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Hi, I'm Ams.
* Eighteen.
* Girl.
* Bisexual/Taken (Sarah<3).

I'm extremely blunt when it comes to talking about myself.
Listography gives me a sense of stability. A feeling of calmness, when everything else in my life is chaotic. I live for stuff like that.
I've started a new one for 2010 (and the majority of December 2009). I'll probably do this every year. I'm another one of those peop...

listography NEW JOURNAL
encre music (concert bucket list)
caitlin books (read (in 2023)
movies (first time, 2023)
Saku asia love (the new "official" drama/movie list)
  • Fine Arts
    • Photography
    • Singing
    • General music
  • Psychology
  • English
  • Film
  • Graphic design

I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life.

sep 2 2010 ∞
sep 2 2010 +
  • Drank 10 sodas in one sitting (and held it)
  • Gotten a tattoo just after my eighteenth birthday
  • Laughed so hard chocolate chips came out of my nose
  • Been in the newspaper
  • Met my favorite band (at the time)
  • Slept in a bathtub
  • Seen a dead body (my grandmother's)
  • Dyed my hair every color of the rainbow
    • And once, it was all at the same time, too
  • Ridden in a police car, while NOT in trouble.
mar 19 2010 ∞
mar 31 2010 +
  • Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
  • Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
  • Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
  • Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
  • Elsewhere by Gabrielle Zevin
  • The Giver by Lois Lowry
  • Twilight (ew ew ew, trying to figure out what people liked about it)
  • The Doll People by Ann Martin
mar 20 2010 ∞
jun 8 2010 +

This is going to be kind of blunt.


  • times I've full on broken a bone
  • times I've had chicken pox
  • times I've had lice


  • relationships I will have at any given time (that or none)
  • times I've fractured a bone
  • times I've attempted suicide
  • tattoos I have


  • people close to me I've had die
  • countries I've been to
  • psych wards I've been to
  • group homes I've been to


  • kids I want to have
feb 22 2010 ∞
mar 20 2010 +

Whether or not they make it on, my friends and I still seem to find them to be pretty funny. Well, some of them, at least.

  • A few weeks ago, I decided I wanted to be a high school English teacher. I thought it was because I liked English, but today, I realized that it's because I want to pull all the crazy stunts that the teachers on MLIA do. MLIA.
  • Yesterday, my mom's fiancee found a decapitated mouse in our dishwasher. We live in a condo, so we wondered how that could have happened. My mom then proceeded to show me and say, "He said it had a tail and fur and everything!" It was a cotton tampon. MLIA.
  • Today, I changed my Political Views on Facebook from 'Democrat' to 'Not Republican' to 'Not an Ignorant Prick'. MLIA.
  • A while ago, I told my best friend about how when I was in 8th grade I swallowed a...
feb 25 2010 ∞
may 10 2010 +

and how it affects me.

    • That's probably why I don't like it - it gives me a headache
    • But also, when I think things are too quiet, I can just turn on a light and it feels louder - works if I want more privacy, too
  • A is red
    • But it turns brownish when I'm mad
      • R is the same way
  • 3 is yellow
  • 4 is blue-green
jan 26 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +

As in lyrics, and I can hum to them too, etc.

  • Good Charlotte
  • Simple Plan
  • Table For One
  • MC Lars
  • Josh Groban (except the ones in Italian and Spanish, which I can still hum to)

Hmmm, that needs to be longer.

jan 26 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +

LISTOGRAPHY DELETED MY FREAKING LIST. You are SO lucky I wrote it down, piece of slkdfjskldfj. D:<

jan 21 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • "When you start to really know someone, all his physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in his energy, recognize the scent of his skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body, but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant." - Beautiful Lies by Lisa Unger
  • "If you can't be a good example, be a terrible warning." - Unknown
  • "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." ...
jan 19 2010 ∞
mar 23 2010 +

How they sound/How they're spelled (and why):

  • revolting [ri-vohl-ting] - disgusting; repulsive.
    • Well... gross things are gross? I like gore, but not if it repulses me. xD
  • chauvinistic [shoh-vuh-niz-uhm] - zealous and aggressive patriotism or blind enthusiasm for military glory.
    • AKA bigots.
  • twit [twĭt] - a foolishly annoying person.
    • They're annoying.
  • twat
    - vagina.
jan 19 2010 ∞
apr 9 2010 +
  • The smells of laundry left in the washer for too long and burnt popcorn
  • Modeling - "I can walk AND be skinny at the same time! OMG!" That's not a fucking talent, it's just a waste...of everything. Jeez.
  • KIDZ BOP /bullshitbullshitbullshit/
  • Twilight
  • Homophobia
  • Justin Bieber
  • Miley Cyrus
  • Sarah Palin
  • George Bush
  • Republicans in general - stop being so fucking ignorant
  • Most rap
  • ...vomit
  • Unattached hair (trichophobia)
dec 21 2009 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • raindrops on roses
  • whiskers on kittens
  • warm woolen mittens
  • brown paper packages tied up with strings
  • cream colored ponies
  • door bells and sleigh bells
  • wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
  • snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
  • silver white winters that melt into springs
  • PostSecret
  • Josh Groban!
  • video games
  • hugs
  • kind-hearted elderly people
  • cute&silly little kids
dec 14 2009 ∞
may 13 2010 +
  • cheesecake
  • olives
  • fish
    • except shrimp, cod (fish sticks), most sushi
  • plain cheerios
  • pancakes (too many in my lifetime)
  • avocado
  • mushrooms
  • pickles (I currently love them in my burgers and sandwiches)
apr 5 2010 ∞
aug 23 2010 +

I don't necessarily like the meanings or origins, but...


