1 january

welcome 2019 i'm not excited for you - going back to school (it's my last year hopefully) - feeling really pretty and confident - gaming with dad is fun - anxious - i love cuddling with my cats - chocolate crepes while watching modern family with mom is our new tradition - falling asleep on a uber: check! - wow i love horror movies - art inspires and gets me too excited - draw project - why does wearing new outfits makes me feel so confident? - i'm such a hoe for compliments - realising how much i love skam - watching escape room with my parents - opinions and art improvements - i hate cramps - sleepover at marcia's house with vasco and pedro!! - will i ever not feel insecure and anxious on a pe class? - i hate anxiety - getting into pretty much - art classes make me feel tired and nervous - i think i'm starting to get sick.

2 february

my month! - i love taking naps - trying kfc with my parents - on my block is my new fav show and i wanna protect my babies forever pls - kinda hating my body lately but i'm trying to not freak out about it - feeling like shit - all i do is watch youtube videos - playing monopolio with my parents - i'm 19 (not excited to keep getting older but oh well) - will i ever stop taking so many pics just to keep them on my phone because i'm too anxious to post them on instagram? stay tuned! - karts with dad - it's hoseok's birthday and i hope he's happy - lectures about the future and universities - sharing series and songs with marcia and doing "try not to laugh/finish the lyrics" challenges - making new healthy plans for myself - working out a lot - kinda obsessed with cc shopping for sims 4 - dyeing my hair red again!! - argila masks are fun - really trying my best but sometimes it's exhausting - unhealthy lunchs with marcia - spending the day at the park and laughing a lot - feeling a bit self-conscious but i'll be okay.

3 march

starting the month stressed thinking about the exams - discovering new songs is my new hobby - finally watching black panther! - i love kebab - but i need to start taking care of my body better - editing pictures - keeping my room clean - my mom really knows how to annoy me easily - procastinating - 3 days of vacation is nothing but i'll take it - family time - pancakes with ice cream doesn't taste that good - but chinese food has my heart - enjoying the small moments - on my block season two!! - thinking a lot about my future - family trips - i just want clear skin again ugh - and to feel good with my body - i love yoongi so much i hope he got lots of kisses and hugs - tired of feeling anxious and stressed about school and life in general this SUCKS - my skin is slowly getting better - reuniting with my 9 grade class - pizzas, laughs and talking about the old times - i really love moms cookies - seeing shawn for the third time with marcia - we're always so lucky with our seats - he came out of nowhere wearing a ronaldo jersey!! - "every time i start the euro tour i'm always thinking about the day i get to play for you guys" - i love shawn so much i could watch him perform over and over again forever :( we don't deserve him - late night rides + kfc with my parents and marcia - school trips.

4 april

kinda stressing with school work and my grades - sleep? what's that? - crying while finishing my art projects bc i was too stressed and should've done them sooner but decided to procastinate instead - finally on vacation for 2 weeks - trying to keep my room clean - chinese food and kfc - i really need to stop going to bed at 4am - BTS COMEBACK!! home is definitely my jam - jamais vu makes me feel soft i just wanna hug my babies :( the whole album is so good bts truly never disappoints - finally getting out of the house and went riding bikes with my parents in the city park - the sky looked so pretty and pink - laughing and crying while watching instant family - i think im starting to fall in love with txt - cat & dog is so cute i wanna keep each member inside my pocket forever.

5 may

bts at bbma - they finally met tori kelly!! they looked so happy i expect a collab soon - their first live performance with halsey and they KILLED IT - THEY WON TOP GROUP OF THE YEAR!!!! my babies did that - speak yourself tour started - new effects on their solos and jungkook fucking flying over the audience - i love bts so much they make my life so much better :( my mf babies - riding bikes around the city's park is now part of my family's routine - sleepover at marca's with pedro, vasco and isa - 3am talks at the park, stupid challenges and random movies until everyone ended up falling asleep at 7am - i kinda love my friends - finally adopted txt they're all my sons now - i really wanna see bts live :(( - too many school works - at least classes are almost ending - but i have my final exams next month and i'm: scared - bts tweeting and speakig in portuguese!! - recolored my hair red - finishing a lot of works - i'm so stressed - i just really really love jungkook and bts i'd die for them.

6 june

happy pride month!! - still sad about the fact that i won't see bts this year :( hopefully i'll see my babies soon - thinking a lot about my exams - i'm so done with school - and having to interact with my classmates - i finally have a dress for the wedding - feeling a lot better about myself lately - i love getting compliments - this night by seokjin!!! - finally graduated from high school - thinking a lot about my life - i need a job - going to algarve with my family - dream glow!! by bts ft charli xcx - my uncle's wedding was so beautiful and i'm in love with my dress - i still don't want to marry anytime soon - i love jungkook so much - a lot of au's - my exams are close - festas populares with mom - feeling really confident lately - #6yearswithbts i love my babies so much!!! - studying a lot - i'm so anxious lately i just want to be over with exams - portuguese exam - naps and overthinking - i've been playing a lot of sims 4 - watching bound and falling in L word with corky - life is unfair sometimes - i just want my aunt to get better - draw exam - i really need to get a job - geometry exam - bts world finally came out!! - also a new bts movie - sleeping too much - i don't have motivation to do anything lately and it sucks - a lot of now united videos - i just want to feel better again.

