- Jan 1: I just did that seventeen [2017] thread and watch videos on youtube. We ate and damn never felt so lonely on a new year.
- Jan 2: I did a seventeen marathon and school is already tomorrow but I don't know where are my school stuff. I HATE SCHOOL!
- Jan 3: I was early in school. I don't know where I got all the energy and humor this 2018 but thank god. Humor? yas, I feel that my humor has increased with about 1XP HAHAH. Anyways, I made most of my friends laugh today, this really means a lot to me. Can I mention how funny this is? HAHAHH. Brian was wearing a captain america jacket, we said "hi" while clea said "so you like starwars?" WTF HAHAHAH SHE's SO DUMB AHAHHAHA GV GV GV. I was really sleepy during tle time and can't sleep because I'm in the first row. Can I mention how slow the time is running? im dying. I had fun today not bad for the 3rd day of 2018. Rhyme's bday is tom tho, i hope i can go to his bday celebration this coming jan. 13. nyt.
- Jan 4: I woke up early and feel so sleepy af. These past few days, I'm not getting enough sleep really. We surprised rhyme for his birthday and really one of the funniest and best days of my life. I may not be the one who's celebrating, I felt really happy just with the company of my friends.
- Jan 5: Normal day not until I was summoned to the dic to talk about my punishment and about ms. escu wanting to talk to my mom lmao. I feel so much shame into myself. If only I can turn back time and never did that thing, I would really do it. I learned the hard way and Ms. Escu's words are really something. After PE, our teacher in AP, arrived late and we chit-chatted, I literally made them laugh and also, I laughed hard because of them omg HAHAHHA. Dismissal, we ate pizza because still part of celebrating rhyme's birthday. FUN DAY!
- Jan 6: I woke up at 10 am, took a bath and went to fooda in guadalupe for a filming for tle class and went home after and did kpop stuff all day. Also, watched blackpink house ep. 1. Gosh, mg dream house. That's all.
- Jan 7: NOTHING HAPPENED.
- Jan 8: CARD DAY BYE.
- Jan 9: I slept at AP time and I kinda regretted it because I missed the discussions of the laws about human rights. I also felt bad for asking reign that question because I somehow hit a sensitive part. 4 day in saving money and damn, I stan my self control for not buying anything except food for lunch. I went home and the first I do was doing my assignments. Hope that my answers in math are correct :(. I'm really stressing out because I have a lot of things to catch up in seventeen. They did tons of vlives, video releases and I havent still watched SVT project. Why did I even entered this fandom? smh. I did my ap assignment and I'll be doing the explanation tom. Hope that I won't be sleeping anymore and I can finally understand the math lesson fully.
- Jan 10: We had a discussion in physics today and sadly, i really dont understand a single thing. Unfortunately, we'll be having a quiz and god, please bless my soul. Also, the ranking for 2nd quarter was out and I'm in the 7th place. Not bad for someone who received a punishment because of a major offense(where in fact that major offense has no use lmao) We also had a test in math and damn, never felt so humiliated and felt a big slap in my face for my entire life. Our math teacher really asked us to check if there are hand writings on the desks. She doesn't really need to do that because I've already learned my lesson and she even did the same thing with the other sections and made a 'broadcast'/'side commented' on it. Like seriously? Do you really need to do that? I've received and the punishment that I deserve and you still did that? I'm really annoyed grr. istg, you'll pay for this but just kidding, im too good to do bad to anyone lmao. Also, I felt sad that cookin for tle was cancelled because of the strong paint. I was really excited to eat fried rice but it didnt happen. Fast forward, dismissal and we went to kalidades to help our dodo to choose a flower for our momo. Gosh, it's really the cutest shit like being involved in someone's love life? It feels good and it's really meaningful to me. I love witnessing pure efforts and love. I maybe harsh to cheska but those are all just joke and I'm really glad to meet a friend like her. She's truly one of a kind. Rhyme deserves her so much. It's just ironic that she's really been acting as a homophobic bitch back then but now she's the one who stood up as a guy in a relationship god. She has changed for the better and far from the cheska, I've known from before. After, we went to the condo and ate pizza, I also cried for reading svt updates. It really makes me sad for the fact that I can't buy any merch and see them live at this situation. We were bored and you know what we did? We watched porn asdfghjkl. We've watched kim k's sex tape, a short clip of mia khalifa's and a lesbian porn. I also see another side of lourdes lmao. BUT THAT THING WHEN LOURDES DANCES IN A SEXY YET CRINGY WAY, IM DYING AHHAHAHAH. So yeah, I went home bragged about my sto. nino which I dressed up during workshop, watched svt perf team mukbang, and other svt ch+ vids and updated my listography and yeah gd nyt. :)
- Jan 11: Nothing really important happened today, I did all my assignment, washed the clothes, finished some svt videos and that's it.
