- Nov 18:a normal boring day, took notes for biochem from a 3 long -ass ppts, my hands hurt. I feel so outdated about seventeen already.
- Nov 19:went to mass and was about to faint, good thing I sat down before I lost my strength. Watched Kimi Mo Na Wa, onfusing at first but overall it was good. Made the svt link to remember links huhu i stalked svt so hard. Gonna study for math and physics tonight, guide me heavens. People are throwing shades to soonyoung.
- Nov 20: I kinda understand the lesson in math now, we checked the paper and I'm okay with my score. It ain't perfect but I'm okay with it. The peace concert is getting on my nerves like wtf they're sacrificing our acads just to practice a single song like they legit made our schedules shortened and they even include saturdays as practices. I'm burning 3 quizzes and so many assignments, call 991. Also, read michan's letter, felt sad and emotional.
- Nov 21: The test in physics was easy? I mean like it's really easy but I had struggles in doing the word problems. Arts' teacher was so close to blurt out a bad word but we all laugh it out anyway. Math was very easy but I fucked up the formula grr. Day pretty went well but I and my other friends were triggered to this pabebe friend. Had fun during lunch time like dale and I clicked? talked about kpop and yeah we're fangirling, I loved it.
- Nov 22: So I studied hard and slept at dawn just to study the fcking biochem and the test was canceled? what the fuck is that? Now, I have to study again for 3 major quizzes for tomorrow, can this end already? I'm fcking tired. guide me heavens, please. let me study and pass the tests. please please. Also, an art project and quiz is due or will happen on friday, which I haven't started to do yet huhu. This is fucking torture. I know I can do this just guide me lord pls.
- Nov 23: I was glad that I was able to answer the biochem test. I'm disappointed that the test on Filipino for today was canceled and moved tomorrow, now we have 3 tests which is AP CI and LP and CE and Filipino. I have to make our arts' project and a summary for my clf portfolio. I'm tired and I need sleep huhu. I have to study and make all this in one night. Please guide and help me lord. I know I can do this just guide me, please. Also, I'm pissed at that pabebe friend wtf.
- Nov 24: I went to school with full eye bags on and I fcking looking like a zombie. I'm so haggard. I answered the 3 quizzes for that day well because I'm satisfied with my scores and how I answer the tests. The only thing that I'm annoyed about is that I slept during physics class and I missed the discussion and review for the periodical test. I want to bald myself, like of all the subjects that I should be sleeping why physics? I didn't even remember what time I slept, I just woke up when the period is almost over. I'm fine with the arts' project that I've made but it's so simple and plain, if only I made it before the submission date, it would have been better and I wouldn't have to pull an all-nighter and I would not be sleeping in physics class which that session holds my score for the upcoming periodical test. Tbh, I don't understand how to do word problems.
- Nov 25: Highlight of the day: forgot to wear a napkin because I forgot that I'm having my period, I consider myself lucky because I stayed home all day. I listened to all the albums of Got7 and added some of the good songs I've listened in the list (fave songs in Kpop) while I'm listening I was sewing and I made a pretty big progress just the lining for the string then I'm done. I was also well-fed because there's a lot of food in the fridge, boy I'm getting fat. God, I should be active on twt after this shit to support seventeen, I want to relive my account again and I need to learn SVP. Please help me lord. I slept on the floor on a folding big because mom snatched my actual but It's fine tho. I'm used in laying down on floors. Also, Riverdale ep.7 didn't release? What sorcery is this? wait, CHEOL SNATCHED EVERY PIECE OF MY HAIR FROM MY SCALP WHAT THE FUCK. THAT FOREHEAD AND HIS WHOLE LOOK MADE ME DEAD BYE IM OUT ONLY IN MAMA 2017.
- Nov 26: Went out to attend mass, did some lining for my bag and arranged stuff, did some sweeping and slept. Now, I'm going to study for a periodical test on english, tle and ap for tomorrow. I'm not aiming for a perfect score just a good ang high passing grade will do, I'm contented if that will happen. Guide me Lord, please.
- Nov 27: I think I pretty did well on the first three subjects that we have a test for today and omg tomorrow is physics, Filipino and clf and I'm so dead for physics. Watch me looking to space while the test is going on for physics. Also, my paper will be blank af. Who can answer that test if you've slept the period where the review was going on and you barely understand a single thing? I'm doomed. Btw, my friends and I were finding a hidden place to do vape like we were walking and walking, I was tired my stomach hurt and we ended up not doing vape. I was sweating hard. So yeah, I wan to try vape because the smell is so good and bye I need to study for me to avoid get a zero grade in physics. Lord, yelp!
