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walking on my way home, I am lost and devastated. I cursed the universe! I looked up at the moon, and asked the goddess Selene to save me from my troubles. I can't remember the last time I prayed to anyone or anything.
gemini represents the two sides of the same person. this zodiac have six stones: agate, chrysoprase, citrin, pearl, white sapphire & the moonstone. It was believed that the moonstone was formed from the light of the moon.
2:30 am, the stars says hello. the twinkle is so visible, I wish the light would reach me and erase all my troubles. someday I will be able to say that I made the right choice but for now this pain is almost unbearable. I am shaking, I feel so cold.
the sun is already awake. my only companion is the chirping of the bird in this room full of thoughts. I've been wondering how can people subject themselves in an endless torment of showing their soul to someone, creating memories that will end up meaningless in the end? a friend said it's about looking for that certain connection and hoping it will last. And I thought, I could always get the same connection from my beloved friends, my passion, perhaps with nature? [i realized i never deeply and truly felt a connection with anyone or anything]
I've been thinking a lot about a line from atwood's poem: "what are you supposed to do with all this loss?" paused. my world stopped for a second. is it possible? perhaps i imagined it. im feeling so much but i never been good with words. im talking less and less, poets have become my friends, or something more intimate.
Do you ever stop to admire and thank the trees? Do you ever appreciate the silence and tenderness of the night? To be still, still and still.