Send me Cards! :) Holiday cards in the mail = <3

or

GIRLY FASHION STUFF

• santa hat w/ leopard fur :)
• eyeshadow applicators
• oatmeal avocado face masks (or calming/moisturising face masks in general)
• nail polish
• Covergirl Eye Shadow Quads: Va Va Violets or breathtaking Blues
• eyeshadow, eyeliner (especially the pencils you don't have to sharpen LOL), lipstick, volumizing mascara (very black/ jet black et)
• lip balm, (vaseline lip therapy (go thru that so fast!), Bert's Bees, lipgloss etc
• Hair stuff: elastic hair ties, clips, claws, bows (especially small, satin ones), flowers, headbands, skulls/skeleton hands...

• hot air balloon
• sail boat
• tunnel
• magic portal
• flock of wild birds
• raft
• rocket ship

• magic spell
• cloak of invisibility
• cloaking device
• Quicksilver
• Monocane
• Kryponite mutated roses
• Hades' Helm
• the One Ring
• cosmic storm
• the troll king's shoes
• Tarnhelm
• The Ring of Gyges

• The Fall
• The Flatlands
• The Fog
• The Fury
• The Fields

• Luis Royo
• Owen Davis
• Van Gogh
• Zindy Nielsen
• Victoria Frances
• Andrea Joseph

• There are those who think I am strange
• You can’t save me, You can’t change me
• They would box me up and tell me to change
• Don’t try to fix me I’m not broken
• Love me, love me, say that you love me!
• love to me is so unreal
• My wounds can't seem to heal
• Say it if it's worth saving me..

• Clark Kent
• Lois Lane
• Peter Parker
• Lex Luthor
• Lana Lang
• Sue Storm
• Scott Summers
• Matt Murdock
• Silver Surfer
• Wonder Woman
• Dr. Doom
• Zantanna Zatara
• Otto Octavius
• Lionel Luthor
• Reed Richards
• Daniel Dreiberg

• dark, collar length, wavy hair which is in a perpetually tousled state
• dark eyes with long lashes
• tall, broad shoulders
• strong arms
• long limbed but not slight framed
• Botticelli hands
• dark complected
• sensuous mouth with a mischievous smile
• wild
• a representation of several Bryonic qualities
• affectionate but not excessively sentimental
• intelligent with an impish wit
• tattoos and/or scars
• imperfection

• deep, dark waters
• falling
• swarms (of anything, including people)
• sharp things
• young men (especially in packs..)
• being trapped
• causing harm
• zombies
• forgetting
• madness

• unsafe
• assailable
• helpless
• frangible
• defenseless
• unprotected
• vincible
• imperiled
• powerless
• exposed
• fragile

• despairing
• sorrowful
• heartsick
• downcast
• unhappy
• dejected
• miserable
• mournful
• anguished
• lugubrious
• dolorous
• depressed
• hopeless
• hurting
• embittered
• discouraged
• FORLORN:
  • 1) deserted, abandoned
  • 2) bereft of hope
  • 3) sad and lonely because of isolation or...

• ballet shoes...
• a blue victorian dollhouse...
• dusty lavender silk hair ribbon...
• silver pocket watch...
• piano (and the ability to play it)...
• dress printed with strawberries...
• le petit prince ...
• pretty peacoat...
• the last unicorn (novel)...
• pretty bib apron...
• ruby slippers...
• long strand of pearls...
• glass chess set...
• masquerade mask...
• grey silk anything...
• blue teddy bear...
• GIANT teddy bear...
• charm bracelet...
• grey koala bear...
• pink glass bottle...
• a peacock feather...

• "Do not do to others what you do not want done to yourself" -Confucius
• "Do unto others as you would have them do to you" -Jesus of Nazareth
• "What is hateful to you, do not do toyour neighbor" ~Hillel the Edler
• "Not one of you truely believes until you wish for othes what you wish for yourself" -the prophet Muhammad
• "In happiness & suffering, in joy & grief we should regard all creatures as we regard ourselfs"

• Prego Merlot Marinara <3 (best for veggie pasta dishes!)
• Ragu Creamy Mozerella (not by itself but great for mixing w/ red sauces)
• Prego Three Cheese- good basic sauce
• Prego Mini Meatballs
• Prego Spicy Red Pepper
• Classico Four Cheese Alfredo (actually has less sodium than regular alfredo- plus CHEESEY!)

