reading ❁

• The Secret History (Donna Tart)
• Turtles all the way down (John Green) ✓
• Twilight (Stephanie Mayer)
• Cleopatra and Frankenstein (Coco Mellors)

watching ❁

• TV Shows
  • Heartstopper ✓
  • Gilmore Girls
  • Another (anime)
• movies
  • Dead Poets Society
  • The Craft (90's version)

listening to ❁

• Lost Paradise - Evanescence
• Secret Door - Evanescence
• Take me home, country roads - Lana del Rey
• Suburban House - Holly Macve, Lana del Rey
• Soul Meets Body - Death Cab for Cutie
• Yeah Right - Evanescence
• Even in Death - Evanescence
• Safe and Sound - Taylor Swift

quotes ❁

• “for all the air that’s in your lungs, for all the joy that is to come, for all the things that you’re alive to feel, just let the pain remind you hearts can heal”
• "people always conflate beauty with goodness"
• “i’ll be more than my survival, own these scars on my heart”

lessons ❁

• magic is everywhere and i don’t need any fancy tools or anything to practice it.
• magic is not contained in a room or in an altar, it’s everywhere.
• maybe it's no one's fault, because things are more complex than having a perfect victim and a perfect villain. People are responsible for their own things and one or both can choose to stay away from each other of course, but blaming one side is just a mechanism to make the process easier, not because it's true.
• you don’t have to stay in a place just because you’re respecting their limits, you can just leave if they’re pushing your limits or not fulfilling your needs
• depression is not something from the outside to fix so you can heal. it’s all the things you can’t really control, it’s the sum of all the ancestral grief, the losses you had on your own path, the loss of you inside your heart, the lack of support.

occurred ❁

• 1: been depressed all day and i don’t know why. Recorded the first episode of my podcast and I’m nervous to put it out tomorrow.
• 3: got in touch with my girlfriends and i’m back on the dating app, hope i meet the love of my life lol
• 4: i reconnected with a friend and it’s being great! i missed him so much
• 6: i went to the park all alone!! it was a great experience and i got a staff for practicing seidr
• 12: got in touch with another friend, and she had the best revenge she could have lol
• 13: had the best laughs today; found out that a girl i barely know says the most awful lies about me and it got me pissed
• 14: talked to some friends and decided i'm no longer gonna let people diminish me
• 19: not only my cousin is sending me hexes again, one of my exes situationships is also trying to get me back with magic. They’re both fucked.
• 20: i’m tired of being abused at home just because i’m happy
• 28: been depressed again, and it’s getting worse. my psychiatrist released me and i don’t know if i can call my therapist, also all the friends i tried to reach just ignores me or blames me for being that way. i’m so fucking tired.