Danny —✿— letterboxd walloftext goodreads

• sixteen years old
• mid-exam season
• walking gender crisis

• neil cicierega
• jerma
• trevor henderson
• don't hug me i'm scared
• the adventure zone monologues
• wilbur soot
• nephrosoupp
• splatbones / mild sandpaper
• inside by bo burnham

　　— places i'd like to go

• la jolla, california
• colmar, france
• helsinki, finland
• tokyo, japan

it's hard to not feel like i'm wasting all the best years of my life, y'know? best is subjective i guess but it's like i've been fed this lie that being sixteen will be the best thing ever or something and now i just feel scammed. i don't know. i'm missing out on things and i don't know what they are.

if i could have one wish from a genie it would be to like?? travel back in time or something but keep all of my knowledge. i'd do anything to be 12 again but know what it's like. i didn't get the childhood friends everyone else seemed to have at that age, i didn't have this beautiful coming of age tale. it's hard to not be jealous of people who have those stories to tell. there's so many people i wish i could've known when i was younger.

i don't know, man. mental health and being in the closet and everything has just robbed me of those experiences and it take...

• forgive me, leonard peacock by matthew quick

• Adela
• Angel
• Anya
• Catriona
• Christabel
• Edine
• Elspeth
• Evelyn
• Iona
• Isobel / Ishbel
• Janet
• Jubilee
• Laurie
• Lisa
• Lydia
• Malmuira
• Nana
• Ruth
• Sally
• Sylvia
• Tiffany

• slipping through my fingers, abba
• hammond, the roches
• cellophane, fka twigs
• fireworks, mitski
• la jolla, wilbur
• memory (reprise), cats the musical
• breakfast over sugar, in trousers
• love love love, the mountain goats
• sign of the times, harry styles (UNFORTUNATE)
• budapest, george ezra
• skinny love, bon iver

tw: suicide

it seems to be getting more and more frustrating with each passing day. i don't even know! it feels like i've had at least 50 exams for each subject (which at this point may as well be true) and it's a bit more frustrating knowing that i'm pretty much set up for failure (thank you british education system for your classism, you never cease) especially knowing i've had a total of 4 months of teaching for the entire year. being set up from an early age to be this A-grade student who would certainly pass everything with flying colours has fallen in on itself embarrassingly for everyone involved, i think.

not sure i've ever seen such a miserable procession the way i see my classmates walk home every day. it really is a mental health crisis. i think just about every last one of us is tempted to throw ourselves in front of the cars driving past (it'...

• Achaius
• Dean
• Hadley
• Henry
• Lachlan
• Travis

• swordfish
  • easily the coolest animal. idk where i'd want it but they look cool. kind of like an an anatomical sketch from a science book maybe??