  • Bryan - High, Noble (English)
  • Caleb - Rage like a dog (Hebrew)
  • Connor - Wolf lover (Irish)
  • Finn/Finnegan - Fair (Irish)
  • Gabriel - God is my strength (Hebrew)
  • Gage - Measurer (English)
  • Gavin - White hawk (English)
  • Grayson - Some of the grey haired one (English)
  • Isaac - He will laugh (Hebrew)
  • Jacob/Jakoby Supplanter (Hebrew/American)
  • Jason - Healer (Greek)
  • Josh - God is salvation (Hebrew)
  • Madden - Little dog (Irish)
  • Noah - Rest, peace (Hebrew)
  • Peter - Rock (Greek)
  • Rowan - Rowan tree (English)
feb 11 2010 ∞
jun 27 2010 +
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---> MARCH 18th, 2010.


  • A rainbow - rainbow ANYTHING. I'm bisexual, and I LOVE rainbows. (: Put that with something to represent my battle with depression, and to me surviving regardless. (:
  • "God's love knows no bounds."
  • One of those stereotypical "Mom" tattoos with the heart and banner, but REALLY small. Maybe an inch wide.
  • A pink [breast cancer] ribbon in between my tatas <3
  • AMS, my initials.
  • A tiny Spongebob, on my right hip. I swear it.
  • Something Pisces related.
  • "I solemnly swear I am up to no good." in a banner, across my back (shoulderblades...
mar 1 2010 ∞
apr 6 2010 +

I love a lot of people. So much so that I've missed a bunch. I'll keep going. When I say I love you, I'm not bullshitting. I really mean it. Seriously. And even if I haven't talked to you in a while. It IS possible for your heart to be this big, even if they are different kids of love. <3

  • My mom
  • My aunt
  • My cousins
  • My grandma
  • Sarah (her family)
  • Rowan (his family)
  • Kerrigan (her family)
  • Andy
  • Dylan
  • Christina
  • Jackie
  • Sydney
  • Jason
apr 13 2010 ∞
apr 13 2010 +

So apparently I'm going to have to get married in June. Watch me think of something that'll make that impossible.

  • January 1st (people too drunk/tired from the night before)
  • January 20th (Inauguration day every 4 years)
  • February 14th (SO CHEESY)
  • February 29th (1 anniversary every 4 years)
  • March 13th (my birthday)
  • April 20th (Hitler's birthday, "the day to get stoned")
  • April 1st (I would feel like the marriage was a "prank")
  • May 1st (day I started a serious relationship with a boy in 8th grade - I still remember it, it was a long one, and I wouldn't wanna think of it every anniversary)
  • July 1st (mom's birthday)
  • July 4th (people would be gone)
jan 26 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus
    • 1/20/10
  • Paranoid by The Jonas Brothers
  • Paparazzi by Lady Gaga
  • I Want My Mullet Back by Billy Ray Cyrus
  • something by Justin Bieber; ANYTHING.
jan 21 2010 ∞
mar 12 2010 +

We usually have the same taste in music... until these start playing. P.S. I hate most/all of these "artists" otherwise.

  • The Climb - Miley Cyrus (fxckingwhore sounds like shit, but I like the lyrics)
  • You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
  • Crush - David Archuleta
  • Sweet Dreams - Beyonce
  • Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It) - Beyonce
  • Halo - Beyonce (Kerri likes this one, though. I'm pretty sure she likes Single Ladies too.)
  • Replay - Sean Kingston
  • Down - Jay Sean
  • Circus - Britney Spears
  • Toxic - Britney Spears
jan 19 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • My initials are AMS. People call me Ams. Or Amsyy.
  • I'll be eighteen on March 13 2010.
  • I'm a pansexual lesbian.
    • Basically what that means is, I like girls a whole lot, but if you're a nice enough boy I could fall in love with you anyway, somehow not holding it against you that you have a penis.
  • I love PostSecret. I can relate it to anything.
  • I was a vegetarian for over 3 years.
  • I love hugs. A LOT!
  • I'M A FREAKING WEIRDO. And I love it.
  • Everything I think about goes into these categories: [Things I should]
    • say out loud
    • keep to myself
    • make into a PostSecret
dec 18 2009 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • Josh Groban
  • Anderson Cooper
  • Kevin Bacon
    • I realized he looks like my step-asshole. That years-long attraction was obliterated in a matter of seconds.
  • Jonathan Rhys Meyers
  • Emily Perkins
  • Corbin Bleu
  • Mia Kirshner
  • Amy Lee
  • Katherine Moennig
  • Frank Iero
  • Sara Rue
jan 11 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +

Starting at the 9th doctor. Maybe someday I'll watch the really old ones, but considering their costumes included tinfoil... It's not likely. Anyway, NEW FAVORITE SHOW.

jun 22 2010 ∞
sep 13 2010 +

Some of these (fuck, shit) are because I'm too lazy to think of something to say that's more intelligent.