- Jan 12: Nothing important happened but during dismissal time I had a comfy talk with jasmine and It feel great that she opens up herself to me about her crushes and all. I went home and I was really having a hard time trying to log in into my personal account like whyy and I asked my lolo to go on a sleepover tomorrow and I was a bit mad of what he said, I asked properly and you're saying this to me? But whatever, no one can stop me and I'll still go. I watched svt's diamond edge concert in japan and all performances are all lit. I hope someone will make a cuts for it.
- Jan 13: Woke up early to finish watching the concert, I cooked breakfast, did some cleaning, packed my clothes and jasmine and I decided to go together to attend mass and the wally of the priest was good and good thing that he also talks about the LGBT community. I was really holding my laugh when I payed attention to this couple beside us like we made them a clown show the whole damn time. AHHAHAH We saw yula and bastes, after the mass we met up with reign, lourdes and rhyme's friend (charmmel) and rhyme. Damn lourdes and reign wore a fit dress and bitch their body are goals but I like reign's body a lot more. IM BNOT FETISHIZING IM APPRECIATING. We had lunch at seaside and met up some of the friends that rhyme invited and yeah we went to city di mare to check in. We played card games and gald that I still have the skills in playing tong-its. We played with papa dus and I was shook that he TALKED OMG. Mama val is really lucky to have him, hope that they'll be married and be happy with each other. So yeah, me, julia, kelci and jasmine decided to go to seaside just to see their crushes but unfortunately, julia and I only got to see our crushes. I just joined them because I was bored at the condo and my crush whom I didnt expect to see in seaside showed up. Julia and andrea saw each other. Jasmine treated us milktea and gosh, I was catching my breath for laughing so hard of julia's puns. Walfam inside joke "hey nana" AHAHHAHAHA. Night time came and yeah the real show have began but I didn't drink too much. I don't know these days, I can't take the tast of alcohol anymore. I easily vomit because of it. They all danced and went wild, vomit here and there, and charmmel even broke the door god, That was really stressful but funny af, Cheska was really gross AHHAHAHAH. We cleaned up to the ones who are sober and slept. GOSH THAT WAS SP STRESSFUL.
- Jan 14: We woke up early, ate pancit canton, had swimming, dress ourselves up and went to seaside to eat lunch and i rode a motor to go home and I slept, watched svt vids and blackpink vids and fixed my stuff for school and I'll be sleeping again.
- Jan 15: It was raining hard at the morning so my feet got wet and nothing really important happened the whole day, I had fun during music class because our teacher had a quiz about opm songs wherein he will play an opm song and we will write the title, it's just sad that some people don't value opm that much :/. At math time, we had a quiz bowl and sadly, I got 9/29. I literally forgot all the lessons. At filipino time, I slept the whole period but I've witnessed lourdes' group presentation and it's really good. I feel really sick and went straight home after dismissal, did my assignments and updated listography.
- Jan 16: Nothing really important that happened today except I went to the guidance to talk about my career plans and damn my lola is so talkative. During the talk, I'm really teary eyed because of the discussion. Thoughts are running around my mind like what if I won't be able to finish school, like the life that i've been dreaming of is not what i can get. I really need to work hard to reach my dreams. Also, math test will be tomorrow, hope that I will get a high score and that's all bye.
- Jan 17: Had math test today and gosh i feel like i failed that test, during tle time we cooked, then workshop time we just didn't went to our workshop and we're just walking and having the most chillest time of ourlives. gosh "pacool" yax so yeah dismissal time and we attended the novena mass, it feels good to hear the homily but it's really tiring, the crowded area plus my feet are really killing me asdghjkkl. After that, we ate at plaza independencia, we just had puso and bbq. After that, we made tambay and talked about things. Anyways, I feel like I really like minin *cries.
