i’d like to be my old self again but i’m still trying to find it

• call me Reku
• he/they, pan
• metro manila, philippines
• ENG / 日 / FIL ok
• true neutral
• infp-t, 9w1, phlegmatic
• FUB free

• shintaro kisaragi (ID), kagerou project
  • “I can stand not eating or sleeping, but I absolutely would not be able to live without my computer.”
  • “The smile of you, who flew through this window and died; I won't ever forget it. Not even tomorrow.”
• hajime hinata, danganronpa
  • “My whole life... I've just wanted to feel confident about myself... And I thought getting into Hope's Peak Academy meant I had finally become someone I could be proud of... Not... some fucking backup student... !”
  • “Once you’re suspicious of something, you’ll start to be suspicious of everything... Even of yourself. That’s why it felt so hopeless.”
• shin tsukimi, your turn to die

at the end of everything, hold on to anything.

• shōnen animanga
• jrpgs, visual novels
• classic literature
• writing / drawing
• vocaloid
• foreign languages
• photography, chiaroscuro
• dank memes
• food (???)

• if i should die tonight / may i first just say i’m sorry / for i, never felt like anybody / i am a man of many hats although i never mastered anything - c’mon
• love is my high, too high to just disintegrate / yet feeling all my precious memories skin away / but through my low-life i’ve come to deprecate / all i wish for is one more hopeless summer to come - yellow
• is it worth it? / can you even hear me? / standing with your spotlight on me / not enough to feed the hungry / i’m tired and i felt it for a while now / in this sea of lonely / the taste of ink is getting old - the taste of ink
• please don't ask me to defend / the shameful lowlands of the way i’m drifting / gloomily through time / i reached inside myself today / thinking there’s got to be some way / to keep my troubles distant - the sun always shines on t.v.

anime and manga:

• far too many to list here, anyway

video games (incomplete, wip):

• Danganronpa
• Final Fantasy
• Pokémon
• Shin Megami Tensei
• Terraria
• The Elder Scrolls
• Yakuza
• Your Turn To Die

• “If I can entertain people, maybe I deserve to exist.”
• “Who you deceive or betray is totally up to you. Do what you like. Just... forgive yourself. That’s what saved me.”
• “Such tender places we create when we take what broke us and bend it into a better shape. The other day I watched her settle cookies into a pan. She looked at me and said: my daughter will never worry about what she eats. The other day I watched him pick up a cat so tenderly it immediately fell asleep. Half-crying he whispered: if only someone was this gentle to me.”
• “I don’t care about living or dying or who’s just and who’s evil! I don’t even give a fuck about the corpse being a saint or whatever! I’m still ‘negative’! I want to get up to ‘zero’! If I can get the corpse, I can get my ‘...