7 july

starting the month with good news day6 are coming to portugal!! - i'm so happy i miss going to concerts - stressing over my grades again - my eye bags are so bad i realy need to fix my sleeping schedule - sleepover with marcia!! - random talks with her and vasco at the park at night until 4am - lots of food and laziness - starting siren and obsessing over it for the rest of the day with marcia - my sleeping schedule is getting better - got good grades in my exams - but i'm gonna repeat one of them to upgrade my grade - running with my parents at night is kinda fun - i hate my school - and i hate cramps - feeling motivated again - starting to finally get my shit together - made some decisions about my life - feels good to be certain about something for once - i'm officially done with high school finally.

8 august

i really need to start doing something with my life - i'm not ready for the adult life - wish i could be 16 again - finished the act with my mom and it was so good - started chernobyl finally - i really need to fix my sleeping schedule again - feels like everyone is enjoying their summer to the fullest while i'm just sitting alone at home doing nothing - deadly class is my new favorite tv show it's just so good - i really just want to travel around the world and go to concerts - moody - staying home all day - finally posting on ig again - i love pretty sunsets - a lot of fanfics - going to the beach with my parents a lot - loving my body and being confortable with it feels nice - feeling myself a lot lately - i'm gonna miss summer.

9 september

jungkook's hair is getting so long i wanna pet him :( - marcia's birthday finally!!! - i did both of our makeup, we ate good, i showed the video i made for her, she almost cried <3 and we danced the night away - also i looked good af i really did THAT - a lot of random movies - long car trips and discovering new places with my parents - started t@agged again - stressing over college - and life in general - bad momemnts - growing up sucks i wanna be 16 again - drawing again - kinda into tiktok now - really bad news - i'm gonna miss my aunt so much but she's in a better place now - lots of crying and meeting a lot of people from the family - i'm so tired i just want to sleep for a whole week - stressed - a lof of youtube videos about college and life advices - i'm done with this month.

10 octber

it's jimtober bitches!! - getting excited for halloween - thinking about the future is stressing me out - got 3 new kittens and i'm in love honestly - i think i'm becoming more of a cat person - a lot of youtube - hobi's new song "chicken noodle soup" with becky g!!! - lunch with marcia - we went thrift shopping for the first time and it was great - really need to buy more clothes - a lot of movies - i used to hate tiktok but now i'm addicted help - feeling good about my face - went to a tourism fair with marcia and it was stressing but gave us a lot of opportunities - mom really takes the best pictures - but i wanna feel confident in my clothes again - chinese food with my family - posting on ig makes me too anxious - started euphoria finally and now i get the hype - i wish i didn't give a fuck like maddy - getting into kpop again i missed bts :( - cutting my hair really short and kinda regretting it later - but now i like it - everything is calm again - my grandmas house has the best view for sunsets and they're always so beautiful - love yourself era is officially over and i never got the chance to experince it :( but i love my babies and i couldn't be more proud - i miss the feeling of going to a concert - i love halloween - isa's bday party!! - i wish i wasn't so shy and awkward in social situations - it was kinda of a strange night but i looked good af and we had a lot of fun - really don't know what i would do without marcia - i hope better days come.

11 november

let's see how this goes - can't believe it's almost christmas - a lot of cats and cuddles - playlists - went to the movies with my parents to see doctor sleep - my hair is so short - feeling cute - wish my cats would stop trying to ruin my face <3 but i love them - discovering new and good songs is one of the best feelings ever - i really want a job - feeling nostalgic - i miss going out with a big group of friends that i'm actually confortable with - anxiety sucks - harry styles is finally coming here i might say fuck it and go see him - nothing new just chilling and feeling like a burden - i love wtfock - i need to get out of house more times this is not healthy.

12 december

not even excited for christmas nor new year but let's get it - i just want a job honestly - kinda missed stan twitter but only because of my kpop boys/girls - a lot of memes - seeing day6 with bia next year!!!! - i love jungkook so much the only boy ever - thinking a lot about how i'm almost turning 20 - i feel old - getting into ateez finally - <san3 - just a lot of overthinking and kpop songs - i miss being with my friends - bangtxteez have my whole heart - i just want money so i can be able to see all my groups :( - too anxious - i love my cats - and jin and soobin too hope they got lot of kisses on their bdays - tired of feeling like a burden - i need to be more productive - but i'm trying my best - same old days - fireworks at the beach with my parents - happy new year!