- Jan 18: Recollection day, yeah we prayed the rosary in the bus , had chika time to wait till the arrival in the retreat house then we started the recollection by praying of course and so yeah the next thing we did was to familiarize the song entitled "Speak Life" and learned also the dance steps, the song is so meaningful and it's also catchy. After that our facilitators are Fr. Joriz, Ate Jayriel, Ate Patlyn and Ate Kaye. Fr. Joriz is our speaker, after the dancing and everything, he had a talked about the gospel about lazarus. Then we had an activity, the other facilitators gave us 3 papers which we will write about our saddest moments of our lives, people who helped us and the way to happiness/how we cope up with the problem after that we had a grouping to have a sharing and I'm in group 3, my groupmates are kiana, kandace, lourdes and gienah. We share our problems and the problem that I've heard that moved me the most is really from gienah. She looks so strong and savage in front but behind all that we didn't know that there's a problem going on in their family. I can't imagine myself witnessing/catching my dad's dirty acts. So yeah i was shook to know all that things. You can't really judge a person by its cover. After that we had lunch, the food was good but the other students from other schools that is also having a recollection are annoying. It's like they don't know the word 'manners' ? Gosh. so yeah lunch was done, we continued and we played hammer(?) yea the ones who lost their both hands were the ones who lead the "speak life" dance after that we had a talk where in Fr. Joriz had this symbols drawn in the different stages of life which are childhood, teenage, young adult then adult. Those experiences shaped us into a better person. After that we made our own versions. We drew symbols in the good things that happened during childhood up to teenage years and also we drew unpleasant things that also happened in those stages. We had a sharing with the same group and I had fun talking with them and we were able to talk outside of the venue. After that we had a reflection and I took down notes because I love writing hihi. Then last part was we had this love circle and in front of it were cards on sticks that has labels that says "I love you" , "I care for you", "I'm sorry" and " Thank you". We all got one and I picked "I care for you". I was planning to give it to gienah because I don't know. We may not be close but I just want her to feel better that she's not alone and there are people is caring for her but I ended up giving it to lourdes because she was the first one who gave me card that says I care for you and I gave mine to her back. At this part, kelci gave me another one that says "i love you" but unfortunately, i wasn;t able to keep because I gave it but i had a spare one so i madfe it a substitute lmao, so I received two sticks already Then after that the facilitator said that to those who received more than 1 has the chance to give one to the person who hasn't received one yet so I took the chance to give one to gienah and I give her "i care for you" and my classmates started saying "awww". I was touched and I just simply gave it to her and she stared at me and I'm assuming that she waited for me to do something like a hug but I just said here name and gave it to her, I want to say something and hug her but I feel shy and intimidated so yeah. After that we finished and we got some extras from the mini shrine were the sticks are being place and I got 5 each of the 5 sticks to give to kelci, mamaval, julia and lourdes but along the way,I really didn't expect that marian will give me one, which is the reason that I broke down but i was really holding back my tears because I don't want to cry. I look ugly just with my face and if I cry then Id be reallyyyy ugly. Then Laela gave me one also, she's just random person but she has a special part in my heart, we share random talks, she greets me at the corridor even though i just wave a little and nod my head slightly, it justs feels good. so yeah we had mass, we ate at the bus because time is running, we had jamming session, it was so traffic and we arrived late. I went home, ate dinner and I did the threads for the pics in blbblgn acc and I updated listography and I'll be sleeping already. fck i just remembered that physics test will be tomorrow, help me sto. nino. PIT SENYOR!
- Jan 19: We had a test in math and gosh I got 2 straight zeros but good thing, our teacher made it into an exercise and the final test will be on tuesday. We arrived late during the afternoon classes because we ate lunch and forgot that 1:45 is the time to resume classes on fridays so yeah. Physics was the first class in the afternoon and seriously, i dont even know what I don't know. I seriously dont understand a single thing in physics class. I answered the test with an empty brain so definitely i'll be having a score that is also empty. WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE! Then yea, fast forward, I went home early and did the laundry with my sister and lola We finished by 6:30. After that, I WAF FUCKING IRRITATED BY SISTER'S ATTITUDE. SHE SERIOUSLY NEED TO BUMB HER HEAD IN HARD CEMENT TO LEARN MANNER WTF. Anyways, i just browsed and browsed the internet and slept.
- Jan 20: nothing important happened during the day but i went out during the night and jasmine fetch me at our house and i arrived at 1 am. that's all.
- Jan 21: No sinulog for me, i just stayed the whole day. I watched bad genius and it was so good.
- Jan 22: Im so tired of school and homework bye.
- Jan 23: Nothing really important happened today.
- Jan 24: I just knew that ill be suspended for two days and the thought of it makes me hella worried. Also, it's my first time getting irritated by rhyme. I'm her friend pero di sd tawn ko inana na pagkatao oy.
- Jan 25: I didn't eat for recess and I just slept. Pledis dropped 5 bombs and I'm done. Nothing really important happened today so yeah. Wish me luck for the quiz tom.
- Jan 26: Had 3 quizzes for today which is math, pe and filipino. I'm hella sure I did well on filipino and pe but idk for math. gosh i may seem that i dont care about at all on the outside but hey i really have a wreck of emotions on the inside. anyways, we had a 2pm dismissal and i ditched my friends to go home just to sleep. Tbh, I lack sleep this week and I need sleep so ><. Also, i feel like i wont be chatting some of my friends or just minimize bc they all dont reply and it annoys me??. I hate that I suck in continuing conversations and I suck in giving advices. I hate it. So yea, I watched 2 episodes of riverdale and Ill be sleeping at 3 am. I was distracted to twt so I only finished 2 eps so yeah. that's all bye.
- Jan 27: I watched riverdale and my friends are chatting me to talk about their problems and I watched blackpink house. I guess that's all. bye.
- Jan 28: I started watching 13 reasons why and that's all.
- Jan 29: nothing happened important.
- Jan 30: *copy pastes what i wrote in entry 29
- Jan 31: We had math test today and gosh i feel like failing and did the tle mirror project and got low score bye.
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