• my loneliness is palpable
• I outta cigarettes and I spent my last £10 in the whole world on wine last night when I didn't even want to be out.
• I am in a strange strange mood.
• I can't put my finger on what it is that I miss, but whatever it is it's tangible and I miss it badly.
• My wanton consumerism actually makes me crazy. Even I know I'm just filling my life full of stuff so I don't have to think about it.

The only thing that has made me laugh today is davy coming out of his room to ask me what the fuck I'm listening to, and that it's pretty fucking dire.