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Hi, I'm Ams.
* Eighteen.
* Girl.
* Bisexual/Taken (Sarah<3).

I'm extremely blunt when it comes to talking about myself.
Listography gives me a sense of stability. A feeling of calmness, when everything else in my life is chaotic. I live for stuff like that.
I've started a new one for 2010 (and the majority of December 2009). I'll probably do this every year. I'm another one of those peop...

bookmarks:
listography GIVE MEMORIES
encre spiritual (vestments)
caitlin books (read in 2024)
Saku movies (2024 List of Movies and Shows)
favorites (My Top 5)

Ehm, a lot, I guess. This list is mainly so people stop asking. xD

  • ADHD Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder I can't pay attention to save my life. . I'm seriously like a puppy. I'm ridiculously hyper. I smile even when I'm depressed. Always.
  • EDNOS Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified - I exhibit symptoms of bulimia and anorexia, but also just plain binge-eating, and have a horrible sense of my own body. My self-esteem is not good, at all.
  • OCD Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - Without meds, I must walk in and out of doors and flip switches until it feels right. I am actually overly messy, but when I do clean, it must be SPOTLESS. Now, with meds, I still have to arrange things in a certain way and need to touch stuff in a certain way, and if it's not "right", I have to do it again. This usually goes unnoticed by others as it doesn't take me very long anymore.
  • Depression Clinical Depression - I'm always really sad, usually for no reason. I'm not always happy in extremely good situations. Whenever I'm very happy it doesn't last for very long. A few hours at most, and that happens maybe 3 times every year. I'm super, super sensitive.
  • Anxiety Anxiety Disorder - I'm always on edge. Worried about what's going to happen, or, worried about stuff that isn't even possible, like being watched when I'm in my room and the blinds are closed. I'm paranoid as hell.
  • ASTHMAAAA.
  • Insomnia - There's not much to say about that one. I just don't sleep, because I can't without meds.

Or maybe it's all my fault. I dunno, ask the ones that diagnosed me. Only self-diagnosed myself with EDNOS and OCD, but the OCD thing was obvious and I had a doctor diagnose me with EDNOS, just not formally. As in, it's not documented. Sarah says: "And I wouldn't call those self-diagnosis at all." I'm pretty sure these are all correct, though. Sure I could work on stuff and make it better but at the moment, that's really difficult. I'm working on it.

apr 21 2010 ∞
may 13 2010 +