‘the arrow still misses the target marked “human relations”’ · agust d, 140503 새벽에

• first days
• college deadlines, work deadlines (deadlines in general)
• speaking in class (or it used to, at least)
• leaving home and going out
• loud and crowded places
• small talk
• eating in front of unknown people
• lunch time at work
• work (lol)
• owing someone money
• phone calls
• family gatherings
• meeting new people or talking to people i don't know
• asking questions to people i'm not used to
• when people don't like me for no justifiable reasons
• when people say bad things or lies about me
• meetings (external ones are death)
• [the possibility of] losing or forgetting things
• [the possibility of] being late (being late is death)
• [the possibility of] being (seriously) sick
• relationships that don't work
• people leaving me
• not being able to sleep
• having no time for myself
• when my cats are too stressed out
• sweating
• feeling ugly
• pimples and blemishes
• being catcalled
• strangers staring at me
• money issues (the lack of it)
• family issues (and families in general)
• thinking about the future (pursuing a career, leaving my parents house etc.)