  • "FUCK."
  • "Shit."
  • "...Harry Potter..."
  • "Mmmmm."
  • "Damn it!"
    • "BLAST!" (like DAMN, but Stewie-fied)
  • "Ugh, I hate her/him/it."
  • "Douchebag."
  • "I can has _ ?"
  • "I love you." (I mean it!)
  • "Well, that's weird/creepy."
  • "Balls!"
  • "Please/Are you sure?/Thank you."
  • "WHOA WTF?"
  • "Hey you."
  • "I dun wanna!"
  • "... -thinks of and bursts into random so...
mar 31 2010 ∞
apr 29 2010 +

Basically my bookmarks (and links to my accounts), since I don't have my own computer anymore.

The majority of these are full of hilarity. My favorite! (:

dec 18 2009 ∞
sep 9 2010 +

Nearly EVERYONE knows that ONE SONG, but not the others. There are bands that have more than one famous song, but they're DEFINITELY not as well known as that ONE song.

  • Fountains of Wayne
    • Stacy's Mom
  • Yellowcard
    • Ocean Avenue
  • Smile Empty Soul
    • Bottom of a Bottle
  • Alien Ant Farm
    • Smooth Criminal
    • Movies
  • Adema
    • The Way You Like It
feb 19 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • High school English teacher
  • Photographer
  • Crime scene investigator
  • Video game designer
    • Graphic designer
  • Journalism
  • Actress / Voice actress
  • Foley artist
  • Masseuse
  • Editor
  • Architect / Interior designer
  • Sociologist
    • Psychologist
    • Neurologist
  • Singer
  • Comedian
  • Zoologist/Animal trainer
  • Ghost Hunter
  • Magicians Assistant
feb 9 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +

The way I look:

  • Frank Iero['s little sister]
  • Mara Wilson (Matilda - when I was younger)
  • Kaley Cuoco (as a brunette)
  • Christina Ricci
  • Alyson Hannigan
  • Lynsey Bartilson
  • Hayley Williams

The way I sing:

  • Amy Lee
  • Kelly Clarkson
jan 26 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • Flowers: Tulip, cherry blossom, gardenia.
  • Colours: Aquamarine, hot pink.
  • Noises: Purring cats, heartbeats.
  • Scents: A cold night. It DOES have a scent, especially if it's raining. <3 Cotton candy, vanilla, wet dirt...
  • Physical feelings: Hot tubs or baths on a super cold night, exercise [when my asthma isn't acting up], kisses, hugs, having my hair brushed, putting on clean clothes after taking a shower [and drying] (because you just feel so completely clean).
  • Instruments: Violin, piano.
  • Seasons: Autumn.
  • Weather: Stormy, except it always makes me think of homeless people and people getting hurt and I don't like it when the power goes out. D:
  • Teas: Peach iced tea, preferably Snapple.
dec 16 2009 ∞
mar 1 2010 +
  • Night Angel trilogy by Brent Weeks
  • Nightlight: A Parody by Harvard Lampoon
  • New Moan: The Twishite Saga - A Parody by Stephfordy Mayo
  • The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon
    • 1/21/10
  • Pride and Prejudice and Zombies by Seth Grahame-Smith
  • The Time Travelers Wife
  • Memoirs of a Geisha
  • The Lovely Bones (re-read)
jan 19 2010 ∞
mar 24 2010 +


  • ADHD (sometimes, a lot of time it's a pain)
  • alphabetical order
  • animals
  • anime
  • applesauce


  • babies (when they're not pooping or crying)
  • baking
  • birthday parties
  • boobs (heh, sorry)
  • books
  • breaking in already comfy new shoes
feb 18 2010 ∞
mar 23 2010 +

If it's not deteriorated.

  • Long deep-ish scar near my right eyebrow - dog bite when I was around 4
  • Smaller scar on the bottom of the right side of my face - bottom jaw from the dog bite
  • 6 inch long, 2 inch wide birthmark at the bend of my left arm
  • Scars on my left wrist...
  • Mole on the inside of my right thumb
  • Mole on the edge of my bottom left eyelid
  • Moles all over the place, but those are the most unusual
  • Small scar above my left thumb
    • Same size scar on the back of my left hand
    • Above the thumb scar is a small heart shaped scar
  • Abnormal almost circular scar on my left ...
jan 26 2010 ∞
mar 1 2010 +