- Nov 28: I survived physics but I wasn't able to answer properly the last question tho and I feel so tired while answering the two remaining test which is clf and Filipino. I don't why I'm like this. One time I feel all the energy like I can power the whole country then next few seconds, I feel so low and gloomy. Bipolar? Well, tomorrow's the last day of taking the periodical tests and morning will be the examination and afternoon is peace concert practice, fuck that shit, I already told my lola to fetch me to school just to not attend that practice, I ain't got the energy for doing that and bitch, I lost track with all the updates about seventeen because of examination week. I really also want to learn how to make poop videos, I'm planning on watching tutorials when I reach home and maybe try doing it by night. And reign's sleepover will be on Saturday, I'm having second thoughts to go like 85% I'm not going and 15% I'm going so which is which? I think I'll end up not going. I don't what's with me these past few weeks like I barely spend my time with my friends and just go home after the bell rings for dismissal. I don't even spend time really in stan twt because first, of all exams. second, is that I sleep most of the time like the moment I wake up I spend some time living life then an hour later, I feel sleepy then I sleep lol. A study says that people tend to sleep a lot when they're sad. Woah, am I sad? I don't know. Also, there are so many things that I want to achieve and accomplish but time wouldn't allow me, I'm sad. That's all for today. ps. I'M FUCKING TIRED.
- Nov 29: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OMG EXAM WEEK IS FINALLYY OVER IM FUCKING HAPPY. hmm, all of us are in chaos when the school declared that we'll be having a whole day to have a practice for peace concert. We are all pressed, the fact that exam is just iver and now they want us to practice and gain money for their own benefit? Bitch no! I'm finding my way out of this hell and no one's gonna stop me. My friends and I went through a lot just to get out but unluckyly, I was the only one who got because my lola went to the school and got a slip to get out. Our school is just so urrgh. I feel guilty for I was the only one who got out and my friends are stuck in hell. Well, I need to do my thing now for svt and learn some editing. Btw, tbh, math was easy but if I studied hard, bet that was easy as 123 but I haven't so I had a hard time answering some of the word problems but the damage has been done and I can't do anything about it. But yo, Arts was SOOOOOOO easy like I can answer that exam with my eyes close and same goes with computer but It's confusing. So yeh
- Nov 30: Woke up a 7:28 am, took up a bath, ate some breakfast, did some cleaning and yeah nothing special but here's the plot twist, I have no plans in going out and I just saw a notif/message that we'll be having a practice and we'll be going to shoot the video for our practice in PE. My god, what a great way to ruin all my plans for this day but no choice I got my ass off from my computer and changed clothes and yeah, had the practice but bitch, my body is so ew like my flexibility and my skills in dancing really sucks but whatever, after that I ate lunch, went home, watched svt's mnet special and I slept. Now I'm having second thoughts if I should go to school or just stay in home? Help me, decide.
- Dec 1: So I decided not to go to school because nothing big will happen anyway just a practice for peace concert which annoys the hell out of me and yas, I just launch all my managing accounts and bitch, it's just fine but the internet is really making it all hard for me. Also, I spent literalyy the whole day on the internet. Making new svt lists and setting up those accounts. Now, I'm having trouble how to promote it or attract people to like and follow it. I'm too shy to ask to follow and as much as possible I want to be lowkey that I'm the admin of those accounts. My hands hurt for clicking but I chose so I gotta live with it. Evening came we're all busy preparing for dinner. I was kinda pissed off that my lola is the kind of person that she wants the kind of work like we are doing it in her own way but people have different characteristics. I was really triggered that she's pissed off??? like what the fuck did we ever do to you??? I have respect so I just kept all these thoughts by myself and I was really silent the whole time, my eyes keep on rolling and my face can't be drawn by anyone. Glad that I held my self form shouting or talking back at her, my life is already full of unlucky vibes, I don't want to get more. Also, MAMA in Hongkong was lit! I'm so proud of Vernon.
- Dec 2: Watch going svt ep. 1 to ep. 20, nothing important happened and yeah nothing really.
