• you were online and you didn't reply
• the least you can do is to notify me you're not feeling that well to reply or a "reply you later" would be great too but maybe i taught you how to treat me
• i was absent for the first few days of texting before we met, i was facing personal issues and didn't talk
• !! i learned that it's selfish of me to not think about how my absence will affect others, make people insecure
• i didn't want to be too attached before we meet, now i'm trying to communicate with you
• i will be strong enough to let you go if that is your decision, i will respect it and let you find happiness
• you're someone who makes me want to become better, and i have always wanted to meet someone like you. even if it doesn't end in anything, i'm glad our paths have once crossed
• but it feels like home with him? i feel like i can be myself
• (wtf) honestly can't believe i'm having a problem of having to choose between 2 guys. well the other guy is absent so idk, why u hot & cold i don't understand, that was me too but hais when u didn't reply i felt so hurt

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• omg i got another hand to hold now
• ahhhHHHHhhHHHHHhh someone is being so thoughtful and honest with me
• don't wanna hurt anyone, i told him to give me a week to give a clear answer

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• if L comes back, who will you choose?

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• my life is freaking turning around, i can't believe i'm finding love and learning to love ha ha ha
• :( the day started bad though, soothing myself with food, after inviting a guy over, and being persuaded when i wanted to go for a fitness class to seize the opportunity (on hindsight, this is hilarious), i know hooking up will never be my thing
• so lust and love is really both very different things when R tells me about how in a serious relationship there'll b no sex involved
• trying to clean freshly pierced second earhole and how it reminded of my growth
• (*) closing a chapter and not dwell in the past

- things i wanna improve on:

• to make more friends!! who i can study with!! help mANZ
• general fitness, health and energy levels

- list to make:

• my happy loop :)
  • be align with my goals and values - fit, health, humble (you don't know it all),
  • inspired by positive people who i aspire to be - rowena tsai
  • to do things that makes me happy
    • checking my to-do list // - personal chores, personal hygiene, skincare routine, training for 21 k marathon, studying for my test, challenging myself with a new fitness class, looking cute in outfits, taking care of my body, being slim & healthy,

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• 2 november to-do list:
  • wash face first thing in the morning (9am)
  • organise my stuff - eventually i wanna buy more earrings and change them everyday?? and there's no vanity area and vanity space
  • run 5k (10.10am)
  • yoga sequence for flow, mindfulness and less backaches
  • study for chap 4-8! (gonna camp in school library wheeee) 12-6pm
  • HIIT-BOX 7.30pm
  • lab 5 assignment