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Why do i like things? The intention is to learn about what something means to me outside of relationships/others...

• wrestling/combat/guns- defense, community care and safety, self-competence in my body and violence
• radios- community care/safety/development, cool/interesting technology, independence from mainstream, freedom of speech, live conversations, uncommon music
• writing- unfurl my thoughts, rearrange them, know them more intimately
• poetry- structure, challenge, literary devices, organization, intimacy
• coding- community development/safety/care, design, intimacy (snapshots of life). portraying oneself is not the final goal, spreading information & enjoyment [in things] is
• cooking- skill for friends, family, community, myself. money saver (sometimes) and...

And things i need:

• a rigid, reliable work schedule
• legal name change
• top surgery, which begins with a consultation
• exercise and hearty food
• return to plants, indoor and outdoor
• purge my belongings, i want much fewer things
• find a way to hold what's happening to me, what i think
• have fun, express gratitude
• top Judith
• go WWOOF farming this year...
• talk to Sophia about whether or not i can maintain this org
• journal
• stare out at the Pier 86 grain terminal
• sing
• accept i am what and who i am, an acceptance i've made strides in

Originally titled "What to do after survival," I have changed it to read "What to do during survival". Life doesn't have a magical starting point, it just keeps going and i'm allowed to enjoy that.

Learn to

• wrestle
• repair radios
• write
• code, more
• sew
• cook
• drive comfortably
• bike
• piano, guitar, music theory

Develop

• discipline
• courage

Return to

• the deliberate record keeping of previous revolutionary groups
• boating, boat maintenance
• motorbikes
• radio repair & broadcasting
• independent radio, web, and media movements
• yesterweb, again
• whales
• planes (especially woman pilots), boats, both especially military use
• military history (anti-war veterans particularly) & strategy
• weblogging and video blogging
• bdsm communities
• writing routines, study routines
• music making
• tailoring
• organizing my notes on Obedience to Authority (study anarchist lens + Foucault + neoliberalism)

• Cowboy Junkies
• Concrete Blonde
• Bruce Springsteen
• Depeche Mode