- Dec 3: So woke up early to attend mass only to find out that there are no jeeps, so yeah we went home. I cooked breakfast, it's been a while since I cook. I finished watching the going svt episodes and I also watched svt's weekly idol and damn I was laughing. Also, watched svt cracked vid. Day well spent, I guess. I'm losing some of my mutuals but srsly tho, how to be friends with them. I decided to watch the Beauty and the Beast movie, I'm still half-way and I'll finish it tomorrow. I badly want to absent tommorrow but talumpati. FML
- Dec 4: I just want to quit school already abut I cant because goals. Also,I'm having colds, cough and fever. Please let me die. I'd rather choose wounds than to fave a flue. Peace concert is the reason why I'm losing my shit everyday. There's a quiz tomorrow and didn't even study, guide me heavens. I became lazier as time passes by, I even let others do my assignments and I'll just pay them. I never do this shit before but now idk. I want my old hardworking self back.
- Dec 5: I was sick and shit I feel like dying already. My wallet is crying because I spent all my money just to pay the people who are doing my projects.
- Dec 6: Same tiring day, I want to end this week, I mean this life already. Also did my part for the case study. But that essay was so mediocre sorry leader-nim.
- Dec 7: I was literally laughing so hard because of this guy from school who has the same hairstyle as dj khalid and whenever we see him, my crazy friends starts screaming DJ KHALID and will sing young, dumb, broke, bItch, that's literally the funniest thing that happened in this week so far AHHAHAHAGAHHAHA.okay that's all bye
- Dec 8: So I started the day well, I went late to school, had more sleeping time and that's fine like who cares? not until math period, I was confronted for doing cheating during the periodical test. I knew that this was coming and Okay, I'll accept the punishment. I'm really fine like reaally! The only thing that bothers me is that the people who knows about it. Their way of thinking about me will change and I tend to overthink what people will think about me and I hate it. Seriously, bring that punishment on and I'll gladly accept it. I'll even appreciate more if the given punishment is death penalty, ISTG I'm so ready to die because what's happening in my life really sucks. If only my family and people who care for me are not in the picture, I wouldn't think twice to end my life. I'm just tired. If I die, I don't want them to mourn for me. Like I'd be happy if all of their memories about me will just dissapear so that they can just continue living their lives in peace. Also, I know that I'm not the only who's cheating in that classroom. I'm just stupid because I was too obvious and ended up getting caught so basically, it's my fault and yeah I'm willing to face those consequences. Don't let my guardians get involved please, I'm okay if they'll know about it. I just don't want to be another problem to them. They had enough. The only thing that really bothers to me in this case is that how will people now think about me. I'm kinda relieved that sir lim, said those words to me and I was comforted. I don't even know if my friends really care for me. They should have told me about it for a heads-up. They knew all along and I was the only one who remained clueless. I can't blame them tho. What if I never approached mdm. ursal, would she find a way to talk to me about it. Like legit, I really thought that everything is going smoothly and just right there, I encountered a hump that I never really expected. But yea, I can't change anything so imma face it. Lesson learned: if you cheat, just don't get caught.
- Dec 9: Watched blackpink teasers for their blackpink house, I'm so excited omg and bought a black dress for peace concert and I'm sleepy af. Let me sleep huehue
- Dec 10: So we attended mass and ate lunch with my sister and mom, picked clothes for my sister and yeah we did some shopping, I love it. With that, I'm happy of what happened today but I DONT REALLY WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW IM TIRED.
- Dec 11: I just slept in school. Had a new lesson in math and it was good. I dont want to go to school tomorrow tho. I watched shining diamond concert on youtube and It'd be amazing if I can go to one of their concerts. When will I ever
- Dec 12: We had our dress rehearsals for today, everyone's changing to their dresses and they groomed themselves while I'm just in my seat contemplating my life and my insecurities. Seriously, I'm not really the type of person who has no energy like I am before, 3 years ago many things had happened which triggered certain changes of my being. ISTG the moment I step out from that school, I'll be changing myself for the better and be a better version of myself. I want my highschool life memorable. And by transferring to a new school, I'll make more friends and have fun. Okay, my classmates are really pretty tho, It makes me question what happened to me during my mom is having pregnancy with me. During the afternoon, we had a japanese friendship day and it's like having an encounter with japanese students who came to our school. We were group, Class #'s 14 - 26 and the jap students were kyosuke, hoten, taku and i forgot the other one and the girls are momokai and miuu. They're so cute and sweet esp, the girls. Kyosuke is good looking tho. My classmates went crazy for him. They keep on asking him to have a picture and it's really visible in his face that he's uncomfortable, I felt bad for him. Also, this activity, made me realize many thing. Language barrier really sucks. It sucks big time. It hinders people to communicate and understand each other properly. Also, it blocks people from making new friends? This motivated me to really learn Korean. I also realize how awkward and how an introvert I am. I suck in making friends. I need to change some of my bad personality to become a better version of myself. 2017 is already ending, I don't want to bring bad luck in 2018. Many bad things have already happened in this year and I can't let negativity invade my 2018. I'll gain my strength and do things that can help me improve again. Tbh, I don't like my attitude towards life these past few months. I lost the will to live and everything seems a burden and tiring to me. If I bring this next year, maybe I'll end up quitting school and not being able to finish it. SO I NEED TO SLAP MYSELF TO BE ON TRACK AGAIN!
