- Kinney stalking to the path right after i smoked. quite frankly, i never knew such a pint-sized cutie could be scary...
- the fact that i am settling for mediocracy. i mean, i really am just skating by. i just want to give up trying.
- i walked all the way out the door today and just wanted to keep going until i got to cassie's. but i knew it was stupid. i don't want trouble. i just want to feel comfortable.
- i started smoking again. why can't i just stop? how did i let everything get this out of hand? i just want to go back, or skip ahead, or catch amnesia and forget that i did anything bad.
- i just want to not work at school. i don't know why! it's just not coming easily to me anymore. nothing is working the way it should so why bother getting hurt? why not just sit back?
- the fact that i am starting to go back to 8th grade leah. holy fuck. that is NOT ok. just breathe. you just want sleep. you need your pills. you need to rest. just breathe. catch yourself, no one else will this time.
- the fact that i am so viciously jealous. of everything, but i refuse to let myself believe in the good in myself.
- i could be happy. i just can't stop punishing myself. what did i do that was so bad?
mar 10 2010 ∞
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