- guilt complex
- parents
- general mental health stigma
- internalized
- really hard for me to be emotionally close to someone via just speaking, rather than writing
- being emotionally vulnerable through speech is really weird
- am trying?
- can't cry
- really want to
- should i be trying to make myself?
- afraid that'll just make me more anxious and sad with no outlet
- being hsp related to sensory processing disorder (sensitivity?)
- can discern when more anxious, &c, but my mood just seems to be pervasive/more constant
- really negative
- worst case scenario
- never getting better
- never feeling better
- never walking again
- &c.
- guilty for what i feel, for being sad, for being anxious
- keep tying my worth to my essay writing, and how i am doing academically, since that makes up so much of how i identify
- feel like dying? not living? something
apr 15 2012 ∞
oct 23 2013 +