- Dec 13: I decided to have a half-fay in going to school. I organized my tweets and lists this morning and I'm glad to say that I'm fucking done. It's so tiring and my hands hurt in clicking but i had to. I walked to school holding a milktea on my hand and istg, I feel so cool lmao. I find it fun tho that all of my classmates are just sleeping in the classroom and me and my friends are playing sad playlists. Also, I decided to have a wonwoo pics account. I'm hoping that this wouldn't flop lol.
- Dec 14: It was the day that we had to perform our presentation for the peace concert. It took forever for my make up to be done and I find my braided hair cute. We have to perform at the matinee in 2:30 pm and gala at 6:30 pm. I went home by 8 and kelci chatted me to have a sleep over at rhyme's so I asked my lola to go. She had her yawyaw session but luckily, she let me go there. Kuya Jandee accompanied me to go to the condo. We had walwal sesh. Played truth or dare. OMG highlight of the night: I saw a live chola show in my own two eyes. I guess life with a partner seems fun and exciting. HAHHA istg I won't be drinking gsm again. Hangover level is so high, i feel like dying.
- Dec 15: Woke up to find out that I'm wearing another shirt. My pajamas have vomit. I feel disgusted. I was literally wasted. Thank god, shamly changed my shirt. I kept on going to the cr to vomit. I feel like, I'll also vomit my internal organs. had a 30 min. (?) shower and changed to my uniform. Kelci bought me noodles and hot cocoa but I didn't eat it. I wasted 50 pesos. My taste buds are not working well, and feel like any moment I'll be vomiting again. So they me and my friends, decided to not let me to got to school because I was really on a hangover. I slept the whole afternoon and woke up at 4 pm. I went to school to get my umbrella and to see my friends. I ate free food yay!. Before going home, I stopped at KFC and ate spag and galaxy sundae. I washed my dirty clothes. And I'll do some fangirling for tonight.
- Dec 16: I woke up late and I wasted this day. I didn't even attend peace concert. I won't be shock if I'll be suspended. My hands are cold and I feel like they'll be freezing anytime. I lost interest in everything. I want to stay out of stan twt for a while. That's all. I want to finish school already.
- Dec 17: Sister's birthday! Went out ate breakfast with our dada at chowking. It may sound cheap but I consider it memorable. It was the first time that we ate with our dada alone outside. She may be a shit but she really matters to me. ~ Went home did my fish and baby brother got a high fever and will be admitted on a hospital. Me and my sister washed clothes! She celebrated her bday by washing clothes wtF AHHAHAH. And I slept at 2 am drowning because of my thoughts and listening sad opm songs.
- Dec 18: Arrived at school late because I slept at 2 am, god knows why!. Talked to ms. escu because I'm finally getting the punishment that I deserve for doing that shit which eventually I didn't even gain any positive thing from it. I got a punishment and heck ye, this is what i get for lacking 'skills and professionalism'. Skipping to lunch, now me and my friends are planning to skip school tom just to chill at rhyme's condo. So details? We all will be leaving at our house the same time we go for school and wear our uniforms. Our parents will think that we'll be attending class but the truth is we're not lmao HAHAH don't be like us!. We're so confident to do this because we all already completed our clearance and submissions. Also, christmas party is tomorrow. We'll be having fun tomorrow and I'm going to cherish it because I'll be transferring schools for senior high. I'm going to miss those weakshitz who changed my life and made my life happier.
- Dec 19: Walked out from home wearing a uniform and my superiors think I went to school but they're wrong. I lied down and watched videos there all day. I was happy not until I came home and heard the saddest news. He's too young. He doesn't deserve to suffer like this. I hate how everything has an exchange of everything.
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