Hi, my name is Gianna. I'm 19 years of age and was born on April 12. I devote most of my time to scouring Wikipedia and reading out of print books or books that are just plain old. My favorites are The Count of Monte Cristo and The Scarlett Letter. I am very interested in learning about history and religions around the world. I love nature but wouldn't last a day out in the woods. I am not a good pet-owner nor do I have pets. If I had a pet it would be a deer or something but they're not domestic animals. I thrive on coffee and the TV series "Supernatural". I'm not a very active person and I'm a total recluse. I love writing. I dislike eating food. I dislike sunlight. Did I also mention that I'm a skinwalker?

• Just take it one day at a time

Prayers to St. Anthony (Lost things) "St. Anthony, perfect imitator of Jesus, who received from God the special power of restoring lost things, grant that I may find [name the item] which has been lost. At least restore to me peace and tranquility of mind, the loss of which has afflicted me even more than my material loss. To this favor, I ask another of you: that I may always remain in possession of the true good that is God. Let me rather lose all things than lose God, my supreme good. Let me never suffer the loss of my greatest treasure, eternal life with God."

Amen.

(Prayer of St. Efraim, Hope For Forgiveness 50) Have mercy on me. O God, according to Thy great mercy, and according to the multitude of Thy compassions, blot out my transgression. For if thou wilt have mercy on me and free me from the pitiful affliction of the passions - if only Thou w...

I'm grateful for the fact that I'm still alive.

I'm grateful that I am not on the street.

I'm grateful to able to read.

I'm grateful to be born in a time with television and movies.

I'm grateful to have found love.

I'm grateful that I've experienced many physical pains because they're real and grounding.

I'm thankful for all the times I've gotten away with things but also all the times of being caught.

I'm grateful that my parents aren't overbearing or demanding of me.(and that they are still alive)

I'm grateful to not be in a war torn country.

I'm grateful for my father in-law that loves me as well and wants a grandson.

"Saya, my darling Saya. Is this really what you want? Why do you go so far for me? What am I, that you can give yourself to me body and soul? Is this merely sympathy? Do you pity me, the exile from society? Is that enough for you to surrender yourself to such mad desire? Are you so wanton?"

-Sakisaka Fuminori, Saya No Uta

[2019-2020]

• Macintosh Plus Floral Shoppe
• Beach Walk by Whitewoods
• One Hundred Mornings by Windows96
• Illumination by FM Skylines
• St. Francis by Satin Sheets
• I Could Live In Hope by Low
• Ten by Pearl Jam
• Aftertaste by Helmet
• Hybrid Theory by Linkin Park
• I Brought You My Bullets.. by My Chemical Romance
• Jar of Flies and Dirt by Alice In Chains
• Saturday Night Wrist by Deftones
• Around The Fur by Deftones
• Diary by Sunny Day Real Estate
• Stars by Hum
• Only In Dreams by Weezer
• Make Yourself by Incubus

[2021-2022]

• Taking care of my health.
• When people are still the same after years go by.
• When everyone is laughing and having a good time.
• When I am able to help in some way.
• Watching the setting sun and the clouds turn from white to an ombre of pinks and purples.
• Walking through the cemetery and imagining my town in its past.
• Seeing my great grandmother in myself.
• Going for a walk on day lightly raining.
• Sipping fresh coffee at my favorite spot and watching the world outside the window.
• Running and skipping like a kid when nobody's watching.

1/3/2026 Today on a drive I saw a sequence of license plates on passing cars, two in the same lane and one on the road going right - this is in a 4-way intersection (I will list the last digits since I don't remember the letters on the plates): ...6662, ...7773, ...8884.

1/4/2026 I'm moving back in with my mother after losing my job. My mother is manically depressed and doesn't work or leave the house anymore. So, as far as I can remember she's spent hours talking to herself and screaming...I tried to escape this and I'm upset, more than upset. Talking to her some days is like trying to listen to a broken record. Sometimes she hears me, sometimes she doesn't. And with this irritation comes this feeling like hopelessness. Maybe it will be different this time.

- Lately, I've found a fascination with the works of Michael Nostradamus, specific...

• "Manhunt" Andreas Ronnberg
• "Kid For Today" Boards of Canada

• Explanation of the Gospels by St. Theophylact of Ochrid
• The Collected Works of St. John Crysostom
• Essays by Ralph Waldo Emerson
• With Pain and Love for Contemporary Man: Elder Paisios of Mount Athos, Spiritual Counsels
• Mere Christianity: C.S. Lewis
• Nihilism: The Root of the Revolution of the Modern Age by Fr. Seraphim Rose
• Marriage and Virginity according to St. John Chrysostom by Archpriest Josiah Trenham
• Father Seraphim Rose: His Life and Works
• Life of St. Columba: Adomnan of Iona
• Thoughts for Each Day of the Year by St. Theophan the Recluse
• Thus Spoke Zarathustra: Friedrich Nietzsche
• The Nag Hammadi Scriptures

Faith the way to salvation.

