- it's been long since i held someone's hand HAHAHAHAHAH
- it's sneaky lor taking the chance to hold hand cause of the fear factor but whatever i'm not complaining
- i just feel that he's so cute and endearing especially his smile!! anddd the way he strings his words
- my overthinking ass just don't think it will work. he's on another level compared to me. he got his career figured while i don't. he's well-travelled while i don't.
- my incapability to talk
- !! he mentioned that it's not negative stuff, being worried
- well, thank u for spending time with me and caring about me when u got so many things on ur hands!! haha
oct 6 2018 ∞
oct 6 2018 +
- ahh somehow i'm so afraid i'm wasting your time
- when the first sniff of your scent felt so familiar and safe
- i felt slightly more awkward today
- due to the lack of distractions (noise, people, scares)
- just both of us
- the silence grew louder
- today, i felt that i was wasting your time
- and we might never meet again
- but you said "there will always be next time"
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- how i can't carry a conversation
- how a beautiful shell without nothing inside
oct 10 2018 ∞
oct 10 2018 +
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- i ruined the day by eating mindlessly
- not reminding myself of my goals and what will give me long-term happiness
- to lose excess weight and get in shape
- to feel good and look good in what i want to wear
- it starts with a good diet
- a consistent exercise routine
- getting 7 hours of sleep each night. wake at 6, sleep at 11
oct 6 2018 ∞
oct 7 2018 +
- i'm so thankful he asked me about my values
- i have learned and came to value curiosity
- when i look into the mirror, when i see my scalp, i'm starting to feel that health is really important to me. to nourish my body, feed my body the right thing, stop giving toxins to my body, (because it hurts to see it degrading this way), start to take care of my body, physical health, mental health seriously
- listening to intentional living on my bus ride home and i'm starting to feel that faith is a magical potion and has amazing power to change things :)
oct 8 2018 ∞
oct 8 2018 +
what i learned
- begin again every day
- managing my emotions
- frustrations when my dad points things i'm doing not as well - not being organised with opening up the ocbc letters and how my mum is nagging me to be more organised - i did clear up my clutter afterwards and keep my clothes into my wardrobe
- negative emotions
- feeling sad about myself, feeling ugly, feeling insecure and that nothing will change, feeling hard to trust myself
- when people don't reply, i'm so insecure, but that's because i haven't build a solid foundation for myself yet
- how can i build a strong home for myself? do things you like - being creative/crafty, focus on your strengths, learn learn ...
oct 9 2018 ∞
oct 9 2018 +
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- you were online and you didn't reply
- the least you can do is to notify me you're not feeling that well to reply or a "reply you later" would be great too but maybe i taught you how to treat me
- i was absent for the first few days of texting before we met, i was facing personal issues and didn't talk
- !! i learned that it's selfish of me to not think about how my absence will affect others, make people insecure
- i didn't want to be too attached before we meet, now i'm trying to communicate with you
- i will be strong enough to let you go if that is your decision, i will respect it and let you find happiness
- you're someone who makes me want to become better, and i have always wanted to meet someone like you. even if it doesn't end in anything, i'm glad our paths have on...
nov 1 2018 ∞
nov 1 2018 +
- i wanted to fast track my change
- but my bad habit is still here
- it seems like nothing works, but am i even trying?
- am i even willing?
- there are consequences to what i do
- and i have to fear what's to come if i continue doing this, and that should be enough to scare me
- i will be alone
- i will achieve nothing
- if i let overeating takes my life
oct 9 2018 ∞
oct 9 2018 +
oct 1 2018 ∞
oct 1 2018 +
- values: simplicity (minimalism - room, food - nutrition (protein + veggie + fruits)), happiness=health (for optimal health, nutrition, exercise and sleep is the holy trinity), curiosity (never stop learning :-) and having a childlike wonder to find out more - whether it be trying out new games/new classes/at work- science concepts idk), love (to be selfless and think of others), diligence (to go the extra mile, be over prepared, do more than needed because you can), courage , enthusiasm **
- priority: sleep, skincare, nutrition
- to learn: film photography course --- what can i do? to develop my films at triple d studio and search for what manual film camera to buy
- fitness: strength training routine using dumbbells, try one class pass lesson on friday!!
- 5 min worry rule / 20 min grieving rule
- blog: cooking baking - whole wheat yogurt scones morning skincare routine
aug 24 2018 ∞
oct 1 2018 +
- lesson 1
- check engine oil once every week
- check tyre before driving, note the arrow - if tyre puncture, release the screw first then put
- hand over hand - turning steering wheel
apr 10 2018 ∞
apr 10 2018 +
sep 10 2018 ∞
oct 1 2018 +
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