jan

• spent new year eve in grandma's (as always)
• then: beach
• been spacing out a lot, never been so introverted in my life but i actually am pretty fine with it lol
• much plans to the future (+ being more mindfull than usual)
• enem

feb

• started well with my parents on the verge of divorcing lololololss
• but im happy bc of my non-biting-my-nails-1st-month-anniversary
• im planning on starting a yt chanel //
• tried the 1 billion dollar morning routine
• my dad's still pretending everything is just fine
• idk why but i think its very funny that jupi's fav colors atm r yellow n green
• im missing things i've never had
• my <fave> cousin showed up out of nowhere without telling any1 i love her sm :(
• found out that a random girl is interested in me nice
• my dad is hospitalized
• today i woke up wishing i was inside the Beyond Aquila's Rift shortfilm. my dreams were just- so good. icb im still living like this

mar

• my dad is currently hospitalized bc of his heart condition and we received a call about his ongoing state. he has covid. i hope he'll be ok.
• i started bitting my nails again
• my dad died in his mensiversary (march 12th)
• currently looking for a job D:
• i'm feeling like shit
• the month is almost ending and all days feels the same.

apr

• it's been a month since my dad died
• i'm currently trying 2 get my shit together but man.. it's hard
• we found a stray cat! it's so cute, i'm taking care of him for now
• we found his family. they were so happy to see him again. i'm glad i helped.
• im in!!!!! i entered a federal university (again lollll)

may

• i always forgot to update this
• my cousin showed up againn<333 yayyy
• i played brawl w sinsin n' made cookies today, with jupi
• me n bibi went on a bike ride, we stopped for groceries, i cooked a mousse for mother's day.. we drinked vodka n' almost DIED returning home
• my sisters covid-19 test was positive
• im officialy in a federal university wowowowwww
• i've been thru some things rn it's so hard to keep up w this listtttkemfkskf
• my sister is finally healthy again im so relieved
• im drowned with stuff from college atm

june

• the month started well w my main acc in tt being suspended lolllll and we going home today
• we went home, finally
• i hope everything gets better this month, im invested
• i already said im drowned w homework ???@
• im feeling so hopeless n' weak atm ,, f*ck
• im trying my best and its so exausting for it to not being enough..
• today i will try again and push a hard study week (friday to friday) and come to say how things turned out

july

• i don't actually remember how this week went but i studied hard
• im a part of the electoral commission n' we will arrange this years election
• today i learned that sperm whales can KILL YOU with their vibrations i just unlocked a new fear yayy
• im feeling pretty dumb (AGAIN)
• mom went to grandpa's and we stayed the weekend at home so sinsin came over ^~^
• today was raddd it was so productive and im not even tired!!! my ethics teacher praised me in todays presentation and i watched cruella w brunin n lola <3
• the month is ending and i feel strangely ok ??
• went to sinsin's yesterday we watched legendary its always good spening time w her

aug

• 01/08 started well (fr this time) went to lola's w sinsin {infact its the 3rd weekend we see each other in a row.. i think shits gettin serious :smirk:} i got to cook for them n' we danced ptt together <3 i will definitely remember and cherish this day
• i miss my dad so much i wish i was gone and not him
• everything is starting to feel bad again
• saw the volley matches of olympics !! quality alienation. im kinda sad its over
• i'm starting to wonder if i rlly like men or not
• my mom finally took the 2nd dose of vaccine <33 yay
• feeling lost

sep

• my month!! it's been a while since i reported, this (literally) mean the month has been great
• the college semester is over AAAAAll
• this holiday i went to a party and got to see a part of the family i don't see at all it was so much fun the party itself was great but the next day we were invited to go back there to play volley n go to the pool one of the highlights of the year 4sur
• we spent the rest of visit days in the middle of nowhere with my auntie n cousin
• got vaccined today<3333!!!!! 1st dose yayyyyy pfizer x
• sinsin came over today
• i'm feeling better but everythings pretty numb rn
• last nite i slept at sin's house.. couldn't sleep
• the semester is talking place already it feels like dying honestly
• fell from the net w my sister smashed my elbow D:

oct

• went to sinsins and met claris <3
• my sis took her 1st dose yesassass
• this whole week has been a mess, i barely have the energy to keep up
• we are filming for glow up's channel this weekend, lalisa!
• being around people (even my friends) drain my energy completely.. i wonder why am i like this
• maybe i have fear of rejection lol but we'll see
• i'm finally building the habit of studying and it feels great actually
• today i visited my old school for the first time since i graduated from hs.. strange seeing how time flies
• i'm so proud of me for trying to do well in my life. finding strength is hard but i did it. i did it.
• today i saw my friend ari whose i didn't see for a while, it was great seeing her
• 2021's october is the new august omg this month never ends ????
• when i was young i had this list of things to do before dying and one thing was being at the church and the gay parade in the same day.. today i was at a cemetery and at ari's party so i think i basically made it

nov

• coming to trairi it's slowly becoming less painful
• we're already in the middle of the month basically everything it's happening right now but i just don't have nothing to say.
• o conceito de selar amizades com beijos
• i was just complaining about how numb things were little did i know lol LITTLE DID I KNOW
• ir pra maragogi a noite de carro depois de uma viagem cansativa de avião e ver as cidadelas de serrinha a beira da água do mar banhadas de luz... parecem até que as estrelas desceram pertinho pro chão [só pra me ver]
• is it mental illness or im actually not from this planet and thats why im suffering
• toke my braces off

dez

• im goint nuts
• my mom locked the car with keys inside lmao
• the year is ending already oof the month flyed by
• i'm planning 2022 in advance. he betta be good.