- "I like you for who you are, sassy, nimble witted yet reserved." ♥
- Cups my face in his calloused, boyish hands.
- Brought me the most adorable coloring book for kids; our little walk to buy some pencils.
- The delightful moan he made when I crawled into his bed at five in the morning; "I was dreaming about you".
- His desperation when my grandma pointed at some perfumes and told me to pick one because it would ruin my scent, which he seems to love.
- Our first Shields listening, in my bed, both writing about each other in a notebook, with tangled legs and tiny smiles.
- Said that, for me, he would at least try to read Twilight (not that I would ever ask); already read Juliet, Naked and O Operário Em Construção.
- Whispers against my mouth, usually what we're still embarrassed or afraid to say out loud.
- The way he held me while I got anxious on an empty street, repeating "you're safe, you're safe, I'm here"; always reaches for my wrists and eyes me like I'm some wild animal if the scenery around us gets potentially panicky.
- The bright red bruise on his lip from my bite; his wet eyelashes and glowing green eyes in the river, hands underwater gripping my thighs.
- Trusts me, more and more, with his family and his own stories/secrets.
- Is reading Porto/Kyoto to me out loud, plants a small kiss on my lips between each chapter. (lately, I can't seem to focus on anything but the way his mouth moves and my hunger won't let him finish two sentences.)
- "You can be brutal." "I am."
- Our first couple of weekends together, before I started the medication, in remote villages with narrow streets covered in flowers and cats; our walks in their parks, dreamy beds with white sheets, how weirdly beautiful he looked in a parking lot, at 3 am, while I smoked a shaky cigarette.
- "Just say the words." and, when I finally did, ran home to get here on time to kiss me goodnight.
- Endures the lack of privacy and adventures, says all he wants is to be with me, that it is enough. (but sometimes it isn't and he sighs and holds me differently, almost with different hands.)
- "You're one of the best things that has ever happened in my life."
- Sent me an envelope with sweet nothings and a ticket to see The Walkmen inside; also a postcard with a photo of a ferry, a reference to when we first met two years ago.
- "I would still make love to you if you were my sister." ♥♥
- Sang between the bars to me on the phone because I was having the worst headache and asked him to lull me to sleep; the emphasis on well i like you the best.
- Óbidos ♡
- Feeling everything but panic or anxiety; how natural it is to do all those things young lovers do with him.
- When I wouldn't get out of bed he put on walkmen's wake up, I hid a grin underneath the covers and kept pretending to be asleep; then he stopped the song right before my favorite part (maybe it was a coincidence but he's the sort of person who would know which one it is), making me yell in pain. His laughter was louder than both mine and Hamilton's cry.
- First weekend in Lisbon in months: finally being in his room, sleeping in his bed; baked an apple pie for us; his head on my shoulder, his shouts on my ear during the rat; seeing pega monstro together and having dinner with my friends; drove Ró home even tho he lives one hour away because I wanted to see him so badly.
- Our lips came apart for him to tell me, with beat happening's godsend on the background, "You are. If there was a God, of course."
- Some moments feel very couple-y like sitting on the passenger seat next to him with friends on the back or when I was watching tv at his house in the little living room and he was doing something in the office; I adore them.
- "I think I love you." "I know I do."
- For my bday gave me an old recorder and made me a tiny mixtape. An actual mixtape. ♥ (for xmas, three tapes)
- Says whenever he sees me after a little while apart it always catches him off guard, like he's not expecting me to be "so beautiful".
- Came to me in the middle of the week because I was so, so down and missing him so, so much even tho it meant losing hours of work. "You're more important." ♥
- Never let go of my hand while we watched Amour; whispered "I love you, I love you, I love you" on my ear afterwards, while I was having a tiny meltdown. Never ever makes me feel like I'm crazy.
- "I remember vividly the first time I saw you after lisbon. I couldn't believe my luck. You, dressed in black, wearing the amulet maria gave you, complaining about your feet."
- Bought us tickets to see yo la tengo next spring.
- "My life only makes sense with you in it."
- Going back to Constância for the weekend, after a couple of bad days, and being so in love. ♥
- Bought me flowers. (twice!)
- Sitting on his lap, kissing his neck. "I never thought I would have a woman like you."
- Took me to his brother's birthday dinner where I met most of the family and, ever since, to multiple (if not all) family gatherings.
- Those times he changed the "he" to "she", pretending Watson was actually Joanie, while reading The Hound Of Baskerville together.
- Has a permanent second pillow on his bed waiting for me. ♥
- "I didn't think you would be like this when we first kissed..." "Like what?" "Loving."
- Calls me chubby chubs, which I find so very endearing.
- Gave me an old ps2 for my birthday, with two singstar games, so I could fulfill my idiotic dream of spending new year's singing.
- His eyes bright with tears when I was sure I had to leave the country.
- Rekindled his love of photography by wasting two full films on my face. (I secretly loved it.)
- The first time he dropped me off at the bus station, waited for mine to leave then told me how proud he was of my tiny conquer.
- All the bruises he leaves on my body. ♥
- Our dumb smiles during that Bill Callahan song, our inside joke, only ours, in a room full of people.
- How we sleep apart but with our feet touching or his right hand on my ass.
- "Do you forgive me? Do you love me?" "I forgive you. I love you."
- Being so, so good and caring to my little sister. ♥ ♥
- Weekend in Alcobaça & Batalha, being so old and married together, something that never fails to make me feel giddy all over.
- Two years later still gets hard just by kissing me/seeing me change clothing.
- 8/07 broke up with me
- We got back together 2 or 3 weeks after; he rescued me from a very uncomfortable situation then wouldn't stop touching my hands and rubbing his face against mine, breathing against my mouth. being in the same room as him made it clear we didn't stand a chance.
- How desperate our kisses have been since the breakup.
- When a friend interrupted a breathless moment, walked away from me then looked back and said "to be continued." my own finn nelson ♥
- "I've desired you for so long before I had you."
- It's getting colder again so I put on his robe then went into his office; his smile, so so genuine, hands reaching, "I've missed seeing you in this."
- june, 2015 got mad at me for being myself, still tries to change me.
- august, 2015 break up during holidays
- february, 2016 said he won't ever love me like he did in the beginning
- june, 2016 I have no idea why we're still together.
aug 15 2012 ∞
jun 3 2016 +