• i don't sleep.
  • i am so worried about analyzing everything i say/do.
  • i have been so damn mean. for no reason.
  • i think my mom is back to her old games.
  • will he actually text/call?
    • i should take solace in the fact i put myself out there.
  • what about the other boys...?
    • do i ignore them... am i off the market so to speak.
  • i am gonna look so foolish at prom serving kids i go to school with..
    • it is an obligation, do not fail.
  • i have been sucking ass on the courts and can't pull it together.
  • i miss alex.
  • i wish i didn't have to be so wound up constantly.
  • there isn't enough caffine in this world to wake me up.
  • i can feel a zit coming in.
  • i am always so afraid to disappoint people.
    • i always disappoint myself.
  • i want to be happy, i really do.
    • nothing works. can it ever change, i have been working so hard for so long.
  • i am constantly noticed.
    • even though it's not bad attention, i wish i could just fade into the background.
  • i don't want to be friends with KT. i want her to be a part of my past, a nice memory.
  • i just don't know how to act around my father.
    • i just want him to be happy.
may 8 2010 ∞
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