Rom. 1:16; Eph. 2:8,9.

Not by the laws of innocence Can Adam's sons arrive at heav'n; New works can give us no pretence To have our ancient sins forgiv'n.

Not the best deeds that we have done Can make a wounded conscience whole; Faith is the grace, and faith alone, That flies to Christ, and saves the soul.

Lord, I believe thy heav'nly word, Fain would I have my soul renewed; I mourn for sin, and trust the Lord To have it pardoned and subdued.

O may thy grace its power display, Let guilt and death no longer reign; Save me in thine appointed way, Nor let my humble faith be vain.

-Isaac Watts

Are they blue, gray or green? Mysterious eyes (as if in fact you were looking through a mist) in alternation tender, dreamy, grim to match the shiftless pallor of the sky.

That's what you're like- these warm white afternoons which make the ravished heart dissolve in tears, the nerves, inexplicably overwrought, outrage the dozing mind.

Not always, though-sometimes you're like the horizon when the sun ignites our cloudy autumn-how you glow! A sodden countryside in sudden rout, turned incandescent by a changing wind.

Dangerous woman-demoralizing days! Will I adore your killing frost as much, and in that implacable winter, when it comes, discover pleasures sharper than iron and ice?

-Charles Baudelaire

"I am sad I wasn't believed, but I know that it couldn't be helped. In this world, reality is what the majority says it is, and I had the misfortune to step outside of that box."

-Sakisaka Fuminori, Saya No Uta

• "For there is not, and cannot be, any worse sin than this, nor is there any equal to it. It is rather the sum of total evils, and that which confounds all things, incurring unremitting punishment and unbearable chastisement." - Saint John Crysostom
• "Let us, therefore, say that poverty or disease or the onset of dangers compel us to blasphemy. It is not poverty but stupidity, not disease but contempt, not the onset of dangers but a lack of reverance that lead the unwary to blasphemy and every evil." - Saint John Crysostom
• "If you're in the marketplace,and you hear blasphemy, you should go to the blasphemer and rebuke him, and, if necessary, inflict blows upon him, slap him in the face, smite his mouth, and, in so doing, sanctify your right hand with the blow." - Saint John Crysostom

Girls: Calendula, Saya, Dayeshkari, Elisheba, Binah, Anahy, Lacuna, Shazia, Sylvie, Yehli, Rosaria, Lael, Eris, Yana, Sheryl, Adeline, Esmarie, Mileshka, Khatia, Yvonne, Faylene, Roseangela, Alta, Kalena, Calleah, Lydia

Boys: Avith, Ymil, Yianni, Dalton, Ty, Darius, Cyrus, Stiel, Andrew, Asher, Seville, Yance, Isaac, Seraphim, Idris, Lazarus, Sev, Chino, Wren, Asha, Moses, Lee, Lavern, Yaniv, Petro, Stephanos, Yonah

• ✔Biting Nails
• Watching Television
• ✔Mindlessly scrolling through Pinterest
• ✔Overspending
• ✔Smoking Cigarettes
• ✔More than two cups of coffee daily
• Getting defensive
• Getting anxious over little things, getting paranoid
• Being pissed off
• Letting things collect dust
• Throwing clothes on the floor
• Throwing around God's name (Jesus's name) when in reaction to something.

• Be multilingual.
• Plant a moss yard.
• Journal more often
• Build a log cabin in the middle of the woods
• Visit Mount Athos, Greece
• Eat nothing except potatoes like the guy in 'The Martian' and record my findings
• Make the perfect Cd
• Try the raw meat diet and see what happens
• Get tickets to hear the National Symphony Orchestra

• The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
• The Mysteries of Udolpho by Ann Radcliffe
• Flowers of Evil by Charles Baudelaire

"I still had some power against the madness."

- Tanbo Ryoko, Saya No Uta

Among the black yews, their shelter, the owls are arranged in a row, like alien deities, the glow of their red eyes pierces. They ponder. They perch there without moving, till that melancholy moment when quenching the falling sun, the shadows are growing. Their stance teaches the wise to fear, in this world of ours, all tumult, and all movement: Mankind drunk on brief shadows always incurs a punishment for his longing to stir, and go.

-Charles Baudelaire