computer mainly).
- Procrastinating.
- Skipping school when I have too much anxiety. (This one has been happening for the longest).
- Saying I will be right downstairs, and then staying upstairs for half an hour.
- Not practicing my vocal or piano lessons.
- Avoiding people when there is conflict.
- Shutting down & zoning out entirely whenever there is conflict. (To the point that I have no idea what is going on anymore).
- Being self-absorbed as a method of self-defence. (If you don't talk or think about other people's problems, you don't hurt as much for them. Etc. This is the habit I'm working hardest on changing right now (Feb 2011))
- Not doing chores.
- Being defensive.
- Yelling at people during conflict to defend myself.
- Staying shut-up in my room.
- Forgetting things between rooms.
- Not trusting people; not getting to know them out of fear that they will drop me.
- Not chewing my food properly :o(
- Not deleting texts that I send and receive.
- Waiting for someone else to answer the phone when it rings.
- Eating too much chocolate!!!
- Saying "Shit" a lot.
- Criticizing food that smells weird.
- Acting like a kid when it comes to my voice patterns and interests (animated movies, etc.) I know that this is mostly because I started to obsessively play it up when my ex boyfriend gave me one of his rare compliments (me being cute). I need to change this more than almost anything else.
- At the same time, still being very "in" to Disney and other kid-stuff not only because of the compliment, but also because it's a comfort and those things aren't overwhelming.
feb 24 2011 ∞
mar 2 2011 +