yeah, it may not be that smart to do a list with things i don't really know how to describe, speacilly when i don't even know how to describe things i actually understand, but whatever, right? anyways, here we go:

• the feeling i get when i hear the weeknd's "earned it"
  • it's kind of sadness along with some memories i'd rather not have. the rythm is slow but consistent, the piano and organ mixed with his voice give this music sort of a dark mood to me.
• the feeling i get when i think about the date 30/05
  • this is soooo cheesy. 30/05 is my friendship anniversary with my best friend, and i just don't really know why i feel weird when i think about it. it is something like a mix of a lot of love with nostalgia and more love; it feels like missing something that never happened? it's confusing but i love her so much i hope i die. fun fact: 3005 is my phone's password
• the feeling i get when i think about the universe
  • tininess, insignificance, power, disability, arrogance, humiliation; everything at once. pure admiration.
• the feeling i get when i see people on street
  • pretty much curiosity and admiration. how are people doing? how do they live? how many of you have thought about killing yourselves? have any of these people ever killed someone? do they have a people that they love more than anyone? do they have someone that loves you them than any other person in the world? are they happy?