• Garage Band so I can start a podcast (I really want to do this)
• A new camera lens. I hope to get a cheap one on eBay because Drew wants his back :///
• Vinyl vinyl vinyl
• New clothes
• A pair of sturdy leather boots
• Thick warm fuzzy socks
• A trip to Europe!

1. I don't know where to start and when to end
2. I either can't get into them, or can't get over them
3. I always like someone I can't have
4. Or someone who has a girlfriend
5. Or someone too old
6. Or too young
7. Or too short
8. Or too tall
9. I can never seem to find a boy who sticks around
10. and has decent taste in music
11. and mary jane
12. Or dresses decent.
13. I need to expand my horizons
14. I am a bitch
15. I don't like to hang out alone all the ...

• Drive more often
• Dye my hair a pretty color
• Buy a cape
• And some tights
• Figure out when I am going to Chicago next
• Apply to colleges (SAIC, Eugene Lang, Columbia, Roosevelt, UWW)
• Make new friends
• Break the bad news to you-know-who
• Decide what I want
• Attempt to make peace with people who hate me
• Register my computer under our wifi so I can speak to Emily and the rest of the world
• Charge my phone nightly
• Work ou...

1. Apparently I did a few lines of coke and gave Spencer Carajuana a blow job AND fucked him all within my 20 minute study hall. Lololol.
2. And apparently I am lying and starting rumors about me and a certain someone. Not proud of it. Sorry. Wasn't great, and I didn't tell people. So stfu.
3. I'm in Chicago in the SAIC computer lab with Emily DAY
4. PIE is good
5. Yelling outside of Cameron's apartment about stupid...

1. Page France
2. Born Ruffians
3. The Hood Internet
4. Lykke Li
5. The Teenagers
6. This HORRIBLE cd in art class. It sounds like a dying cow with Evanessence in the background. Some boy brought it in on Monday and we still listen to it.
7. Metric
8. Micah P. Hinson (Thank you, Emily)
9. Really old r&b and rap songs from middle school

• If you are going to do something, be willing to own up to it. Don't try and lie about it, especially to one of your best friends. They'll find out eventually.
• I hate how this hurts me so much, but doesn't even render in your heart or mind. It's so easy for you.
• Don't tell me about girls that you like. I don't want to know. Well, I do.. but it's too hard.
• You try way too hard, but you are always there...

1. Twitter
2. You have changed, and I'm proud of you for some reason.
3. I haven't changed.. but I've grown up a little.
4. Only time will tell
5. Love isn't a feeling, it's an ability
6. I have no skills
7. I need money, but not to buy happiness with.
8. I think way too much, and I think about the same things everyday. I go through this story in my head, and convince myself that it is reality. I know it's not. It just hasn't s...

• I need to get over this. It's over, but it's fucking not fair. It's really not.
• Do you like him? I want to know, but I will not ask.
• I am glad there is no drama. Really.
• Tomorrow morning is going to be awesome.
• You need to get over yourself. You treat me like complete shit, and I've kind of known this all along, but chosen to ignore it. I guess I love you, but fuck it. I just want to have fun now. I h...

• Family
• is who you make it
• I want to know my biological dad
• And the rest of my family
• But my friends are my family
• St. Louis
• Might move there later in life
• But it probably won't happen for a while
• it's just a thought
• Chicago
• Halloween
• is going to be funnn
• I want to dress up.. and I need costume ideas
• Apartment
• Emily's mom better let her
• I want a pet turtle
• Taking a year off
• Might be a good idea
• Or could be a very ve...

1. Apparently my mom/aunt really loves restraining orders, because one was put against my biological dad
2. I wished every year on my birthday from ages 9-14 that he would come into my life
3. And I blamed him
4. He contacted me, and he wants to meet me now
5. I am scared
6. And really pissed at her
7. I want to know him
8. I have all of the contact information
9. Someone needs to drive me to St. Louis
10. Hopefully over Christmas break...

1. I don't know what I want from you, or how I will get it.
2. I'm sick of this bullshit
3. I need you around
4. You obviously still like her
5. I don't know why I hang out with you, or let you do things like that. I don't like you, and I hope you don't get the wrong impression.
6. I miss my friends
7. I feel sick to my stomach
8. I want some orange cranberry juice
9. Arm amputation?
10. Birth control
11. I still have those fucking flowers i...

