getting right to the point: MY GF SURPRISED ME (AND MY WIFE) WITH A PIANO KEYBOARD?!??!?@%?@#ASDGSDFGGJKL;

it has SEVEN OCTAVES of WEIGHTED KEYS! a PRETTY REALISTIC PIANO SOUND!! a sustain pedal!!! and can be used with MIDI !!!!!!!!!! god it's all i've ever wanted since i first started to care about music, and it doesn't sound like much to ask for, but these things can get expensive VERY easily.

when i was 13, i saved up all of my birthday money to buy a piano with weighted keys that was on sale at Guitar Center, but by the time i was able to go back they were totally sold out of the one i wanted... so i settled for something decent . it was about $80, 6 octaves, keys were not weighted, but it had those "learn to play" tutorial things for iconic piano pieces and had a bajillion different sound - it was good enough to start with. i needed it mostly to practice music for choir...

i am so tired of pretending to be somebody.

i mean it in the way of online performances. i feel bad for updating my website without re-configuring my gallery or re-writing my cds page that i know are both a mess. i feel obligated to post art of my current fursona cuz everyone really liked that design, and also it's me so why dont i draw it more often??? i don't know, i keep doing other shit. lately i've been playing through naruto ultimate ninja 2. it's awesome and i'm having a great time! a much better time than i'm having online right now.

i've been in a habit of scrolling through tumblr for about an hour every morning, which is usually how long it takes to read through a day's worth of posts on my dashboard. i like to see funny cat pictures and keep up with the times, but more often than not i come across something that's just begging for me to stick my nose in someone else'...

long striped sleeves in late July of

black-and-white, black-and-white,

the left side gets rolled up to write.

it passes over right, smudging anew

each letter wrought between lines blue,

pages of ink soaking into you.

still, i forget as much as my skin will

always remember you

im soooo so sleepy...im listening to some relaxing music in preparation for falljng asleep, and brushing my teeth and doing everything right, so pleeease please let me sleep all through the night, because i did not sleep well last night and my day has been absolutely miserable TT_TT

i used to sleep so soundly it was impossible to wake me up. my alarm clock would blare for about three minutes before i finally was able to open my eyes and move. i had the most vivid dreams, lots of flying but not with wings, just my body. once i had a nightmare i switched bodies with my cat and she took over my life and made everyone hate me. i dont think ive had that strange of a dream ever since. my sleep was never the same after i got an ipod touch - yay, a device that blares light directly into my eyes and makes it possible for me to stay up until 2am! well, i was writing gay shit in the notes app. it ...

hi i love it when websites feel like a house!!! i like the feeling here, as if you walk onto my porch and see my random lists taped up to the front door. i just decided to post my list of favorite words - i had a longer list a few years ago on a different phone that died on me, but i started this one the last time i got to trip on shrooms. i was stuck in the car on the way to another hiking trail when they started to kick in. i just started writing down words in the notes app, words that are vivid, evocative, percussive, words which feel golden to say. i particularly despise the term "mouth-feel" but i guess it's applicable here. there was a really good song on the radio i noted down too: "Dusty Springfield has a surprising and refreshing voice. a rather androgynous tone that carries the full weight of belting out. the name makes me think of the 1920s Great Depression dust storms, and i ex...