Finally I've gotten used to this city and I'm ready to make the next few years into what I want them to be. This is an ongoing list of all of things I want to do & see before I leave to make the most of my time here...

• Matisyahu August 25th 2011
• Kayaking
• Vietnamese restaurant
• Betty's Soul Food
• South Beach
• Miami City Ballet
• Local Music
• Learn how to actually cook! Gruyer & cheddar grilled cheese
• South Beach Food & Wine Festival
• Aroma Espresso Bar
• Record Shop
• Find the museums
• Florida Keys
• Find all the cool, hole-in-the-wall eating joints

Spring brings on many new feelings and inspirations. Like I do every spring, I was thinking that maybe I should get a blog, but I always start it then it isn't real... So anyway, this year I decided I'll stay with Listography. Like I do every year...

• Pretty In Pink By Rachael Stone.

I have recently started reading her blog on a fairly regular basis. I'll be honest, I always thought of "Rachie Jane" as sort of silly, but she has some very real stuff...

Here's to the people who can keep blogs!

Black Swan... very oddly inspiring. It reminds me that I can do so much more.

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Because it's my senior year and I know my mom reads it (that way, I can tell her what I want without actually telling her... thats awkward.) I will post more as I think of them... just trying to help you out.

• A northface. black.
• Elbow length leather driving gloves
• Just Dance for wii
• single diamond Tiffany necklace
• Axxium manicure from Anthony Vince nail salon at crocker
• shopping day... or just money for shopping or something like that
• A giant diamond ring key chain
• plain black tights. and LOTS of other tights too.
• Coach Waverly coated canvas wristlet in brass & ivory multi OR the madison leather wristlet in brass & bone
• ELF giftcard or make up... it's cheap.

I have this really unhealthy love/obsession with Macaulay Culkin. Seriously. I tried to find all of the movies he's been in but I might be missing a few. I've marked the ones I've seen.

• Uncle Buck 1989
• Home Alone 1990
• My Girl 1991
• Home Alone 2 1992
• The Good Son 1993
• Getting Even With Dad 1994
• The Pagemaster 1994
• Richie rich 1994
• Party Monster 2003
• Saved! 2004
• Sex and Breakfast 2009

I've learned that everything happens for a reason. So many things in my life haven't been given to me, and then something better comes along that I achieve myself. I'm upset now, and it's not fair. And when I think about it, she gets everything she wants and I am nothing. But eventually she will be miss has-been and I will be miss now. High School will be her peak, mine will be the rest of my life.

Wind me up, be my friend, my life is good

• I know that I am very privileged.
• I have the ability to stop and look at the beauty around me
• I can appreciate life
• Dance. in all forms at all times.
• the people with me

So many things always happen at once... always. So here is a list of things I need to order on the internet. ASAP

• A new lanyard
• Matisyahu tickets
• Long Champs
• Text books
• A new phone
• Work clothes
• Coach holiday pave stud earrings

The INs and OUTs of "almost summer." In case you were wondering "almost summer" is a season. I just coined the term... So, here we are: The INs and OUTs of Almost Summer 2011

IN

• Working Out with prom, college, summer, bathing suit season, graduation, and so many other things approaching, I somehow have so much more time to work out.
• Journaling I don't know how I'm doing it. Maybe The Carrie Diaries inspired me, but I'm doing really well so far with actually keeping up with it.
• Being tan I know this was said in the last "INs and OUTs" but I got Jergens Natural Glow Express
• Moving on and changing I have been so resistant to change for so long (I haven't cut my hair in 5 years) but I am now embracing change. I'm going to get a hair cut, lose a little weight, ...

The INs and OUTs of late winter and early spring of 2011

IN

• Sex and the City. Maybe it's just me getting older and liking it more, but most definitely.
• Cosmopolitan magazine. Once again with the getting older thing, I can't get enough.
• Staying under the radar
• The sun
• Keeping it together
• Constantly manicured nails
• Getting some
• Feeling Fabulous. As if it were ever out of style...

OUT

• Sweats The flu or on your way to dance class are your only exceptions.
• Rain, snow, and all other weather that isn't at least 60 degrees

Lists are very soothing. I can't pinpoint it exactly, but maybe I'll figure it out...

• the organization of a list is nice. I think it helps me organize my thoughts and feelings.
• While I enjoy listing and find it to be a fairly classy activity, it is not difficult. I have to think a little, of course, but it really isn't hard at all.
• They look so good. Let's be honest, the world revolves around aesthetics.
• I can do other things while I make a list, even put the list away for a few minutes.
• As lame as this sounds, I forget about all of the confusing and buzzing thoughts. I seriously need that time to fill and keep myself busy, but also is calming.
• No one reads this... I can say what I want and who's going to care?

