1 january

welcome 2020 let's see what you got for me - starting the year with bts performing in front of 1 million people we going world domination - i miss going to concerts - head full of answer mv ateez are SO talented - why am i so awkward - lots of movies - shadow left me speechless - my sleep schedule is so fucked up - finally saw day6 and it was one of the best nights of my life!!! - they looked really happy and kept reminding us to stay healthy ): best boys i think - definitely one of my favorite concerts so far - finally bought new clothes - bts cb coming soon - i'm really hoping this will be a better year for me - feeling kinda empty and sad - i love going to concerts - trying my best but sometimes it's exhausting.

2 february

i'ts my month - not really that excited to turn 20 - EGO!!! the most hobi song ever i love it so much - so proud of ateez and everything they've accomplished so far - someone take tiktok away from me - bts never disappoint i love stanning talent - i just wanna do things on my own time and not because everyone else is doing/already done it - why is she marrying jungkook's on bridge?? - i don't think i've ever been this emo over an album - kinda obsessed with adorable home - loona really did THAT - i love my kpop boys/girls they make me the happiest <3

3 march

finally have my computer back - nothing really changed - i miss my friends - staying home a lot because of the virus - we still know how to have fun tho - mom's bday!!! - we had a mini picnic since it was such a nice day - i'm gonna miss having my mom home with me all day ): - lots of movies and random talks - i need to stop distancing myself from the people i like - also fix my sleeping schedule - a lot of movies and food.

4 april

quarantine has been treating me well so far - i'm just more bored than usual - but a lot calmer and relaxed - working out with mom - need new tv shows - omegle - i really want cute clothes ): - mcdonald's with mom - feeling like myself again - i love being in my room - cake and playing sims4 again - i missed marcia's voice - i can't belive she almost cried because she misses hanging out with me - organizing my spotify playlist - lying in bed reading fics - i really want a nintendo switch - mcdonald's with my parents - tried to download sims 2 for free and now i'm addicted - eating a lot - working out alone - i was craving chocolate so dad bought me snacks - i love making lists - just a lot of movies and food.

5 may

i miss being with my friends - everything feels so surreal - iu ft. suga!!!!! - i've been cooking a lot with my dad - sims4 - i really wanna buy more books - and probably try to finish the ones i already own - anxious - same routine everyday - but at the same time i kinda like it - fanfics - writing again - enjoying more and more staying home alone - mini picnic with my parents - we cycled all afternoon - i'm so excited for paralives - tiktok - marcia always makes me feel better - eating pineapple again - feeling motivated to learn new languages - mcdonald's with mom - it's getting so hot lately - i hate it - pizza and horror movies - facetime with marcia while we're both shaving our legs at 2am - a good night in general - went to the beach with my dad and marcia - #blacklivesmatter - everything is a mess rn but at least we're all coming together to make a change.

6 june

hope this month will be better - improving my spanish - going on tumblr again - finally watching outer banks - still with you - jungkook the only boy ever <3 - cramps - mcdonald's with mom because i was feeling like shit - craving sugar a little too much - green tea facemaks - paiting a lot more - i forgot how relaxing it is to draw - eating cake with dad - i really need to fix my sleeping schedule - going out with mom - falling in love with art again - sleepy - grandma's birthday lunch - feeling insecure about a lot of things - decorating my desk - i feel sooo dumb sometimes lol - i need to start being more productive - decluttering my wardrobe - beach with my parents - confident - i need to learn how to keep some things to myself - finished outer banks i want season 2 already - work out - getting rid of stuff - in a really good mood - junkfood - things are going well so far.

7 july

someone take tiktok away from me - catching up with my kpop groups - txt are so damn talented - makeup looks - feeling pretty and confident - bts <3 - beach with my parents - my skin is getting better i love that for me - watched skate kitchen and now i want a skate ): - my hair is short again - beach with marcia, isa, vasco and pedro - a lot of compliments - manifesting with marcia - fortnite - movies and craving too much snacks - working out while blasting kpop on the tv - sushi - anxiety strikes again - cleaning grandma's house - sleepy - so much more happy and confident with my skin - junkfood - ateez will never release a bad song <3

8 august

i really need to fix my sleeping schedule - rewatching tvd - stressing over the future - everything will work out hopefully - sleepover at marcia's - things got emotional but it made me feel so much better - i really needed to talk to someone - making plans for the future - i love my bff she's the best :( - omegle with cute guys and some creepy ones - a lot of junkfood - beach with my parents - taking care of school stuff - i missed going out alone - even tho it makes me extremely anxious - feeling confident about my body - going shopping with dad - well shit - chinese food and facetime with vasco and marcia - LIGHT IT UP LIKE DYNAMITE!!!!!!!!! LETS GO - bts make me so happy i love them so much - i missed stan twt - stressed again :D - i'm just trying to do my best - making carrd's is so entertaining.

9 september

my skin is going crazyy she's mad i guess - it's jungkook's birthday <3 - i love my little one so much i'd do anything for him - DYNAMITE #1 ON HOT100!!!!! - soso proud of bts they're so deserving of all the success and love they get - a lot of junkfood and horror movies - i need to get my shit together - feeling very anxious but that's okay, it'll pass - my sleeping schedule is so fucked up lol - chinese food with marcia and vasco - hot af but we still walked around the city - old disney songs and omegle - i feel so drained wtf - twt layouts - everything's the same - i need to change.

10 october

bts are the only thing keeping me sane right now - i love my boys so much - anyway it's jimtober lets go!! - i forgot abt this ups - nothing changed i'm still depressed - bts online concert - MY TIME CHOREO!!!!!! - bts are fucking amazing no one is doing it like them - junkfood and tv shows - bts savage love remix - studying again (or trying to) - among us got me too addicted - loona cb and heechuu day - literally nothing new - same routine - halloween sucked i miss my friends - i want covid gone.

11 november

i need to stop isolating myself - feeling unmotivated again - trying to study harder - food and tv shows with mom - why do i even exist? - back to being sad and feeling like a disappointment - watching a lot of tvd - i want a stefan - and a damon would be nice too - sushi night with my parents - trying to change my life - everything is kinda chaotic rn - take among us away from me pls - trying to find motivation to study - i need to stop sleeping so much - depressed - a lot of bad thoughts - junkfood - bts never fails to amaze me with their comebacks :( i love them so much.

12 december

starting the month with cramps i hate it here - chinese food with my family - still feeling unmotivated - i got so attached to tvd :( even tho it makes me cry almost every episode - self care day - i rly wanna be a model but i have so many insecurities - honestly i just wanna wear pretty clothes and travel - fake it 'till you make it i guess - i wanna move out so bad - mood swings - slowly feeling like myself again - new music - finally fixed my phone camera - new clothes - a lot of changes at home - sushi and movies - it's christmas!! - family time and delicious food - gave and got such good presents i'm happy - redoing my room - kinda of a weird night and year in general but i survived it so happy new year!