- june: june was alright except for a few upsetting convos and some of my friends lowkey avoiding me. the end of the school year was fun i was just attending whenever i felt like it and hanging out with my friends. my sister came too so i was happy and content for the most part. i also felt very inspired and productive during june, i watched a lot of shows on my list and bought oil paint supplies so that was v exciting. i also just like gave my phone a makeover and customized my home screens and all that, it was pretty fun and it looks good so yeah :)
- july: started off with my birthday, heart-warming texts and gifts and overall a good time up until my family decided to ruin it. i don't think i've ever cried that much during a birthday before like sincerely i was about to rip my hair out. got over it because the next day i went to hang out and sleep over at my bestie's house w/ two of my other friends which i appreciate dearly and it was nice, just what i needed honestly. the next week i spent in loneliness and lethargy but i still went out w/ one of my close friends later that week. i hadn't expected it to go so well but it was really refreshing. then eid came around (the day that i am writing this), and honestly, i've had an awful day so far, up until i whipped out my computer and decided to just do something that would elevate this heavy feeling i have right now and i thought what better way to do that then to just dump all my thoughts on my favorite website. i have been thinking about back to school and how i'm excited to see my classes and meet new people; i had a really rocky start the previous year because i knew no one in my class and that made me go insane but honestly i don't think that's gonna bother me that much next year. also, i will finally have an excuse to feel like shit (not that i want to) and escape from my family a bit. i know i lowkey sound like i hate my family but i promise that's not it. anyway, i'm staying over at my grandma's for a week or so and i don't know how to feel even though i usually love it here and can't wait for the break to come over but right now, nothing i usually enjoy sounds appealing anymore and that's lowkey worrying me. enough of this depressing shit i'm back on my fanfiction grind and i lowkey miss writing on ao3 :(. yoyoyoooo im back to say i finally made a tumblr divination blog!! i've wanted to do it for awhile but i was always feeling not confident enough in my work or like knowledge for some reason but i finally did it. i still haven't posted anything except the "rules" just because i know that'll somewhat pressure/motivate me to actually post something. anyway other than that i cut my hair off like rlly rlly short and bought a bunch of super cute clothes, and i'm also going back home tomorrow so yeah that's it :)
jul 10 2022 ∞
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