1. This pretty shirt
2. Dress for homecoming, maybe
3. shirt thing
4. 1
5. 2
6. This is on sale
7. skirt
8. Sandals
9. Cape thing
10. Skirt and bag
11. Headband
12. I WANT THIS BAG!

I will add to this.

1. 1
2. 2
3. 3
4. Buy leggings and printed tights
5. Finish sewing caplet thing
6. Clean my room
7. Go to H&M sometime this month
8. Write scholarship essays
9. Decide what I want to do with my life
10. Make new friends
11. Visit Shelby at her 1/2way house
12. Document the above
13. Take pictures for art class
14. Finish large girl painting
15. Stop spending money on pointless things
16. Go grocery shopping
17. Lose 18lbs before Christmas
18. Pass all of my classes

I really ha...

1. Emily Day- I don't get to see you anymore, but hopefully I will come visit soon. I hate that I can't randomly call you while I'm at work anymore. You get me, for the most part.
2. Jaime Balke- You and I get annoyed with each other a lot, but I've got your back, and I can always call you to hang out. I love driving around with you and Nate. And your family is really nice.
3. Dillon S.- You are adorable, an...

• This entire outfit, especially the cord skirt
• Dress
• New hat?
• Sweater
• SHOES!
• Dress, that I would shorten
• this thing?
• Dress thing
• THIS!
• Sweater
• Coat

Will finish this later. I have a lot more to add.

1. Bottled water
2. Pampered Chef parties
3. Divorce
4. Juno
5. Asian takeout
6. Soap Operas
7. Graduate school
8. Whole Foods and Grocery Co-ops
9. Living by the Water
10. Yoga
11. Gifted Children
12. Barack Obama
13. Having gay friends
14. St. Patricks day
15. San Francisco
16. Hating corporations
17. Proactiv
18. Music Piracy
19. Standing in the corner at an awkward party where they are the minority
20. Threatening to move to Canada
21. Easy-Mac
22. Toyota Prius
23. Smart Cars
24. Expensive sandwiches
25. N...

I hadn't talked to these people in a long time, but recently I've been conversing with them: And it's kind of random.

1. Brice
2. Omar, apparently Kris10 blocked everything
3. Sam
4. Lauren

1. I finished our internet scavenger hunt
2. This is the only site that I can get on that isn't blocked
3. I am sitting by myself
4. It's rather funny, actually.

• Someone always ends up getting hurt between the two of us. I want to be friends, but more than friends. And I don't know if it's possible to be more than one thing at once, but if it were possible, that is what I would want. You have a good heart, but it's been played with, and mangled and now you aren't the same. I hope I don't fall in love.
• Once again
• I am stupid. Stupidstupidstupid.
• I wish you liv...

1. Riding in the VW bus with Emily
2. Emily Day in general
3. Sitting after school with everyone like 2 years ago
4. When Stephanie and I were best friends, and nothing else mattered. And she didn't think she was better than me. And she didn't try to say that I have no life ahead of me.
5. Riding to school with Greg last year. Before Kirsten started riding with us, and even after. I don't know.
6. Visiting Nick at Chipo...

1. Braids, in my hair.. or on clothing
2. Incense
3. Smelly markers
4. Boys, and the way they smell
5. Dry-erase boards
6. Foreign films
7. Brick walls
8. Flea Markets, and trinkets
9. Tangerine lip color
10. Sour candy
11. Spicy food
12. Bonfires, and star gazing
13. Camel Filters
14. Bamboo plants for good luck
15. Lava lamps
16. Brown eyeshadow
17. Tickle fights
18. The internet
19. Chow Mein
20. Marijuana
21. Red wine
22. New things.. anything brand new
23. Playing bongos in my room
24. My passenger w...

1. Study for Consumer Ed test
2. Study for Psychology test
3. Do Consumer Ed project by Monday
4. Read my art history book
5. Make friends with that new girl who has the awesome tote bag
6. Carpool with Greg again (possibly)
7. Grow magical mushrooms in my closet
8. Uh.. yeah