• Secret People
• Monte Carlo Baby
• ✔ Roman Holiday
• ✔ Sabrina
• War & Peace
• Love in the Afternoon
• ✔ Funny Face
• Green Mansions
• The Nun's Story
• The Unforgiven
• ✔ Breakfast at Tiffany's
• The Children's Hour
• ✔ Charade
• Paris When it Sizzles
• My Fair Lady
• How to Steal a Million
• Two for the Road
• Wait Until Dark
• Robin & Marian
• Bloodline
• They All Laughed

• oxford shoes (with pretty details)
• peacoats
• berets & scarves
• cardigans
• deep v-necks & peter pan collars
• dark wash jeans
• lacy camisoles
• textured, coloured tights
• a-line & circle skirts
• shoes with bows
• ruffled skirts
• cropped sweaters
• high waisted skirts

• confused
• unsure
• shaky
• unstable
• precarious
• lost
• mixed up
• unsure
• insecure
• doubtful
• fitful
• adrift

• Green Mansions
• How to Steal a Million
• Love AMong Thieves
• Love in the Afternoon
• Paris When it Sizzles
• Robin & Marian
• The Children's Hour
• The Nun's Story
• The Unforgiven
• They All Laughed
• Two for the Road
• Wait Until Dark
• War & Peace

• torn things can be mended
• broken things can be salvaged
• stolen things can be recovered
• damned things can be redeemed
• weak things can be strengthened
• lost things can be found

• because you're the only one who can make me feel calm and safe
• because you try to be patient and to understand me.. even when it's driving you crazy.. which is something nobody else has even attempted for very long, even the ones who claimed to love me..
• because you are more honest with yourself and about yourself, including when you've made a mistake, than most anybody..
• because you will actually say you're sorry
• because I love just listening to you talk... you usually have a unique point of view or even just an interesting way of saying things
• because you are clever and funny and have a wicked sense of humour and make me smile
• because when you are happy or excited it's infectious

• La douleur : the pain of wanting someone you can't have (french)
• Esprit d'escalier: literally "staircase wit"; thinking of a comeback too late
• Saudade: the feeling or longing for something or someone you love which is lost (portuguese)
• Retrouvailles: The happiness of meeting again after a long time.(french)
• Gumusservi: moonlight shining on water (Turkish)
• Koi no yokan: the feeling that a relationship will evolve into love after the first meeting (japanese)
• L’appel du vide "call of the void" the urge to jump when in a high place (french)
• Avoir le mal de quelqu'un
• Verschlimmbesserung

• mermaid hair (that is to stay: absurdly long, wavy/curly and not excessively styled)
• brunette (or very pale blonde)
• fair skinned
• faint smattering of freckles
• big eyes (blue, green or grey)
• long eyelashes
• sweet
• round or heart shaped face
• petite yet voluptuous
• delicate wrists & hands
• little button nose
• intelligent with an impish wit
• imperfection

• Santana (Glee)
• John Bender (Breakfast Club)
• Ares (Xena/Hercules)
• Lestat (Vampire Chroncles)
• Alcide (True Blood)
• Caesar (Xena)
• Spike (Buffy/Angel)
• Faith (Buffy/Angel)
• Heathcliff (Wuthering Heights)
• Damon (Vampire Diaries)

• Skynet
• The Red Queen
• VIKI
• HAL 9000
• M5 Multitronic System

• English Bluebells
• African Daisies (Dimorphotheca ecklonis)
• Snowdrops
• Sweet Briar (Wild Rose)
• Cherry Blossoms
• Pink Daffodils
• Frangipani
• Larkspur
• The Himalayan Blue Poppy
• Water Lilly

• Mystique
• Saphira
• Nightcrawler
• Cookie Monster
• Sully
• Gonzo
• Beast
• Blue (Blue's Clues)
• Bedtime Bear
• Huckleberry Hound
• Buster Bunny
• Grover
• The Blue Fairy

• Boys
  • Edmund
  • Edward
  • Nathaniel
  • Lucius
  • Byron
  • Jack
  • Alastor
  • Alejandro
  • David (da-VEED)
  • Brennan
  • Carlos
  • Antony
  • Michael (hebrew pronounciation)
  • Luke
• Girls
  • Jane
  • Audrina
  • Anne :)

Kinda my own personal bible, these are quotes that kinda sum up my basic beliefs:

About Beliefs (rather strong-agnosticish)

• "The belief that there is only one truth & that oneself is in possession of it seems to me the deepest root of all evil that is in the world."
• "Nobody is more dangerous than he who imagines himself pure in heart, for his purity, by definition, is unassailable.”
• "Men never do evil so completely and cheerfully as when they do it from religious conviction"
• The only appropriate attitude for man to have about the big questions is not the arrogant certitude that is the hallmark of religion, but doubt. Doubt is humble, and that's what man needs to be, considering that human history is just a litany of getting sh*t dead wrong."

