HEY BITCHES. BITCH. heyy kathy. so sorry for forgetting to write a letter at the end of senior year, or at any point at all. it was probably because it was in-person school again and i was just so ecstatic to be able to talk to people again. senior year wasnt....suuuuper euphoric ofc, college apps, fafsa, a lot of crying. a lot of not knowing where to continue. i got bangs. gave myself bangs, they were ugly as hell with my helmet hair but i felt good. there is no kath without a fucked up cut u know. i dont wanna die anymore. lol! only took a couple many years to fix. i still feel guilt, not answering dms, getting mad at our mom, not drawing enough, the usual, just not as bad. they still haunt me, probably wont stop being a ghost for a very, very long time. i fucking hate it, i hate them. i try to hide it but inside everyone is ugly, right? being in the not-know is so much better than knowing they still give a fuck about me too. in middle school i read more happy than not by adam silvera, i didnt understand why the main character chose to do what he did, but i get it now. i so get it. i want to be able to do the same. ...its ok though i love college im thriving wahoo for gay people summer camp!!!! before that though, sexlapis is still thriving, i would not trade my supportive little nematodes for anything else in the entire world. i need my delusions supported....ok college. i met vonnie first. im honestly so lucky to have a roomate with so many of the same interests, when i saw that one tiktok with the girl who had roomates making omegaverse jokes i was like theres no damn way. there was a damn way lmaoooo. we fucked up and went to the second floor meet and greet instead of the first and met taylor. taylor so silly, feels like talking to myself in a mirror, we go on ymca runs to get him lunch sometimes. i dont think i can do those anymore next semester, sadge. we met chang together at a bonfire, we exchanged twitters instantly honestly i cant see myself doing that with anyone else ever looking back, insane move. i think id shrivel up and die if i dont get to talk to them every day. we met jessica next, because shes taylors roomate. we've been waiting all summer and we're so glad you're finally here!!!! drunk jessica the goat, normal jessica so silly. i dont remember if i met amisha or sofi first, but sofi approached taylor maidely and i while we were chalk drawing. i think we're the gnc parents now, yuyu in their retirement home arc. amisha i held the door for her, so cool girl, got me back into kpop, happy happy happy, roomates!!!! met lillian and ash again because of omegaverse. lol. capybra. gave me a penis. ash so cool binds books, knows guns and ships rap, un jimi roomate. sofi introduced us to maribel, the rizzler frrrr. so sweet, helps so many people, crochets cute bongs. and bleached my hair too?! i a really excited for photography and even sculpture im in my blue period arc! life is good. really happy. still love bunny rabbits. hope happy streak continues forever and ever. dyed my hair, nonbinary now, mullet heaven. slowlyyyy turning into a person i'd be happy being. hate and love my boobs though. no crush, still probably no crush also for a very, very long time. maybe bitchless forever, maybe download bumble. hate texting, so not a very good idea. its ok i live vicariously through my friends. do they get bitches? no. you're either one of my friends or you fuck, thanks for the enlightenment fynn. four years is short, im nervous. gotta be a TA, fuuuuck dont wanna have to be a TA. i love walking living in a walkable town best change in my life!!!!