I want to avoid being sold things. I have many clothes and i want to figure out how i feel about them and wear them and use them up. Maybe i should go try some on now.

• Clothing purchases should be entirely intentional. How necessary is it? I will forgive myself by being swayed by some aesthetics, but it must be a convincing argument anyway. Does nothing in my closet look like it? Is the condition good, is the fabric enduring?

Accept my body as a helpful vessel

Being cool is usually an outside-in approach; if i get these clothes, this room, this visual appeal, i & my life will make sense.

Values are beautiful and i want a better view of what they are

Specific self destinations don't lead to success. For development, create new cond...

Wait until 24 to enter school (takes less money to afford school, but consistently fewer work opportunities)

Take out a loan to enter school at 22 (gonna be broker than broke, but might have potential for more employment. might.)

You've got to just list it out and pick. (Going to school for...? Earth sciences, oceanography, archaeology, humanities, social sciences, environmental restoration, archival/library science)

Living situation...

Live in truck/trailor/suv/van

Find many people to live in a house, split rent

Split rent in low-income housing apartments

Micro studio/studio

To improve my quality of life i believe i need to decenter the phone

• get a watch. hopefully a cloth strap won't suck. if it does, maybe double line it with a t-shirt fabric
• keep notepads on you again
• camera... i wonder if there is a thin, lightweight camera i could take? i think the phone is really the only thing that behaves as it does in that way. could also just jot down descriptions in notepad to tell people later
• have only one phone home page, put all essential apps on that and keep everything else in the back folders. delete social media apps the instant they're going unused
• use soundcloud, bandcamp, anything but spotify. dedicate more time to ripping your cds or listening to them at home. play jazz on vinyl again

ideas to search for: zines, books, writing, birding, hiking, walking, munches

• Craft night (tried writing group, not my vibe) https://www.instagram.com/seattledykeall...
• asylum, impact, massive, kremwerk
• bookstore events, like at elliott bay or charlie's queer books
• free lectures at uw
• silent reading and jazz and wine at asylum
• northwest film forum, siff, neptune, etc
• rctng
• leatherdyke munch at cc's
• bookclubs (everywhere, also specifically transfeminist book club)
• chess club at the brewing company on the ave
• silent reading, book clubs, writing groups at charlie's
• not free, but jiu jitsu. free: swords