• Blue Sea Star
• Blue Morpho
• Electric Blue Gecko
• Blue Poison Dart Frog
• Blue Crayfish
• Rippled Trigger Fish
• Regal Tang
• Indigo Bunting
• Mountain Bluebird
• Hyacinth Macaw
• Turquoise Honeycreeper
• Ribbon Eel

• Ghiradelli's Intense Dark Twilight Delight (72% Cacao)
• See's Dark Buttercream
• See's Dark Bordeaux
• Milky Way Midnight
• See's Peanut Butter Patty (kicks Reese's a$$)
• Lindt Excellence- Intense Orange, Dark
• Lindt Dark Chocolate Truffles

• Pepto Bismal tablets
• Benadryl (tablets, not capsules)
• Ibuprofen (Advil)
• Gas-X Chewables Extra Strength
• Naproxen (Aleve)
• Hydrocortisone cream (like Cortizone 10)
• Antibiotic Cream PLUS PAIN RELIEF
• Antibiotic Ointment PLUS PAIN RELIEF
• Pectin Drops (Halls Fruit Breezers)
• cough drops
• New Skin Liquid Bandage
• Caladryl- pink or clear
• gauze pads
• rolled gauze (white is fine, I know coloured is hard to find...)
• medical tape
• colourful or cartoon bandaids <--- YAY!!
• extra large band-aids
• anti-bacterial soap
• scented hand sanitizer such as these
• pain patch

• black caraway
• sesame seeds
• ginger
• orange & vanilla extracts
• Ceylon Cinnamon
• Vietnamese cinnamon
• white pepper
• cumin

• Year One
• Arkham Asylum
• Dark Knight Returns
• Hush
• The Last Arkham
• The Killing Joke
• Court of the Owls
• Whatever Happened to the Caped Crusader?
• Batman Lobo: Deadly Serious #1

• under the bed
• in a closet/wardrobe
• under the table
• behind a tree
• behind a mask
• in your mind

• frightened
• fearful
• panic-stricken
• alarmed
• distressed
• worried
• overwrought
• on edge
• jittery
• shook up
• afraid
• disturbed

• sail away with a crew of pirates
• run off & join the circus
• take up with a caravan of travelling gypsies
• fly away w/ the aid of a million balloons
• discover a secret passage to another world
• enlist in the French Foreign Legion
• retire to a tree-house in the depths of a lush, wild jungle
• blast off in a rocket to the moon

• sanctuary
• shelter
• refuge
• harbor
• hideaway
• haven

• soft
• serene
• peaceful
• tranquil
• calm
• slumbering
• temperate
• gentle
• mild
• feathery
• solace

• Enamored
• Infatuated
• Twitterpated
• Smitten
• Enchanted
• Besotted

• beauteous
• lovely
• pleasing
• fetching
• comely
• beautiful
• fair
• exquisite
• stunning
• bonny
• winsome

• frightened
• intimidated
• terrified
• shaken
• aghast
• horrified
  • to be shocked and instilled with a painful and intense fear

• Paris
• Hawaii
• snow..
• Santa Cruz
• Disneyland
• Philadelphia
• Monterey Bay Aquarium
• San Francisco
• Mariposa Grove of Giant Sequoias
• Flyers Game
• San Diego Zoo & Safari Park
• Norfolk Zoo
• Metropolitan Museum of Art
• Vermont (in the fall)

• I'm always anxious & I panic way too easily
• I procrastinate too much. Usually in an attempt to avoid things that panic me
• I have trouble switching "modes" and switching between activities
• I babble.. or more often:
• I stop talking. Completely. For extended periods of time. I mean wtf?
• I argue or rant about stuff that happened a long time ago (not aloud, in my head)
• I lie about stupid stuff
• I cry too much (or too easily)
• I'm forgetful & absent minded
• I'm freaking clumsy! always dropping things or bumping into things...
• I'm socially retarded. I don't get jokes & I say inappropriate things.
• I'm disorganized
• I get preoccupied doing little stuff and forget what I'm supposed to be doing

• Cyclamen
• Christmas Rose
• Holly Berry
• Snow Crocus
• Casa Blanca Lily
• Narcissus
• Pansy
• Pepperberry
• Amaryllis
• Queen Anne's Lace
• Star of Bethlehem
• Snow drops

• slit wrists

(not strong enough)

• alcohol poisoning

(too sensitive to alcohol would def pass out too soon)

• jump

(no access to place high enough)

• overdose

(REALLY high failure rate especially with amount of meds in my system already & drugs i have access to)

• hang

(too fat, rope would break)

• drowning

(i panic under water)

• long hair
• long eyelashes
• sound of high heels on marble floor
• broad shoulders (on men)
• accents
• guitarists
• tattoos
• brown eyes
• mischievous smiles

• Luna Moth
• Rosy Maple Moth
• Rosy Footman
• The Southern Purple Mint Moth
• Raspberry Wave Moth
• Sunset Moth
• Cinnabar Moth

• Cerulean
• Azure
• Lapis
• Indigo
• Ultramarine
• Midnight
• Sapphire
• Lazuline
• Periwinkle