OOOHHHH, my life. How often do people have experiences like the ones I have? I am in school, studying, singing to myself... when all of a sudden, Gary Ricketts (an english teacher) walks into the room just I am belting "used to know a bitch named maggie mae, I would be up in those guts like everyday" and I look up. There he is, laughing and asks, "what are you singing?" obviously embarrassed I reply, "uuuhhh Ben Folds." With this he continues on to start a conversation about the song Bitches Ain't Shit. Now see, normally, I love a deep conversation about white man covers of west coast gangster rap, but this was so much different. The thing about Gary Ricketts is that, although he may be awkward, uncomfortable, a human dictionary? But in real life he is a very intelligent, cultured, and interesting man, I enjoy talking to him very much. I hope you understand how potentially wrong this entir...

Something about words is beautiful. Something about Shakespeare's words are the most beautiful. His work just inspires something in me and there is something about it that captures me. I can't help but to pick out the ones I love. here we go...

- "O! How full of briers is this working day world!"

• As You Like It

- "Villain, I have done thy mother."

• Titus Andronicus

- "A plague on both your houses!"

• Romeo and Juliet

- "In the secret parts of her fortune? O, most true; she is a strumpet. What's the news?"

I doubt this can be accomplished, but its a dream.

• French
• Spanish
• American Sign Language
• Dutch
• Mandarin Chinese
• Italian
• Arabic
• Norwegian
• Russian
• German

Now that I live on my own, things are ssoo different. Buying my own everything and making sure I get it done is a huge change. I never would have thought living on my own would be like this. But it is and I've learned that somethings are more important than others. So, the things I must have at all times.

• Frosted Miniwheats. Do not ask why. I don't think I've ever even had them until now.
• Frozen Waffles. I could live on those alone.
• Yoghurt! but none of the weird stuff.
• Carrots. Still, no idea why I'm obsessed now.
• Apple Sauce. Apparently I love that, too.
• Diet Coke... But we aren't surprised about that. at all.

note: Picture is irrelevant to the list, ...

The past few days have been spent traveling and vacationing, but it's a little hard to do when it's pouring and you can only take in so much sun... so, I've purchased ATON of paper products.

• The Van Alen Legacy by Melissa De La Cruz- I regret this purchase. Its not that good, but I thought I would like it.
• The Kaplan AP US Goverment and Politics study guide- Its necessary... I don't learn anything in class.
• A leather, soft bound journal- I want to start writing... I wish I were good.
• The Carrie Diaries by Candace Bushnell- I absolutely love it so far. Brilliant.

lets take a moment to discuss The Carrie Diaries. While less fabulous than I was expecting, still I was unable to put it down. Also, the fact that some things don't exactly match up with series bothers me. But I loved this deeper look into Carrie...

I have gained so much weight recently... Dear lord, it's pathetic. So, with a show coming up and college just around the corner, we're going to fix this.

• I have a gym membership... hello!
• no excuses.
• Weigh myself on the daily. every morning.
• actually pay attention to what goes into your mouth!
• absolutely no making things "okay," if I can't have it, I can't have it.
• carry around the calorie book and actually pay attention to it
• don't be stupid... le duh.

I know what I want to look and feel like, and this isn't it.

To keep myself sane for the next 18 weeks(15 now) I bring my Ipod and try to drown out the senseless drone of girls who want to be made of plastic. So until this hour and a half everyday for 15 more weeks is over and I can finally breathe easily knowing that the only shallowness in my life will be my bathtub, I write this list of which bands I would die to see live, and which ones I already have. thank you. For your information, I bowed while saying thank you.

• WHY?
• Matisyahu
• Yeah Yeah Yeahs
• The Bird and The Bee
• Tegan and Sara
• Portugal the Man
• Trevor Hall
• Muse
• Silversun Pickups

beauty. Anything Francesca Lia Block is pure beauty. So, here I am keeping track of the books I have read, written by her. This is a list in progress...

• Wood Nymph Seeks Centaur
• Necklace of kisses
• Pretty Dead
• Waters & the Wild
• Open Letter to Quiet Light
• How to (un)Cage a Girl
• Quakeland
• Blood Roses
• Psyche in a Dress
• Ruby
• Weetzie Bat
• Witch Baby
• Cherokee Bat and the Goat Guys
• Missing Angel Juan
• Baby Be-Bop
• Ecstasia
• Primavera

Why do I love to dance? The question crosses my mind more often than it should, and yet I seek an answer each time. It's as if I am unsure, but believe me, I am not unsure. I just... forget sometimes.

• It makes me feel good! There is not a better feeling than going through a dance and knowing all the steps and knowing you did well and looked good doing it!
• When I dance I all of sudden forget everything. It could be the worst day of all time and as soon as warm-ups start, instantly everything else just melts away.
• Dancing is the most beautiful form of art. In dancing you can pour your heart out and tell a story with just your body. You can express so much without words and perhaps it is more effective.
• Anyone can dance. Dance is something that one does when you can't tell someone how you're feeling. Even if you're not a dan...