• get a leather jacket.
• get a steady job.
• work on scholarships.
• stay in stuco.
• figure out either art with history or history with art.
• get a car.
• get a mattress that is younger than 20 years old.
• visit alex alottt.
• go to a conference.
• get back into swimmm.
• find a lock for my locker...
• embrace the freshman.
• DRIVEDRIVEIDRIVE.
• be in two AP classes.
• go to SEMASC lockin.
• make varsity volleyball.
• gain better control of my schedule.

• if you fall seven times, pick yourself up eight
• history will be kind to me, for i intend to write it
• love wasn't put in our hearts to stay, we're meant to give it away
• whatever you are, be a good one
• we are infinite
• i started out in this world as nothing, i ain't gonna leave that way.
• it's all right now.
• life is short when you've only got ten minutes left.
• i know this is cliched, but i feel like a feather in the wind.
• though you can never go back and create brand new you can begin now and create a brand new ending
• luke, are you going fast enough to pull out in time?
• lead, follow, but get out of my way.

• i was driving quickly on a highway, and it was painted rainbow, exactly like rainbow rd. in mario. then cars that looked like bomb-oms and shells whizzed by. when we got off the highway i saw tocarri walking and it broke my heart, so i demanded we stop and pick him up.
• i was locked in my old room, barbie pink, with no doors or windows or stuff. the light was red and there was a creature in there with me that was blue-ish green and jumped off the walls and ceiling.
• i was running from house to house trying to convince people that the tornado was going to kill them, that it was coming. when they finally listened we hid under this huge highway system with tons of other refugees. (o have a lot of tornado dreams)
• i was at a club with jean and that kid was there. his friends left and he sat near...

• 1/13/10- david gidley wearing a bradley kafaulus shirt :] love old navy.
• 1/14/10- even when i thought i was disgusting, i wasn't to them :]
• 1/15/10- my spanish class. they're all perfect. :]
• 1/16/10- beating krista mac's team AND scallop and bacon pizza with kat:]
• 1/17/10- walking into cassie's house and knowing everyone there, and calling them 'the family'. :]
• 1/18/10- getting an applause for entering the auditorium, real loud! also, dancing in the vicinity of zach and chlo is fun too:]
• 1/19/10- i looked real cute today. Scott Brown won senate race. :]
• 1/20/10- i am actually real sure i passed my spanish test. i also am gaining control of my life again. :]
• 1/22/10- I FEEL A PART OF SOMETHING. that...

• not sleeping.
• running out of my meds cuz i take too much.
• stressing over boys who are stressing over me.
• forcing myself to be nice to everyone.
• not smoking.
• mr. nelson.
• caring about my weight.
• hating my arms.
• people sweating me over not having a bf... it issmalltown and i can't exactly leave this town to explore...
• trying to be too kind.
• censoring myself.
• fat kids.
• bad fucking drivers.
• wishing my mother and father were real parents.
• living in this house.
• having people constantly scrutinize me......

starting early...

• boston.
• warped tour.
• kat's boat.
• various hiking trails.
• plymouth beach and the jetti.
• south carolina.
• work at the Y.
• DRIVINGDRIVINGDRIVING.
• MASC camp?
• DRIVINGDRIVINGDRIVING.
• the lakeeee!
• volleyball camps?
• basketball wif cassie:]
• new craft projects!
• partiesss.
• summer houses!
• p-town :]!
• movies. lots of em.