It seems only yesterday I used to believe there was nothing under my skin but light. If you cut me I could shine. But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life, I skin my knees. I bleed.

This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself,

In the land of gods and monsters, I was an angel. Living in the garden of evil, Screwed up, scared, doing anything that I needed. Shining like a fiery beacon, [It's innocence lost. ]

When death and all his angels find you Will you call out When death and all his angels catch you Will you cry out

It's only love, it's only pain It's only fear that runs through my veins It's all the things you can't explain That make us human

Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I'll rise.

Just sayin, my music taste rocks so you should probably go youtube all these if you haven't heard of them.

• Breathe Me - Sia
• This Woman's Work - Greg Laswell
• Hawk Eyes - The Kicks
• We Don't Eat - James Vincent McMorrow
• Believe - The Bravery
• Cosmic Love - Florence + The Machine
• Only If For A Night - Florence + The Machine
• Pride - Manchester Orchestra
• Virgin - Manchester Orchestra
• White Blank Page - Mumford & Sons
• Hands All Over - Maroon 5
• Just Tonight - The Pretty Reckless
• Forever & Always (piano version) - Taylor Swift
• Get Some - Lykke Li
• Sail - AWOLNATION

• sing better
• play piano better
• be better at maths
• oops this is getting a little self-loathy
• not procrastinate
• find my art photograms that i have sadly lost and will impact my mark apparently
• fly
• be spiderman (i had a dream I was spiderman last night)
• date-orgy jensen ackles, jared padalecki and misha collins
• be best friens with jennifer lawrence
• ace my exams without studying
• save lives
• help people
• read minds
• watch spiderman, brave and snow white like NOW
• have all the time in the world

• everything
• but more specifically
• clothes
• shoes
• tuition
• a car
• movie tickets
• concerts
• other outings
• BIRTHDAY PRESENTS OMG
• christmas presents

• lmfao TODAY! Sang at Big Sing competitively for choir (which was nerve racking but felt very accomplished afterwards) as well as rezo choir where I had a solo in our rendition of 'Forget You' by Cee-lo (which was more fun and relaxed despite me having a solo...)
• One time in Year 6, I was in the school rock band (yeah I know, so cool Vicky) where I was usually the back up singer (I was the only girl...), but in this one song (smoke on the water), I was the main singer and had only heard this song for the first time the day before so I barely knew the lyrics. Performed it at our showcase thingy in front of a hall full of parents, teachers and students. Forgot the lyrics for an entire verse. Has haunted me ever since.
• In Year 7 I got cast as the main female role in our school play. The play was abou...

• African Safari (I know that's not a country...)
• America!!
• Brazil
• Cambodia
• England
• France!!
• Greece (if it ever bounces back from it's economic shitfest)
• India
• Italy
• Japan
• Monaco
• New Caledonia (omg after all the french topics about it, I might as well visit it someday...)
• Samoa
• South Korea
• Spain

things I've learnt from many rom-coms, friends, fanfics (ha) and from my two juvenile relationships that I now look back on and often want to punch myself in the face for.

• don't cheat
• don't be a gross facebook gosh-im-so-in-love-lets-make-5000-status-updates-a-day criminal
• speaking of facebook, maybe don't be embarrassingly flirty on each others pictures/walls because when you break up it's like an overwhelming load of smh-inducing shit
• make each other laugh
• try new things together
• don't be one of those stupid t(w)een couples that say they're dating and online they're annoying as fuck together but then irl they're too embarrassed to even stand in close proximity to each other and don...

• ASOIAF (game of thrones) book set http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Game-Thr...
• A country road bag (IDM what colour as long as it's not one with designs eg stripes or plaid or random beach shit goin on nty)
• a visual diary aka a4 spiral bound paper notebooks that i can use (i really need this bcs the one I have is running out of pages and it's what i use to study!)http://www.warehousestationery.co.nz/is-...
• shoes of any sort espesh ankle boots or shoes in that style (size 5-5.5)(prefer black)
• tbc

school work:

• personal response (due Friday)
• read play for speech & drama and write about it for PR
• physics test
• art 3 paintings and 2 compositions
• study physics, bio and maths because I have no idea what's been going on in class
• pe 1.4 interviews and exercises
• learn the three choir pieces note perfect
• choose song and prac for talent quest

other:

• watch modern family
• watch pretty little liars
• watch sherlock
• watch misfits

• fracture in my left wrist. obviously since I'm nerdy, I broke it on an extension science trip in Year 7. Was taking pH levels in a stream and slipped on a rock and fell on left hand. Scary experience where everything around me sounded muted for about 10 seconds after falling and I thought I was (literally)dying. Teachers brushed over it and said it wasn't a big deal and that I needed to man up. Went to hospital after school. Fractured wrist. Arrived at school the next day with an arm in a cast. SUCK THAT SCIENCE TEACHERS.
• sprained my left ankle after badminton one time while fucking around playing basketball with Joanna last year. Jumped for the ball - landed on my ankle and on the ground. Hurt like a motherfuckah. Joanna piggybacked me from the sports department all the way to the main gate where my mum was waiting for me to pick me up. Troope...

• The Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins
• Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
• The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
• Identical, Tricks, Perfect, (etc) all books by Ellen Hopkins
• Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
• Looking for Alaska - John Green
• Twilight Series - Stephenie Meyer

• paramore
• maroon 5
• manchester orchestra
• florence and the machine
• the bravery
• one direction (....)
• the pretty reckless
• muse

• lizzie mcguire
• cardcaptors
• hamtaro
• totally spies
• blues clues
• powerpuff girls
• winx club
• w.i.t.c.h.
• sabrina the teenage witch
• fairly odd parents
• hi5
• spongebob squarepants
• trollz

that was an interesting stroll down memory lane... gosh being a kid was fun

• facebook
• twitter
• youtube
• tumblr dash
• winchesterbrother tumblr
• hotmail
• school email (on a school day)

• Wreck this journal (book)!!!! (IF NO ONE GETS ME IT THIS YEAR I WILL BE SEVERELY DISAPPOINTED JSYK)
• Black (leather?)/white converse high tops
• a new phone (iphone 4s?)
• winter patterned knit thick cardigans/jumper (ask if you want to know what kind I mean)
• new colourful/cool earphones (really need new earphones btw)
• mascara
  • maybelline falsies?
  • covergirl lashblast?
• anything related to supernatural
• anything related to vampire diaries
• anything related to hunger games
  • a mockingjay pin
• dirty minds board game

• supernatural
• the vampire diaries
• revenge
• how I met your mother
• pretty little liars
• modern family
• big bang theory
• once upon a time

shows I want to watch fully:

• the oc
• skins gen 2 + 3
• game of thrones
• teen wolf
• grey's anatomy
• sherlock
• misfits
• nikita

• art
• biology
• business studies
• chemistry
• chinese
• drama
• english
• french
• futures
• maths
• music
• pe sports science
• physics
• piano
• pilates
• science
• singing
• soft, hard, food, computer technology
• speech and drama
• umpiring
• yoga

• all my family
• my closest friends
• jensen ackles
• misha collins
• jared padalecki
• idk is it sinful for me to bang celebrities in heaven? will they like, cast me down to hell for lustful thoughts or....? I MEAN, CMON ITS HEAVEN. IF I DON'T GET ME NO J2M ACTION UP THERE THEN I HAVE NO HOPE LEFT IN THE AFTERLIFE
• jennifer lawrence
• God

• daydream nation
• made of honour
• tomboy
• hick
• we need to talk about kevin
• the art of getting by
• extremely loud and incredibly close
• project x
• like crazy
• we bought a zoo

tbc